I Was So Much More Invested In The Midseason's (like Episodes 5, 6 And 7) Events Than The Finale's Like

“A lot of people are under the impression you should just wait for something creative to hit you, which kind isn’t right; I think you have to put the work in sometimes. You have to get yourself in chair and write crap for a while until you start writing something good.”

ed sheeran after a year of hiatus: tweets a picture of a color me:

Franz Hopper: I've given Jeremie all the tools he needs to save the world.

Yumi: You fucked up a perfectly good boy genius is what you did. Look at him. He's got anxiety.

"What are they gonna do, cancel it more?"

I wonder if San Junipero was based on Heaven is a Place on Earth or they wrote the episode and then thought of the song because DAMN DO THEY GO TOGETHER

Anxiety is living under a flinch, mouth full of holes, a tremble point   it is what if it all goes wrong and it is yes but it didn’t and it is no it did and here are the ways that you failed and didn’t even notice. it’s “you got an A” and feeling nothing, it is “you got a B+” and feeling your insides try and rip themselves out of your body. it is breath in short pants, human turned wild animal, get me out of here. it is brain a blank buzzing, it is sobbing on the train station, it is can you order for me. it is you need sleep because tomorrow’s a big day, it is you can’t sleep because tomorrow is a big day. it is don’t open your mouth. it is you’re an absolute waste of space why don’t you just try and make friends for once. it is you don’t deserve her. it is he’s right, you know. it is having three hours to do something important and instead staring blankly at a wall for two hours and fifty minutes. it is don’t go to the party, it is why didn’t you just go to the party. it is walk faster, it is sweaty palms and checking under the bed and keeping the lights on. it is you deserve this. it is a held breath, a morning hangover, it is go do this and it is too scared of failure to start anything. it is turn the page, it is don’t look, it is you’ll have nightmares about this later. it is answer the question, it is don’t raise your hand, it is teacher’s pet, it is breakdown lane in the middle of any building. it is here’s how to make it look like you haven’t just been hit by a truck. it is just drink, just curl your hands into fists until the fingernails bite in, it is forgetting the art of having lungs. it is can you not do that here. it is forgetting to walk back into your own body. it is removing yourself from anything, everything, it is watching other people who involve themselves and feeling lonely. it is you’re not hungry, it is smile prettier, it is that joke fell flat, it is everyone experiences this stop being a drama queen, it is suck in your stomach, it is control, it is hold on, it is so tight it will strangle the life out of you slowly so you can have the time to worry about all the things you should have done. it is should have. it is could have. it is why didn’t i why didn’t i, it is why did i do that, it is i am excited about this i think but i feel like vomiting, it is future too heavy, it’s what if, what if you don’t care, what if i’m not good enough, what if the building burns down, what if i lose her tomorrow, what if he doesn’t make it back safe, what if i’m the reason nobody loves me, what if i’m going to die alone one day, what if i’m useless, what if nobody cares, what if nobody reads this   it is that all went wrong, didn’t it?

IS // Part 1 of ? in a series about my experiences with mental illness // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

Respect everyone. I think it’s not too much to ask.

21 Things i’ve learned from Twenty Øne Piløts

1. It’s okay to not be okay

2. one day i’ll be okay

3. everyone has problems

4. One day i’ll find that person/friend that will understand me and be there for me no matter what

5. music is a therapy

6. create even when people tell me not to

7. follow what I believe in and go after what I want

8. keep creating

9. the voices in my head will keep trying to bring me down, but i’ll find a way to fight them

10. hold onto the one thing that brings me safety and comfort

11. Sometimes it’s hard to keep your faith strong. And it’s okay to question your faith. 

12. there are others just like me, just trying to survive in a world filled with hatred and sadness. 

13. Find my reason to stay alive 

14. The things i see when i’m trying to sleep will be gone when I wake up

15. the morning is when night is dead

16. The agony will pass and I will find rest eventually

17. USE MUSIC TO SURVIVE

18. Dont take my life away from those who love me, even when i don’t feel loved.

19. There is someone out there who needs me just like I need TØP.

20. Keep dreaming. Keep creating. Keep living. Keep trying. Keep my head up. Keep breathing. 

21.  Stay Alive

…..I know there are more things they have taught me, but its 2am and i’m actually tired. So i’m gonna try to sleep. 

Me: *logs on to Tumblr* tiMe to sINNNNNNNNNNNNN

Daenerys Targaryen, Mother of Dragons