Never Would I Have Thought That Bill Would Describe Penny So S Of T L Y....

I couldn’t resist.

Whatever makes you say that, dear anon?

I’d say that right now Mo is confused and unsure about what’s he’s feeling, but he’s definitely beginning to become conscious of it and it scares him a bit, that’s why he’s so prone to yell that HT pisses him off.

For once, let me say that for Mo it’s practically impossible to quickly develop attraction and feelings for another person. Mo has been bullied since a very tender age and his natural response was to clam up inside of himself. It’s very human and very relatable, and quite typical for the victims of bullying. He has been ostracized. He has been used by people like She Li. Life has let him down and he’s grown weary and distrustful of those around him. More importantly, he learned how to cope by himself and not rely on (or need) anyone else. 

To Mo, He Tian is one of those people, who are responsible for the shit happening to the underprivileged like himself. He believes that wealth leads to people abusing it in all the wrong ways. And, let’s be honest, He Tian’s behaviour, in the beginning, did fit this mould. We as readers know that He Tian genuinely wants to help him, but Mo doesn’t. For him, He Tian is just a popular spoiled brat, who bothers him just for the kicks, and Mo has no reason to believe that somebody like that would take a genuine interest in himself. That there’s kindness behind his actions - remember, Mo used to say that HT is fake? The reason for Momo’s disbelief is that he grew up with such a world view, and it’s not easy to shake it off. It’s not easy to overcome trust issues.

Luckily over time that belief started to waver. He Tian was probably the only person in his life who bothered to help him without asking anything in return. Who cared for him (even in a roundabout way). He Tian was ready to do some martyr-like shit for Mo. It didn’t go unnoticed, even if Mo may not fully realize why HT would go so far for a street kid.

If Momo hadn’t liked He Tian, he wouldn’t be constantly blushing at the slightest physical contact. It may be just a physical thing, but it’s definitely there. If Momo didn’t care about HT, he wouldn’t have rushed to his apartment, when HT sent him “bloodied” hand. When He Tian disappeared after sending him to the hospital, Momo wanted to know his whereabouts. Momo wouldn’t have been checking his phone all the time. If he didn’t care, he wouldn’t have held his hand, when HT was having a nightmare.

And lastly, let’s look at one of Mo’s dreams. He’s dreaming that he’s being bullied by a mob again until He Tian appears and saves him. Lots of people pay attention to the butt grab, but the truly important thing here is the fact that Momo actually cries in HT’s shoulder. I think that says more than anything that he actually sees He Tian as a source of his comfort. Would he see somebody he didn’t like this way? I think not.

Anyway, I don’t think Momo can rationalize his feelings right now. He definitely doesn’t dislike HT and he’s definitely getting physical reactions. He’s also quite a bit of tsundere and would deny it to the very end, and it would take plenty of time for him to come to terms with what’s he’s feeling.

Whoa, that’s a wall o’text again, srry.

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