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So here’s an explanation for executive dysfunction for neurotypicals

I need to do my homework

But I feel dirty cause I was walking around outside barefoot this morning

I can’t do homework because I sit in bed to do homework and I don’t want my bed to get dirty

I don’t want to take a shower now because I like to take a shower at the end of the day to wind down

And then you’re just stuck in that loop for hours and there’s nothing you can do, you try so hard to think of solutions but you’re so set on it that you can’t change the problem

Do homework in a different place? Can’t, I like to do homework in bed and plus I can’t focus on anything else cause I feel dirty

Take a shower now? Can’t, but I really don’t want to because then I can’t take one tonight and it really helps me wind down at the end of the day

Do something else? Can’t, it’s time to do homework and yes I have other things to do but homework is the most important thing I need to do right now

And so you just gotta suffer and think and think and think and either do nothing and get nothing done, don’t do homework because you feel dirty and don’t want to shower now, or

Figure out which is the least annoying/disruptive option to your routine and preferences and do that to try to get back on track

In this case I chose to take a shower now so that I could get on with my day cause I knew it would be bothering me all day if I felt dirty, and I can try to do some other things tonight to find down

But it took me an hour to figure out why I was struggling to go do my homework and what I could do to fix it

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psa

no one fucking tells you this so here it is:

when signing out forms to apply for disability / filling out a form for diagnosis

you’re supposed to fill it out as you on your worst days

like, I filled out forms that said I could do most things usually

like, my doctor added in the conditions like “yeah, they can feed themselves when not stressed” “they can do this when not stressed”

but how I should have filled it out was more like

“some days I can’t feed myself” “some days I can’t leave the house”

My doctor didn’t even know this, but I talked to someone who had worked with people with both developmental and intellectual disabilities for a number of years, and she told me to write down how it is for your bad days

this should be a thing they tell you, but it isn’t

part of the reason I didn’t get my autism diagnosis as soon as I should have is because I filled out forms wrong!

so far in life ( i think ) i never make choices around my chronic pain.

It's either the internalized ableism that ruled over or my poor decision making skill that holds the wheel

my favourite genre of fictional men are those ones who should be cool and badass because of their powers or character designs, but are pathetic instead. never had a good day in their life. an insult from a child could probably make them cry. wet paper bag men. you know the ones

I just learned a thing called self inserted character, and turns out that is what I have been doing almost whenever I'm obsessed with a story and I am so excited that that is a thing and it means I have a way to work on it holy crap, and that this little imagination of mine is okay, like I'm allowed to do that. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh