I hate to do this again, but I need help. In a very "if I don't get the help I need I may die" kind of way.
Short story: I need to raise $6,500 to cover the other portion of my dental expenses so I'm no longer in constant pain and I don't die from my teeth eventually abscessing.
Long story: I finally got to a dentist today (July 28th, 22), and I was told I need at least half of my teeth removed because of their condition. This was the first dental visit I've had in thirteen (13) years, as my father refused to pay for them when I was a child and I only now had the ability to pay to go to one finally. The damage is done, and my top teeth need removing. That's where the whole dying part comes in.
Basically, if you're not well-versed in tooth decay and abscesses, if your back upper molars abscess, it has a good chance of spreading to your sinus cavities and then traveling to your brain, which can lead to coma, stroke, and death. The average rate of Americans dying from that was 650,000 a year last I checked. And, given I know what an abscess feels like, I don't think it'll be long before my back upper right molars abscess.
I don't want to die. I'm 23, and I've been in pain from my teeth for nearly a decade. I've not been able to bite into food with my front teeth since I was 13 or 14. The dental work I need would both potentially save my life and change it for the better.
The medical documentation will be below, and the link to my Go-Fund-Me is here: https://gofund.me/e12a602d
If you want to help and get some rewards in the process, my Ko-fi does have some information about the game I have been talking about, along with some exclusive scenarios.
Any help is so goddamn appreciated. Genuinely.
The bill breaks down like this: Denture, full extractions, lower teeth diagnosis. Given I'm young, they want to get me a denture after I have all my top, wisdom, and one bottom molar removed, then do a bone graph so I have a chance in the future to get implants or a snap-in denture.
The full bill is $7,467. I have $1000 from CareCredit I'm putting towards it, and I have a little bit of money saved plus I'm going to tear a new one into the IRS to figure out where the fuck my state taxes are, but I need help getting the rest of it.
Sara Eliza Johnson, from Bone Map: Poems; “Me Tangere”
ALL THESE TWENTY YEARS TRYING TO FILL THE VOID
As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh by Susan Sontag x || Love Me More by Mitski || I’m Lazy, Reckless, and Addicted to Social Media. Help! by Heather Havrilesky || artwork by @blluish x || The Singing by Kim Addonizio x || My Solo Exchange Diary (Hitori Koukan Nikki) by Kabi Nagata || The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller, trans. by Ruth Ward || Remember My Name by Mitski || artwork by @blluish x || Humpty by Mitski
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1 : "I, in my corner, with my monstrous needs.", underlined in red
2: "I need you to love me more / Love me more, love me more / Love enough to fill me up / Fill me up, fill me full up / I need you to love me more / Love me more, love me more / Love enough to drown it out / Drown it out, drown me out". Dark red text on red background.
3: "You’re exhausted because [highlight-start] you’re looking for love every second of every day, in everything you do. [highlight-end]". Black on white; gray highlight.
4: Photograph of a ceramic sculpture of an anatomical heart. There is a big, roundish hole in its center. The heart is painted red and white to resemble the color of flesh; it darkens nearing the edge of the hole, which are black. The background is black.
5: "I don’t know what I want, only that I’m desperate for it, that I can’t stop asking." . The pic is a screenshot of an indented tumblr textpost, background set in dark mode.
6: It’s a manga comic strip that reads from right to left. It opens with a quadrangular text box: “Every part of me started going cold.”. In the middle of the strip are drawn three scenes of life, which depict a shivering woman with a bob cut (the protagonist) struggling to warm herself up: she hugs herself in a blanket near a heater (1), she bathes in hot water (2), she buries herself under a futon dryer (3). Near each scene there’s written, in order,: “HEATER” (1), “BATH” (2), “FUTON DRYER” (3). Over the third scene, with an arrow pointing to it, there is an additional text that reads: “APPARENTLY, YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS…”. The strip closes with another quadrangular text box: “No matter what I did, I couldn’t warm up”. The blanket, the hot water and the futon, all in pink, are the only colored parts of the strip.
7: “It is thus impossible for the grandiose person to cut the tragic link between admiration and love. In his compulsion to repeat [underline-start] he seeks insatiably for admiration, of which he never gets enough because admiration is not the same thing as love. It is only a substitute gratification of the primary needs for respect, understanding, and being taken seriously —needs that have remained unconscious. [underline-end]”. After a line of blank space, the text continues: “ [...]If his success the previous night only serves as the denial of childhood frustrations, then, like every substitute, it can only bring momentary satiation. [underline-start]In fact, true satiation is no longer possible, since the right time for that now lies irrevocably in the past. [underline-end]The former child no longer exists, nor do the former parents. The present parents—if they are”. Black on white.
8: “[highlight-start] I need something bigger than the sky /Hold it in my arms and know it's m
ine [highlight-end] / Just how many stars will I need to hang around me / To finally get somewhere I can be all done / Somewhere like heaven”. Black on white; pink highlight.
9: Photograph of a ceramic sculpture of the nude upper body of a woman. She has pale skin, black length shoulder black hair with bangs and closed eyes. Her expression is one of resignation, sorrow and hopelessness. Like in the heart before, there is a big roundish hole through the middle of her chest. It’s edges are red, though, and the color slowly fades on the skin. It’s the same shade of red of her cheeks (that goes up to her eyes, making her look like she has just finished crying), mouth, nose and chin. The background is black.
10: “I broke what you gave me / But you kept giving more / And I'm sorry for taking / [highlight-start] But I keep wanting more, more, more, oh [highlight-end]”. Black on white; dark gray highlight over white text.
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Hey guys, I dont like that I have to make a post like this but my family and I really need some help! My father has had a Stroke and can only be treated in a city 3 hours away from my and my father's hometown. Thankful my siblings have homes in the city ans I van stay with them but My sisters and I need around 800$ to cover the cost of transportation, food, and some bills that were around the corner for my dad to pay.
My cashapp is : $Pumpkingal
Please help me and donate if you can, I'd be extremely grateful and thankful for anything. I can do some writing commission as well just dm me on that topic.
Thank yall, please keep my family in your prayers at this trying time!❤
i care for you still and i will forever.
Kaveh Akbar, from Calling A Wolf A Wolf: Poems; “Personal Inventory: Fearless (Temporis Fila)”
I had 3 periods in one month after being tear gassed.
My friend who was protesting regularly, and being exposed to tear gas, had a cyst the size of an orange form on her uterus.
My other friend had her period for a straight month after being tear gassed.
There isn’t enough research right now that examines the long term effects of tear gas on people with uteruses. Who knows what could happen to us.
This is America.