Who's Gonna Show Kevin Day History Of The Entire Word, I Guess By Bill Wurtz? I Think Neil Would Find

quick sketch of jean and jabberwocky

Lowkey, I think it's kind of sad how Kevin lost his best friend, aka Jean, in the midst of everything. Like romantic or platonic, both of them truly loved each other and understood each other despite everything. Kevin and Jean protected each other; Jean taught him French, and Jean listened to Kevin rant about history. I wonder what Kevin feels when the eyes that once used to light up when kevin entered the room is now filled with nothing but contempt. And I wonder what Jean feels when the eyes that once were filled with kindness are riddled with guilt

I miss her

put neil josten in solitary refinement that man needs to learn some manners

*me, literally sick with want* whatever

there is not a thought behind those eyes

I can't express enough just how important Kaz Brekker is for younger disabled people. I first read Six of Crows when I was sixteen years old and just starting to experience more severe symptoms of my chronic illness. I refused to get a mobility aid because I felt like it was admitting defeat, like it would make me weak. Then I read about Kaz Brekker- a boy my age going through similar pain and need for aid that I am, and he was Strong. He wasn't just strong in spite of his disability, he was stronger For it. Having such a strong, dangerous, and honestly just Really Cool character with a disability not entirely unlike my own completely shifted my view of my limitations. I got myself the cane I needed and I started to feel almost proud to walk with it. It turned from something that made me feel weak into something that felt powerful and defiant- like I was reminding a world that wasn't designed for people like me to live in that I will Not accept defeat and that I will continue to live my life using the tools at my disposal. Without that representation I might not have reached that place of acceptance, especially not so quickly..

We have disability representation in media, but often those characters are portrayed as softer, weaker, quieter characters. Those one-note portrayals made me feel like that's all I could ever be. Then Kaz Brekker came in and showed me that people like me can be strong too. That means the world to young disabled people. We need representation like this. We need to feel strong again.

I JUST REALIZED THAT NEIL JOSTEN HAS THE SAME INITIALS AS NEW JERSEY

me: *sees the color orange in literally any context*

me: this is exactly like The Foxhole Court (2013)

They will never make me hate Kevin Day.

Growing up he never knew his dad. His mom died when he was young. He'll only ever be able to know her through other people's stories, silently hating himself and resenting them for knowing her more than he ever will. Even though she is remembered as a celebrity, memories fade, imagine him asking himself, would I even remember what she looked like if there weren't articles and pictures of her? Plus, it's incredibly unlikely he was given time to grieve or ask questions about his parents and family history once he was abducted into the nest. No. In fact, Kevin was no longer the son of Kayleigh Day, instead he was forced into the role of a 'son of exy'. He holds on to the sport so tightly, partially because he was raised a Raven, but also because it is the only tangible thing he has that belonged to his mom. He probably dosent know any stories about Kayleigh except for ones reported in the news, and he knows from experience that a media persona is much different than the person behind it. Tetsuji certainly dosent seem like the type of guy who would have sat a young Kevin down and told him about his mom. And Kevins relationship with Wymack is not easy to navigate, it will probably take a while before he asks Wymack to tell him about Kayleigh. Exy is the only thing he's ever been able to safely have that connects him to his mom in a meaningful way. Kevin had to build a media persona as a teen, smiling and acting like he and Riko were brothers and best friends. Growing up, he watched as Riko became more ruthless and hateful. Was he worried of becoming like him? Or was violence already so normalized by Tetsuji and the Ravens that young Kevin was already desensitized? People call him selfish, egotistical, an asshole, a coward. And, yea he kinda is all those things, but he's also much more.

I wrote this cause I was procrastinating doing my math homework so it's probably only partially coherent, I have so many more thoughts about this diva but I'll save those for another day