Pro-depressants

in all the years I've had kanade as my special interest I have seen a plethora of bad takes about her but besides the more obvious ones another really bad one I've seen recently is that kanade has one of the most stable mental health because "she does what she feels like and doesn't hide her true feelings" which has got to be the single most surface level reading of her character I have ever seen. it goes back to this pattern I see in which prsk fans can't pick up on when a character is sad unless they show it as clearly as possible because what even is subtly. kanade hides her negative emotions just as much as mafuyu and mizuki do but the difference between her and them is that she hasn't slipped up yet. we've seen this as early on since kana1 where she does it twice; when she quickly leaves the hospital after finding out her dad doenst remember her and later on when she recalls her childhood picnic and cries because of how bittersweet it is and it's very clear that she was trying not to cry in both scenes just from the tone of her voice. this is seen again in kana4 where rushes to leave the sekai after telling rin the story about when she made her first song but then remembers what happened to her father, rin points out that she looks upset but kanade doesn't wanna admit it because she believes her problems aren't that serious (which apparently is a sentiment that the fandom agrees with). these aren't even subtle anyone who bothers to pay attention to any of these can pick up on kanades habit of repressing her negative emotion. and while yes she does love music, her dedication to composing isn't as simple as "I make music because it's fun and I like it :)" it's also somewhat of a job to her, a thing she does to give herself a purpose which she believe she needs to deserve a place on this earth. kanade’s saviour complex has been misunderstood in many different ways and one if them is this aspect with how much it's negatively affected her life both physically and mentally but it's been watered down to the simplest degree possible. it's why I hate the notion of "kanade can't heal until mafuyu does" when if anything that would just send her into an emotional spiral and an existential crisis because while kanade's desire to save people applies to everyone (its why n25 was created) it would still leave her feeling useless and therefore worthless as a person we've seen this in kana2, the event where kanade is at her lowest (and also hasn't met mafuyu yet), is still overworking herself to death despite how many times she's gotten comments from people saying her songs have saved them because in her eyes she will never be enough. to this day she still has this mentality, ena and mizuki have told her multiple times that she's gotten them out of rough periods in their lives and kanade’s saviour complex still lingers because it was never about just mafuyu. once mafuyu is out of the picture she'll just find someone else to latch onto for the desire of approval and it'll just be an endless cycle of misery until she breaks out of this mentality. saving mafuyu isn't the thing that's gonna heal her, she needs to let go of her guilt, realize that it was never her fault, and by proxy detaching herself from the desire to be useful. to live because she wants to, not because she needs to. so no, she's not "doing whatever she feels like" she's fulfilling an impossible goal she set for herself in an attempts to make herself happy but hasn't realized that it's the very thing that's been making her miserable

I reset my entire tablet if it doesn't open now I'm cooked

My pjsk won't open help

Left my vocaloid playlist on random and just got The Bells jumpscare

I can't use words but I hope you like these kitties I got on Pinterest

Your brother love you <3

IT'S THE SAME CREEPER PLUSHIE I HAVEEE

ty ily very very very very much you're the best brother <3333

idk how to do words but thank you sososo much lil bro :333

THEY'RE ALL SO CUTEEEEE T_T

Pretend they're looking at a screen with a spiral on itm anyways yes rin is NOT hypnotized it's the major rule in the hypnosis sekai rulebook

Man, I sure love inflicting severe trauma and existencial crisis on fictional characters through rp accounts

CHAT THEY'RE LEARNING HOW TO TUNE THEY'RE LEARNING HOW TO TUNE THE VOCALOIDS THEY'RE LEARNING CHAT

GOD WHAT WAS THAT IT'S PERFECT I'LL EXPLODE

Miku where tf is my sekai

//Thank you for enjoying the angst and Mafu sadness

@yuki-25ji [OFFLINE]

Always!!!! :3

Peak arc btw, you're cooking mod 🔥🔥🔥