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How a friendship (or a relationship) should NOT make you feel:
What if I’m not good enough to be their friend/partner?
If I keep doing everything in my power to please/impress this person, then maybe they’ll someday acknowledge me and like me
I’m not worth their attention. I was stupid to expect them to care about me. I should have known I’m not special to them from the start.
What they just did crushes me inside and makes me feel invisible/worthless/forgettable/abandoned but I know it’s my fault for being like this and I can never bring it up or they’ll think I’m a freak
I should stuff my feelings down and accept that I’m just not that important and that if they accidentally walk all over me this is fine and I have to find a way to be at peace with it
I wish they would give me at least half as much attention as I’m giving them. But if I bring it up, they’ll think I expect too much or that I’m keeping count and I shouldn’t. Maybe one day they’ll return the attention.
I don’t feel cared about at all. I feel just as lonely as when I didn’t have anyone, but now also scared that it’s my fault.
I’m scared of what they’re going to think of me if I say how I feel. I’m scared what they’re going to think if they find out more about me.
I can tell I’ll be abandoned as soon as I confront them about anything unfair and painful they’ve done to me.
I want to have someone but this is painful.
I don’t think they realize my feelings are real, and that I’m a real person who exists even at time when they don’t need me. I don’t think I can explain this to them.
I feel used, but it’s my fault for allowing them to use me. I need to figure this out myself.
I feel that for every good thing I do for their life, they make mine more painful and unbearable. They don’t even notice it because they don’t know what I’m going thru. And I don’t dare to tell them.
If I tell them what’s painful for me, when they inevitably do it again, I’ll know they knew they’re hurting me. I wouldn’t be able to stand it.
Would they just be happier without me?
I’m spending more time fretting and over-analyzing what they’re going to do than enjoying their stay in my life..
I don’t think this person ever cared about me. They only saw what they could get out of me.
I feel like crying repeatedly when I remember things they did and said to me
I feel that they want to keep me even when it’s incredibly painful for me to endure it. I want to be set free. Why won’t they let me go.
If this is your experience in a friendship or a relationship, it’s not love and care that you’re getting out of it. These situation should not happen in a loving, healthy and mutually caring friendships or relationships.
It’s unlikely that you feel slighted by things that aren’t meant to slight you. Being ignored, neglected, left behind, manipulated, used, lead on, groomed, shamed, forced to fear what their perception of you is - those are all scenarios that would upset and bring pain and misery to every single person. You’re not irrational for feeling this, and you don’t have to hide it. If someone is repeatedly making you feel this way, you’re more than justified in leaving. You don’t need to endure this for anyone.
Midnight Pals: Imagination
Neil Gaiman: [inhaling fresh morning air] ahhhh what a great day for a race! Clive Barker: what race? Gaiman: the HUMAN race Gaiman: i was just thinking of the awesome potential of the human mind Gaiman: and the limitless vista of the human imagination
Gaiman: just imagine! with the awesome power of imagination, YOU are in control of your own fantasies Gaiman: all you need is a pinch of curiosity, a dash of wonder Gaiman: and an ounce of whimsy!! Gaiman: butterfly in the skyyyy Gaiman: i can fly twice as hiiiigh
Gaiman: why, you could imagine anything! Gaiman: you could imagine a clockwork alligator as big as the sky! Gaiman: you could imagine a railroad conductor made of lemon drops! Gaiman: you could even imagine Gaiman: a boy who wears glasses and goes to a wizard school
Rowling: hello children Rowling: my lawyersss inform me there'sss some copyright infringement happening here Gaiman: ah but joanne Gaiman: if you check the time stamps, i'm sure you'll find that Tim Hunter actually PREDATES harry potter Rowling: Rowling: curssse you gaiman Rowling: you win thisss round
Rowling: curssse you gaiman Rowling: not even i am rich enough to overcome the limitsss of chronological time! Rowling: not yet Rowling: but sssomeday Rowling: if only i hadn't ssspent sso much on that fence
Alan Moore: [appearing in a clap of thunder] Behold! The Arch magus! King: the arch magus! Koontz: the arch magus! Lovecraft: the arch magus! Barker: the arch magus! Poe: the arch magus!
Alan Moore: behold! the story of the boy wizard antichrist! Rowling: ALRIGHT i can definitely sssue over this Moore: ah foolish mortal, observe and know... i never specifically SAID harry potter Rowling: Moore: i just said the boy wizard named [mumbles] who goes to school at [mumbles] school of witchcraft and wizardry and fights [mumbles]
Rowling: curse you moore! Rowling: alwayssss one ssstep ahead of the game! Rowling: curssse your plausssible deniability! Rowling: hmmm "plaussible deniability" huh? Rowling: well TWO can play that game...
Rowling: so anyway the nazis didn't actually commit those documented crimes King: gosh joanne that uh kinda sounds- Rowling: oh but you'll notice i never said the word "holocaust" Rowling: haha i'm too sslippery for you! Rowling: johnny law can't keep up! Rowling: they'll never catch JK Rowling with her molted ssskin around her anklesss!
Why bother arguing in support of trans people if you’re not trans?
very simple concept called believing in human rights
I probably put way too much thought into it but I do enjoy making a more in depth story rather than winging it. I like to actually think about the worldbuilding, make sure things actually connect and make sense. I am a big history nerd and I feel like it's the closest I can get to writing my own history.
if you told vin diesel fast and the furious you were gay he'd be like "Some people like driving stick…some people like driving automatic…what matters is you cross the finish line.." and then he'd rev up a dodge challenger and drive through a building and kill 16 people
"who cares" new fandom motto bc we sorely need it around these parts. Time to embrace the Who Cares energy bc like fr actually. who cares
I just kinned the Bg3 companions with my little pony characters (it was relevant to thr post I reblogged I swear) which has reminded me of my love of kinning.
