Some WangXian Drawings I’ve Made Recently — Ft A-Yuan.

Today on quiet, understated TGCF moments that nevertheless wreck me every single time:

As [Qi Rong] spoke he leaned back into that ornate chair, lifted his feet and rested his boots on the shoulders of that stone statue, treating it as a footstool.

Xie Lian was still holding Hua Cheng’s arm, and, feeling him take a slight step forwards, pulled him back. But he felt pulling him wasn’t enough, and so on the palm of his hand again traced a single word: “thank you”.

The quiet, gentle gratitude here, the understanding, just undoes me. Xie Lian pulls him back but doesn’t trace out ‘wait’ or ‘stop’ or ‘careful’. Nor does he trace out any version or abbreviation of his usual ‘it’s okay’ or ‘it’s not that bad’ or ‘it really doesn’t matter’.

Instead, he says thank you. And in that word is not just the thanks itself but the acknowledgement of what Hua Cheng is doing. It’s Xie Lian–who didn’t understand Hua Cheng’s fury at the scorpion-tailed snake that bit him, or at himself for wounding him–conveying in a word that he knows why Hua Cheng is stepping forward, why Hua Cheng is angry. 

And for once he doesn’t dismiss it. He brushes off so many things with a smile and an it’s okay, it’s not that bad, but here? Here, he says thank you. And in doing so, implicitly allows that there is something to thank Hua Cheng for, and thus that there is something here that, on some level, hurts. And that even if he is holding Hua Cheng back from truly avenging or protecting him, he is accepting the gesture. 

It’s thank you for stepping forward to defend rather than all the times people have stepped forward towards Xie Lian to attack. It’s thank you for seeing this as an offence rather than joining in the ridicule. It’s thank you for… feeling, on Xie Lian’s behalf, things Xie Lian doesn’t allow himself to feel, and thus letting him have that moment of something like catharsis, that moment of seeing someone else’s horror or anger at what has been done to him, rather than hiding it all behind a gentle smile.

It’s thank you for a gesture that feels like Hua Cheng’s defence of General Hua in the cave. It’s thank you for a gesture that feels like a bamboo hat in the rain.

And all of this is leaving aside the fact that he’s technically also, with that word, tracing out half of his own name onto Hua Cheng’s palm.

He knows this and loves him for it 💛

Lan Sizhui: Hanguan-jun, father, why do you have a random twink tied up with your forehead ribbon?

Lan Zhan: Not a random twink

Lan Sizhui: Understood. Please sleep well

Jin Ling: Is that seriously all the explanation we're going to get!!?

Lan Sizhui: Yep.

tell me it’s okay :)

A little collection of my hc little Neuvillette and design☔️

It’s Ukrainian Miku with bandura

because WHY NOT 

had to make a mini zine for class so I made a scum villain hanbok series!

bonus, all the pages together and the full bingge piece because i like it

Busy, but need yanshen food 😋, so only can exercise from any pose base that can be used for free, need to fast fast fast 👀