Nihil When Sister Talks About Copia

holy fuck.

You wanna know the reality of dissociative identity disorder?

Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is:

Crying, begging yourself that it's fake cause it's terrifying

Reliving trauma over and over again

No memory of childhood and often memory gaps depending on the system

Being told you need to "go back to church" or "get off the internet" or "get over it", etc.

Being dubbed "demonic", "crybaby", "attention whore", etc.

Being more likely to fall into/back into abuse

The 70 PERCENT SUICIDE RATE

Being unable to get diagnosed due to stigma

The stigma in general, paired with such heavy amounts of misinformation that it makes it hard to find accurate/up to date studies and research

Ableism and distrust from medical professionals

Being denied medical help because your deemed mentally unstable

Being compared to "those 'freaks' on TikTok"

Video's on top of video's making fun of people with DID and misunderstanding majority of the disorder

People romanticizing and making your disorder an aesthetic

Dealing with ableism and toxicity not only outside, but within the DID community

Getting fakeclaimed for not only the disorder but for the very trauma that caused it

Getting fakeclaimed for having a large headcount

Getting fakeclaimed for having a low headcount

Getting fakeclaimed for having introjects or non-human alters

Getting fakeclaimed for having young alters or having only older alters

Getting fakeclaimed for being young

Getting fakeclaimed for being old

Getting fakeclaimed for not "acting disordered"

Getting fakeclaimed for acting "too disordered"

Getting fakeclaimed for having comorbid disorders

Getting fakeclaimed for not having the exact same traits or symptoms as someone else with DID

Getting fakeclaimed because the disorder isn't "believable"

Getting fakeclaimed for not having amnesia or blackouts

Getting fakeclaimed because you switch "too fast"

Getting fakeclaimed because you switch "too slow"

Getting fakeclaimed for anything anyone can come up with

The "host > rest of the system"

Being forced to think DID has to act a specific way or look a certain way

Nobody ever bothering to understand or study the disorder

Being spoke over by non-disordered voices

Being treated like a circus attraction or test subject

All the horror movies based on the disorder

The ideology that everyone with DID is criminal or predatory

All the distrust

Getting told your trauma wasn't "that bad/bad enough"

Being terrified of being seen as "cringe-y"

Never ever being able to be fully open and true to yourself

In some cases, not even being able to tell your own family

Isolation.

This is not at all meant to be seen as looking for sympathy, I want people to understand what people like us have to deal with on near daily basis both inside and outside the internet. These are all very real things, and of course everyone's experiences vary individually, but these are some of the most common things I've seen among the DID community.

Systems are free to add on sharing their own experiences and everyone is encouraged to reblog. (/Nf)

Any non-traumagenic "systems" can find another post, this isn't for you, our struggles are completely different.

hii!! first post on tumblr, im in many fandom so you can expect so different and unrelated media here just so you know!

one of the latest drawing i was able to finish!

shoutout to introjects who don't like their source

shoutout to introjects who do like their source.

shoutout to introjects who are similar to their souce

shoutout to introjects who aren't similar their source

shoutout to introjects with popular sources

shoutout to introjects with obscure/unpopular sources

shoutout to systems with a lot of introjects

shoutout to systems with few introjects

shoutout to introjects. you're just as valid as any other alter <3

-anonymous introject

I love women!!! The Ghoulette Quartet is done which means all ten of the IMPERA ghouls have been sketched <3

i have decided. papa nihil and sister imperator are the only romance that matters. my guy wrote three songs during his entire lifetime, and all of them were about her. and all of them also fuck hard. they made out inside a coffin in a graveyard after she beat the shit out of him for several hours, probably. pathetic bimbo of a man x sadistic freak of a woman. i may be typically romance averse but they will always be an exception because what the hell is wrong with both of them. they are my romeo and juliet

ive always liked the idea of the ghouls sounding like the people who play them, but imagine mountain speaks for the first time around everyone else and they lose their minds because all they can think is "why is he austrailian"

This is what phantom has in his room

rain wearing his packer for the first time around the others. swiss loses his fucking mind. send post.

ive seen it done both ways so im curious now