What Is A Swan But An Italics Goose

Multiracial culture

Am I the only one who has a complicated relationship with culture? My family is very mixed, being at most around 30 percent of any given ethnicity.

It feels impossible to participate or integrate all of my family’s cultures at once, but it feels like I’m picking and choosing if I don’t.

It also feels like I don’t quite fit in with any one cultural group, but I grew up with enough of multiple that I feel intrinsically linked…

Anyone else? Thoughts?

Anyone else have a mind pop that got old like ten years ago? So tired of my brain going

“I have a face”

Over and over.

Hey so like why is there a third story door? This region does not get extreme snow, and is too high to be reached by flooding. So. Wh

Droplets splatter on the glass

Shining surreal green

Silent shadows wander past

Caught up in a dream

Glitter swirls of lively light

Play upon the walls

Dancing with the darkened night

It chases through the halls

Water ripples with delight

And all the lilies beam

All are pleased to reunite

in this pleasant dream.

Me every day:

“I should post that sketch I made!”

*doesn’t*

Opinion:

Ppl with loud cars n messed up mufflers aren’t cool like they think they are.

It’s like… if someone went around farting as loud as they could and laughing about it. Posing, even.

Never in my life have I met someone impressed with such noise. Just disdain.

When I found that you were sad

All I wanted was to help

I loved you dear mom and dad

I would try to make you well

All my friends are full of color

Vibrant lights of time and change

Even so I helped them over

Fading colors brought by rain

Every hue that I contained

Full of angersadnessrage

I would take the time to drain

For no one else would do the same

Whether idle hands or aim

They all bled thru me the same

Till I could no longer take

No matter what was at stake

What will you do when I go

When my body overflows

When my glass container breaks

Leaking all the muted fakes

I have nothing left to give

Nothing further here remains

Leave me to my muddled colors

I will never be the same.

Nonverbal communication of a semiverbal human:

Thanks: asl open-palmed gesture, mouth to other hand (or a nod with a closed eye smile)

Help: wide intense eye contact and emphatic gesturing. Rigid movements

Happy: silly facial expressions, The Fangirl Gesture, wiggly squidward arms, relaxed posture

Anxious: repetitive cyclical motions in hands, arms, face, and feet. Pinched mouth, tension, squishing self into small space, rocking on balls of feet, tapping teeth together, shaking out hands

Sad: slow movement, quiet, rubbing hands or arms or neck. Zoned out, sighing

Anger: rubbing palms with thumbs aggressively, clenched jaw, avoidance, scratching forearms or legs, tugging on own hair, furrowed brows, no eye contact at all, hiding, leaving

Care abt u: buying things u spoke of, pebbling, talking to you often as manageable, sitting with you doing nothing, sitting with you when choice seating, bonking head into your shoulder/ upper arm, smiling at u upon eye contact when first seeing, looking into things u spoke of, trying to figure out how to resolve your problems, inviting you to adventure, showing you creations, sharing special interest

Need comfort/support: Sudden head/shoulder leaning into your shoulder or back, standing slightly to the side and behind you, dramatic groan and flop onto a surface, shoving self into small space or burying self in smth heavy

Don’t Like/ uncomfy w/ You: avoid you, only act cold/professional with you, intense eye contact, only ever American Stranger Smiles at you, doesn’t perpetuate conversation

Verbal stims of a family

Me: sneep snop, hergldeebergle, deedleedlee, well flip my flapjacks, fridge nuggets, *various noises I cannot imitate with letters*

Dad: *husky dramatics,* *intentionally poor imitation of Elvis songs,* *duck noises made with side of cheek*

Mom: not a verbal stimmer

Gpa: BEEDLEBOM, humbug, buster the cat, *downward whistle-trill* (DEE-dee Du-De-Dooo), buzzard bill, hobo Joe

Gma: *loudest slightly-off-tune whistling ever,* *singing,* *mindless chatter to accompany tasks*

Y’all heard any of those in ur families? Do your parents and grandparents have different ones? Feel free to share

Has anyone else thought about how weird it is that we regularly get random strangers’ voices in our heads - singing/humming/whistling/rapping etc?

Bc I’m laying here hearing some random guy humming in my own head and it has struck me as odd all of the sudden