So.
Bg3 companions as SIX queens.
Apparently my blog is just Bg3 + musicals now.
Okay!
These don’t fit perfectly but whatever.
Also spoilers for backstories and character quests.
Lae’zel is Catherine of Aragon, and No Way is her talking to Vlaakith. She was perfect and devoted and then turns out Vlaakith sucks and now hates her even though she was the perfect devoted follower. Also low key the drum breakdown is giving military to me, idk why.
Anne Boleyn is Gale because 1. Confident, 2. I just want him to be silly. As a treat. Lose Your Head is him talking about his relationship with Mystra and how not feeling good enough for her drove him to do reckless things that ended up getting him banished/basically sentenced to death.
Jane Seymour is Shadowheart because she put up with the abuse for a long ass time and also emotional repression, and grief of her parents paralleling Jane’s grief for herself and her son.
Anna of Cleves is Karlach. She has the best attitude out of all of them and the most self-confidence, and even though her good times are cut short (regardless of which ending she gets) she’s having a great time while she’s here.
Katherine Howard is Astarion. Because… yeah.
Catherine Parr is Wyll. Voice of reason, wants to be known for who he is outside of his abuser (Mizora, maybe his dad too idk) and has tons of accomplishments unrelated to his abuse. I also feel like without Tav he’d be the voice of reason and the one to help everyone through their shit.
where'd that horse girl lae'zel truther post go
edit: a sequel has manifested
Jar (Our Greatest Enemy)
The strength economy is in shambles.
100% Karlach just thinks a deathmatch is a fun friendly time
Pictured: Gale rolling a nat 1 on his insight check
had to sit and wait for two hours in a cafe today, so I sketched a little :>
No you don't understand I need to see him crawling, covered in blood, horrifically injured, and traumatized
Suddenly struck with a need to explain to you how boat pronouns work (I work in the marine industry).
When you're talking about the design of the boat, you say "it".
When the boat is still being built, your say "it".
When the boat is nearing completion, you can say "it" or "she".
When the boat is floating in the water you probably say "she", unless there is still a lot of work to be done (e.g. no engine yet) then you say "it".
When the boat is officially launched and operating, you say "she". If you continue to say "it" at this point you are not incorrect but suspiciously untraditional. You are not playing the game.
If you are referring to a boat you don't really know anything about you may say "it" ("there's a big boat, it's coming this way"). But if you know its name, it's probably "she" ("there's the Waverley, she's on her way to Greenock").
If you are talking about boats in general, you say "it" ("when a boat is hit by a wave it heels over")
If you speak about a boat in complimentary terms, it's "she" ("she's a grand boat"). If you are being disparaging it may be it, but not necessarily ("it's as ugly as sin", "she's a grotty old tub").
If she has a boy's name, she's still she. "Boy James", "King Edward", "Sir David Attenborough"? The pronoun is she.
If it's a dumb barge (no engine), you say it. But if it's a rowing boat (no engine), you say she.
I hope this has cleared things up so that you may not be in danger of misgendering floating objects.
A friend sent this to me today and I feel attacked😅
i feel like no one really wants to hear that sleep/exercise/nutrition/hydration are major factors in treating mental health issues bc we’ve all talked to that person who thinks your depression would be cured by one good session of goat yoga or whatever but unfortunately they do help and i’m chronically annoyed about it
genuinely mystified by the kind of person that would produce this image and not realize "oh, I'm being fucking ridiculous"
NO OTHER PLANET IN OUR SOLAR SYSTEM GETS TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSES!! THE SIZE AND DISTANCE OF OUR MOON FROM EARTH AND THE SUN MAKE THE PERFECT CIRCUMSTANCES TO GET TOTALITY!!! THE EARTH AND MOON ARE SOOOO COOL AND OF COURSE OUR SUN!! I LOVE LIVING ON EARTH I LOVE YOU EARTH I LOVE YOUUUUU MOON I LOVE YOU SUN
A lot clicked for me when my mom said the reason she was so reactive towards me as a kid was that she assumed intent behind things I did, rather than recognizing my behaviors for being normal kid behaviors or normal autism behaviors. So I got treated as if I was an adult who was intentionally doing things to upset her. She'd react to me like I had the maturity and wherewithal to do things in a cruel or manipulative way, making her life harder, when I was just existing. Just trying to learn how to cope and be a person myself. When she told me this I stopped in my tracks trying to process. Why would anyone's default assumption be that a kid is trying to antagonize them instead of like, struggling with something they're experiencing? But she was also raised the exact same way, treated like everything she did carried the weight of adult responsibility, not seen as a kid.
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This is Charles. He wants to go on a journey around tumblr. could you show him around?
New favorite B Dylan Hollis quotes:
"Tomato spice: if pumpkin spice got hit by a bus."
"If this red flag was any bigger, it would be a blanket."
"Looks like barbecue sauce, smells of death."
"It tastes like someone killed Italy."
"How do you know when a laxative is done baking?"
"Good morning, it's time for mayonnaise."
"Mid-century America has produced many suspect salads, many of which continue to leak out of the angsty states of Wisconsin and Minnesota."
*incoherent screaming upon salt package spilling onto the floor*
"This tastes like a diagnosis."
Lessons I have learned:
People in the 60s were very creative with gelatin, for better and for worse.
The absence of sugar in WW2 encouraged the use of raisins in desserts, which raises a number of questions as for why they continued to be used after.
Margarine is the work of the devil and should be treated as such.
Repeat after me:
It is OKAY to have content preferences and to be uncomfortable with certain ships or topics, controversial or not. It is OKAY to distance yourself from such content and block certain tags or creators.
It is NOT OKAY to actively hate and harass real people for creating content of fictional characters that features things that make you uncomfortable.