ability to experience pleasure in the things that give me a reason to live
^Toxic masculinity. Just be lazy and throw the sauce on top. Who hasn't eaten out of their cookware? And why would I touch my food? Probably scratched my balls while cooking.
I was trying to explain this to a friend the other day. I get these premonitions in dreams I can never recall, though I know I dreamt something. It doesn't come back to me until a split second before the event happens as deja vu. Then I dissociate and know exactly what's happening. It makes me believe in reliving a previous universe. That or I'm just batshit crazy. I'm just now coming into my diagnosis as well, but this has happened all my life.
Is it a common schizo thing to have really intense deja vu? I’m not talking like ‘hey I just saw a cat I’ve seen a cat on this street before wow’ but like,, intense “I’ve been here before this has happened before” type of thing? In this exact building doing this exact thing thinking the same thing with the same story/journey/how I got here/ leading up to it. I dunno insight would be wonderful
Why is this my life?
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I’ve been really into incorporating art/creativity into note taking (especially for anatomy)! Not only does it make me more inclined to start studying but it also makes it easier for me to learn/retain what I just studied. P.s. Please give me credit when you share/repost pls
[chokes back tears] oh god
as a child, i had this really interesting way of dealing with executive dysfunction:
when i needed to do something but did not get the impulse to actually start, i counted to 20.
and at 20, i did the thing.
i started this in order to get me out of bed in the morning, and after a few weeks it was a reliable source of starting impulses. every time i hit 20, i got started.
somewhere along the way i stopped doing it, because it was weird and nobody else needed to count in order to do stuff.
it makes me wonder, how many brilliant coping skills do we loose or never develop because we live in a neurotypical world and nobody teaches us these things? because we think they’re weird, because we don’t have words for what we’re doing, because they seem to have no place in this world?
“sometimes its fun to just sit”
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Struggling with mental illness after a traumatic event most likely caused by mental illness. Sexual Assault Survivor.
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