P L A N T S

So sick of dog motif what about cat motif.

I love you but we don't love the same. I can't be near you when you want me to be. Your love is smothering and your need to keep me safe is trapping me. I'm my own person but I don't know how to show you that. I lash out and hurt you even though I don't mean to. I need you to move slowly around me or I'll bolt. I love you, even though I don't say it. If you stay still I'll sit next to you, and even though we don't understand each other we can be together like that.

Lowkey, I think it's kind of sad how Kevin lost his best friend, aka Jean, in the midst of everything. Like romantic or platonic, both of them truly loved each other and understood each other despite everything. Kevin and Jean protected each other; Jean taught him French, and Jean listened to Kevin rant about history. I wonder what Kevin feels when the eyes that once used to light up when kevin entered the room is now filled with nothing but contempt. And I wonder what Jean feels when the eyes that once were filled with kindness are riddled with guilt

The Stars are All That's Left of You and Me

my little (not so little) VLD tribute!!!! some post canon because VLD is leaving Netflix.....very slow burn, lots of Klance, check it out :DDD

Clean version of a comic I drew in history class

good morning thinking about richard “well, jesus. what did they die of?” gansey

Going through my notes app on my phone and found a few random things:

Oct 29 2023: "If the flavor of cinnamon was a sound it would sound like the song September" I've got absolutely no clue what made me write this but I think I was on to something

Dec 17, 2023: "Rat in the hat: cook book" this one's self explanatory I think

May 13, 2023: "Fundamentally jostled" That's it. That's the whole note. Why? Who knows, not me.

Oct 30: "Randal Samberg" I have no idea who that is, I looked him up and I'm still confused who is this man and what is he doing in my notes app

I think I become a different person when I open notes app because I never remember writing any of this shit, it's like geocaching, but with my own thoughts

🟨

anerican choese

new and improved articulation that i still cant quite put into words the way i want to. hence diagram.

no but LET'S TALK about how andrew is (outwardly) apathetic in every aspect of his life and towards every person he interacts with; this man shows nothing but indifference (i'd say half of it is true due to his severe depression and trauma/ the other half is just a performance so as not to hurt others with his rage but himself, as neil deduced).

but the MOMENT he gets to kiss neil he drops his neutral facade and throws his self control out the window -and we KNOW how important being in control is to him- and kisses neil like he wants to extract neil's soul out through his mouth.

neil described it like "he kissed him like this was a fight with their lives on the line, like his world stopped and started with Neil's mouth". my boy was STARVING he did NOT care about mantaining his apatheic front.

how is it possible to go from "i hate you 😐 most of the time i want to kill skin you alive 😒" to "let me kiss you like we're souldiers dying in the trenches and the only air i can breathe is through your mouth"