Species Euphoria Is Smelling Like A Wet Dog When I Get Out Of The Shower :3 And Yes I Took A Good Actual

idk if this will resonate with anyone else very much but like. i think i lean more heavily towards kemonomimis/inumimi spectrum of things generally when i am calm, happy, feeling myself, etc. i get the phantom limb kinda feeling for a tail or ears. fangs claws etc depending on what kinda shift it is. along with other stuff that i just don't wanna talk about on here.

but when i do feel.. more feral i guess? more angry. anxious, frightened, feel like i need to defend myself, or like having a panic attack, i shift more into a 'wild feral animal' sort of mindset. i get that more, on all fours im a beaten down dog trying to fight back kinda feeling. idk its hard to describe. a lot of unpacking this is pretty new to me.

i remember there was still wallpaper in one of the rooms

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The Lathe of Heaven (1971) / Outer Wilds (2019)

buhh i want to help you out but im going through some label trouble myself rn </3 i guess if he feels like more than a fictional person to you and someone you could see yourself as .. shrug... sorry gang

Okay since I’m not panicking and I just need genuine feedback and general help after researching, I’m gonna explain how I feel about Brian and more so how it’s effected me, and I need you kind ppls to tell me if this still counts as Otherhearted (or some secret third option I have yet to come across)!! Since I am very new to all this and I don’t wanna come across as baiting

Extremely (probably badly) worded yap session ahead‼️+ Dexter S1 spoilers

When I first watched Dexter S1, I found Brian someone I could relate to, which then my mom found weird (I suggest looking at his wiki) so then I just admired in peace. His persona and ability to turn on a facade just felt too similar to things I’ve done or see in myself

I have a brother myself, but he’s older than me; however, I still feel as if Brian & Dexters dynamic and Brian’s search for his brother feels all too familiar. My brothers in College so I don’t get to see him often which makes me constantly feel alone and looking for something that will take ages to find. Just like Brian did with Dexter, after coming out of the mental hospital and immediately searching for his brother.

This whole thing makes me panicky because Brian is a (FICTIONAL 😰) serial killer…and I personally can justify majority of his actions just because I feel like if do the same in the same desperation, as fucked as that sounds. Which is why I hate admitting I feel connected to him. I don’t have murderous intentions or thoughts (that aren’t the intrusive kind I mean) but I feel like it’s just a rational thought process.

He DOES die but I just actively forget he does and I don’t like thinking about it

If I need to elaborate on any of this I totally can!Thank you for coming to my ted talk <3

Me fr maybe vv

the watchers/listeners (evo smp, life series) and their many incarnations have been added to the pile of what i think the 'type looks like, as well as a mental connection to my friend's concept of hunters.

overall, i believe i an a vessel of the many winged, many eyed beasts, moreso metaphorically and related to my alterhumanity than a spiritual thing, but it may prove to be spiritual for me.

this is weirdly deep for me but i do really love the evo gods. they are beautiful.

wet beast wednesday!

not really a beast but it me. girl whys the quality so bad </3

saving for .. sometime when i have money to spend

Fellow feral, may I recommend Idolatre's claw rings from Esty to alleviate your claw dysphoria? A full set of 10 is $275 USD and ships from the northwest of the United States.

I believe they do custom colors, too! They also have other fantasy props but I find myself most drawn to their rings.

All image credits go to Idolatre.

i need to be able to fit on peoples laps.... this is a crime

I am, indeed, a lap dog

this is the keepers to me

i wish dirt tasted as good as it smelled lowkey is that weird

Stamps by me :]

Credit is appreciated but not needed