I Drew This Instead Of Sleeping And I Have No Regrets.

are u a billford shipper

ok im going to answer this in as simple terms as i can i accept the fact that they are were in a canonical ABUSIVE relationship. however i feel that by saying i "ship" them, it implies that i find them a good pair. i do not. calling billford "toxic yaoi" feels like its romanticizing the abuse, especially since i myself am someone who has gone through similar things as ford with someone who did similar things as bill. it makes me feel icky. i find closure in the fact that ford was able to move on, because that means i can too. but with people shipping ford and bill it just. it pains me. so much. because i know what it feels like to be on fords side of things and its not a cutesy dynamic between the two of them. ford is a victim and bill is his abuser. if you ship it i wont go out of my way to hate you i just. eugh.

tldr: yeah its probably canon. but its still abusive and icky and feels kinda invalidating towards my own experiences.

i haven’t posted art in a minute so here’s a chibi fidds.

“23 1 9 20 9 14 7 6 15 18 19 15 13 5 20 8 9 14 7 9 14 20 5 18 5 19 20 9 14 7 20 15 8 1 16 16 5 14 ?

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19 15 1 13 9.”

i physically could not sleep last night because of how much I was thinking about fiddleford so i decided to draw this instead of sleeping i have no idea what the storyline for this is it was like 2 am when i drew it but. its based on that one page in book of bill of fiddlefords mindscape? and originally i was just going to have him having a mental breakdown or whatever but then i was like hey it would be cool if i added like. ciphord in there. but with post canon fiddleford it doesnt make a lot of sense so. maybe its post canon fiddleford having a nightmare about the past with ciphord? maybe its him being stuck in the past? i dont know. i think the colors turned out cool though so. maybe it was worth losing an entire nights sleep over.

old man mcgucket is the loneliest person in all of gravity falls. and it’s not by choice. i mean, he’s always walking around town and trying to talk to people, but who wants to talk to that crazy guy? he’s creepy. not even his own son wants to talk to him. people just avoid him. 30 whole years and nobody ever reached out to help him. he was probably too far gone in the first place, honestly.

with nobody to talk to, it’s not really a surprise that he builds those weird robots to cope. it’s the only way people will give him any attention, recognition, or to just look in his direction at all. nobody cares about his other inventions, but those robots get him put in the news all of the time. not to mention the fact that people only started paying attention to him after he saved us during weirdmageddon. even then, most people care more about what stan and ford did. maybe he should’ve tried harder.

now that he’s regained his mind and ford is with him, people treat him more like a human. but i think they still talk behind his back. only reason they don’t say it to his face anymore is because they’re scared of ford. ford is a hero. you don’t want to get on his bad side. just put up with the guy he’s with, even if you don’t want to. nobody really wants to. the only reason he even got on the path to recovery is because dipper thought he was the author. dipper didn’t even plan to help him at all. he just wanted to look for more information.

hes lucky to have ever been given a second chance.

if it weren’t for ford he would still be a nobody.

it probably would’ve been better that way

then everyone could continue to ignore him.

like they always have.

it’s been a minute since i did pixel art

(click for better quality. maybe. if you’re lucky)

for once i actually drew him on friday. i drew him so much on friday.

fiddtober day 15. honestly not very fidd and also a complete style switchup but. why not.

cool i’m just gonna put this here.

fiddtober day 10. this is like a whole thing with emma-may in my interpretation of better world and their marriage in general but who cares

(if you do infact care then tell me i will gladly yap about it.)