I Want This Pain To End

Due to a recent trip to the doctors office without insurance, I am completely broke. I am a 23 year old mentally disabled trans woman and I need help. I posted one before but nothing seemed to work on that one.

If anyone can help donate money for stuff like my HRT or food or stuff I need in general, please send your donation to my paypal (screamboyty@gmail.com) or reblog so I can get the word out. 

I hate doing this so much and I want to not have to worry about shit for once and not have to cry and beg over and over again. I am trying to find a job near where I live so I can I make enough to finally leave this state for good.

I love you so much and seriously, never stop being amazing <3

TRANS WOMEN: HERE'S SOME SHIT YOUR DOCTOR WONT TELL YOU ABOUT HRT

1. Progesterone: not for everyone, but for many people it may increase sex drive and WILL make your boobs bigger. Also effects mood in ways that many find positive (but some find negative). Most doctors won’t prescribe this to you unless you ask. Most trans girls I know swear by it.

2. Injectible estrogen: is more effective than pill or patch form. Get on it if you can bear needles bc you will see more effects more quickly.

3. Estradiol Cypionate: There is currently a shortage of injectible estradiol valerate. There is no shortage of estradiol cypionate. Functionally they do the same shit.

4. Bicalutamide: This is an anti-androgen that has almost none of the side-effects of spironolactone or finasteride. The girls I know who are on it are evangelical about it.

If you’re 5′8″ or taller and identify as female then you are a beautiful Amazon warrior goddess. Sorry, I don’t make the rules. 

sometimes life is tough but then you remember that you’re real cute

Seeing that other question gave me the courage to ask, I would really like to know the effects and also how reversible that are.

These are the typical results of hormone replacement therapy which includes taking estrogen and anti-androgens (testosterone-blockers). 

NOTE: Remember that hormones affect each person differently and not all of these effects are guaranteed for everyone)

Breasts

semi-reversible: will shrink a little, surgery needed for full removal

Body hair

lessens and becomes thinner

fully-reversible

Facial hair

facial hair may become thinner/lighter but will not disappear completely without permanent hair removal 

fully-reversible (before permanent hair removal)

Skin

skin will become noticeably softer and thinner/delicate

bruising will likely occur more easily

fully-reversible

Fat redistribution

fat will redistribute from masculine areas (upper body, waist and stomach) to feminine areas (lower body, hips and butt)

fat redistribution will also occur in the face

fully-reversible

Muscle Mass

significant decrease in muscle mass and strength (especially in upper body)

fully-reversible

Genitals

testicles will shrink significantly

penis may shrink somewhat

production of testosterone and sperm will be greatly reduced

reduced sex-drive

reduced erections

reduced ejaculation (may stop completely)

probable infertility in the long term

semi-reversible: it is not known whether or not these effects are reversible or not. These effects are likely reversible in the short term, and likely not reversible in the long term

Body/other

decrease in oiliness of hair

possible minor feet/height shrinkage (rare)

change in body odor

Emotional changes

Most trans girls I have talked to have experienced an emotional shift when starting hormones. Having the correct hormone fueling our bodies results in a calmness/peace within ourselves both emotionally and hormonally that makes you feel much more at-ease in your own body. That is the best way I can describe it.

by Kat Swenski More Behind the GIFs

Yeaaahhh... definitely true me being a pisces :/

negative traits the sister signs share

Aries & Libra : Both fall out of love just as quick as they fell into it. Both are reckless with people’s hearts and won’t hesitate to drop them if things aren’t going their way. Aries wont be happy in a relationship unless they’re the boss and Libra won’t be happy in a relationship unless their partner lives up to their ideals. Y'all some selfish motherfuckers. 

Taurus & Scorpio: Both are defensive af and have trust issues. They think everyone’s out to get them and hurt them. People could take a bullet for these guys and they’ll still not trust you. This can causes them to be possessive and suspicious in relationships. Y'all some paranoid motherfuckers. 

Gemini & Sagittarius: Both hate responsibilities and any sort of stability. They hate the mundane life and live reckless lifestyles. Commitment to anything terrifies them. They just suck when it comes to being reliable and having to think about someone other than themselves. Y'all some careless motherfuckers. 

Cancer & Capricorn: Both have a hard time letting the negative shit go. They’re very petty and can get fixated on revenge. Both tend to wallow in their nostalgia and melancholic thoughts. Hate being lonely and alone yet don’t do anything about it but throw a pity party. Y'all some pessimistic motherfuckers. 

Leo & Aquarius: Both are prideful and stubborn. They are my way or the highway type of people. Both think they’re better than everyone else but yet tend to have a deep fear of rejection. This fear causes them to not associate with people who disagree with them because they can’t stand being called out on their bullshit because it would kill their delusions of being the best. Y'all some egotistical motherfuckers. 

 Virgo & Pisces: Both have a Martyr complex. Both try to always be of service to others and can be extremely sacrificial. This can cause them to feel entitled to people having to be appreciative of them and thus can cause them to develop a victim complex when they’re not rewarded for their selflessness. They end up screwing themselves over when they put everyone’s needs before their own and they have no one to blame but themselves. Y'all some Mother-Theresa-wannabe motherfuckers.