When I Say "romanticise The Ordinary" I Don't Mean "hide All Aspects Of Your Life That Do Not Fit Under

~✧°+* 24/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

27.08.2023

In the context of this challange I'd like to forget about the past four days in their entirety.

I haven't necessarily been feeling bad, but I was in a constant state of stress and overstimmulation that didn't allow me to function normally, like... at all.

Today I arrived at my parents'. I'll be staying with family until mid September. I have a few things planned, like my siblings' birthday party and a DnD session with friends, though fo the most part I'll be focusing on finishing my assignments and finding a rhythm again. I honestly think that not being around people (other than my family) will do me good.

Positive things I did today:

cleaned my apartment

did laundry

Hours slept: ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~3hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~600

29.03.2023

deadlines are the only thing making me feel alive

i am just a girl i should not have to “fulfill my course requirements” to get a “degree” what kind of a society is this anyway

(𝔗𝔬𝔡𝔞𝔶… 𝔱𝔬𝔡𝔞𝔶 𝔦𝔱 𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔱𝔰.)

~✧°+* 27/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

30.08.2023

I felt a lot better and stopped taking my meds early. That came to bite me in the butt in the evening, so we're back to the meds :')

I did manage to go on a little walk tho! Motivating myself to go for walks is a lot harder whenever I visit my parents because my home town is located in a very hilly area. The city I live in now is mostly flat (also because it's, well, a city and not a small town) and so simply going out (and staying out longer) is, for some reason, easier to justify in my mind. I do, however, love the nature surrounding my home town, so walks are usually worth the exhaustion.

Positive things I did today:

finished literature review for the Hamilton essay and made a writing plan

went for a walk

Hours slept:  ~8hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.400

~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and

~✧°+* 11/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

10.08.2023

More literature review and spending lots of time outside.

Building and keeping routines has always been a struggle for me. It works during the semester because I build my personal routine (when to get up, when to have food, when to do chores) around my classes, but during the semester break it all falls apart :') So for the past week I've been making an effort to get up at a reasonable time and head outide right after getting ready. It's done wonders both for my productivity as well as my mental health

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

continued literature review

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

went for a walk

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~8.900