Borderline Culture Is Drowning In Guilt, But Not Really Wanting To Change Because You Believe It's Penance

bpd culture is thinking you're a monster when you first start splitting (or noticing that you're splitting) on other people, because no normal person would suddenly start hating their friends

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remember to pay attention to me btw. remember to pay attention and to be in love with me. btw. right now

BPD culture is seeing yourself/relating to horrible characters and people, and having others shame you for it despite the fact that you can't control that, and if you could you gladly would because you would much rather be able to fit in and have a normal amount of empathy and a good morality than relate to/sympathize with literal murderers

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bpd culture is sending way too many asks directed to ur fp and now ur overthinking that they'll see the asks you sent and if they do its so fucking over (sorry if i sent so many asks btw lol)

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suspected BPD + self-evaluated AudHD culture is finally getting the courage to cut off your (suspected) FP after repeatedly having your boundaries disregarded and allowing your own mental health to deteriorate for the sake of preserving theirs and STILL having moments of soul-crushing guilt, paranoia, and anxiety despite knowing it was for the best. it's feeling like such a fool and feeling like you should've seen the red flags sooner. it's realizing just how unfair it was that you were held to a more strict standard in the relationship than they were and splitting on them because you feel so betrayed. it's breaking down multiple times because you feel like you're just giving up on them and maybe they'll finally change after you showed them the damage they caused you. it's being so scared and paranoid about even sending in asks to talk about this because what if they see this and retaliate against me for cutting them off and speaking about this publicly even if anonymously? it's being unable to focus because of the overwhelming amount of emotions you're feeling at one time. it's struggling to reach out to those who are supporting you because you don't want to be a bother.

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