Yea.
Not to preach anarchy/wanton rebellion, but like Big Bird in that one meme, we riot at dawn.
because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
The Ducktales 2017 art book has me back on my bullshit once again-
I found this concept design for Gyro, and I noticed this little detail I just love where he has a little pocket chain. Just a small detail, Y’know? Well I thought “Oh! That’s actually a cute little detail! Maybe I could incorporate that whenever I draw this nerd!” …Then it all kinda snowballed from there.
Because then I thought- What if it was a watch? Because I have a feeling he’d be the exact nerd to carry around a fancy little pocket watch with him.
So my whole headcanon I somehow gathered from this is: Gyro has this little pocket watch that he usually has on him. He wouldn’t typically admit it, but it’s a pretty sentimental item to him. Well, That’s all because it’s a gift that his father Fulton crafted and made for him back when he was younger. (I wanna say as a “good luck charm” before Gyro left for his Tokyolk internship. Y’know. Because.)
Am I pulling things out of thin air? Probably! Is this nerd on my mind way too much? Also probably. But is this fun? Hell yes.
The Rehabilitation of Death by @bamsara
didnt have time to clean this like i wanted but i needed to get this scene out of my head desperately. im good now
Literally dumping all the presentable works as promised, whether I'm proud of them or not! This is where I started, even before the first thing I posted online (That subway station one). Many of these are not on Twitter yet so there's lots to see! The top piece above the header is my very first digital Submas artwork!! I never finished it bc I didn't know how to pull my vision of as I wanted & started modeling the train and didn't finish that either, whoops! I really want to remake this later and make it super cool!
^^^ My reaction to breaking 500 likes & 100 followers in a single day with my first tweet (the battle subway one) all the way back in May!! I was completely floored by all the attention, oh how it skyrocketed my excitement and anxiety! Crazy times, I was so super nervous to be there with so many amazing artists and doubted if I could ever survive there ahahah!! Many had joined the community much much earlier than me, so I had arrived with a late train to PLA/neo Submas hype! Next up is a bunch of stuff I haven't posted before:
One of my fav sketches! Been saving this for so long bc I really really want to finish this one day! One of the first submas sketches with an actual story behind it! The subway bosses are running late for their flight because they didn't pass the safety check! The irony!! This would never happen as bosses are always on schedule. But Emmet hadn't noticed a wild Joltik hiding under his coat, so he set up the alarm and they got examined and interrogated of smuggling! How embarrassing for them! The bosses resolved the situation by catching the Joltik, but will they be able to catch their flight anymore?? Maybe if Elesa can distract the stuerts performing the safety protocol for a minute!
More sketchbook stuff...
In case you can't make any sense of it, Emmet's dreaming of different combinations of pokémon. Meanwhile Ingo snores louder than the train! HONK SHOO!
Top 7 every submas fan draws at some point!
Submas trademark posing
submas sleeping in a train
sad Emmet
Emmet with Joltik
Ingo with a cool solo pose
Emmet being chaotic & Ingo reacting to it
a bunch of mirrored submas poses
I sure have a full bingo card lmao, most of them you can see here XD
Next up is a sad man...
Stay strong our friends!
My typical sketchbook pages, crammed and messy as usual. x) Post-PLA exploration:
A few examples of how my pencil sketches evolve.
I've done so much art experimenting with submas. I really like this black & white painting but I don't think I'll finish it anytime soon.
Where did you go?
The way I draw the twins' faces has changed a lot. They started with softer features and somewhat neutral emotions, because I wasn't as familiar with them or comfortable drawing them yet. Now there's hundreds of submas sketches, and they still keep evolving! My style is also kinda hard to pull off well, so their features differ from picture to picture.
This one was inspired by some submas music videos, can't recall their names anymore. The glowing eerie eyes and yellow&orange + black&white color schemes were neat!
I keep telling myself I need to draw more butlers, these twinks look so lean and neat and have more color and are posh with their monocles and have fun tailcoats! (...why eyeglasses are not called binocles??)
I was there for the vinegar chaos. Good times! That's all for now, I hope you got something fun out of this! Still got loads more art to share but I'll save them for another time. Next round I'll bring in my first submas comic!
12.29.24
Happy New Year!
This drawing was originally mirrored, with Emmet on the right side. At the last moment though, I felt that this version looked more uplifting.
teehee
What is this? A crossover episode???
cute gang
grown ass man
*Image of teenage boys*
You ever feel like you both want to share ideas and stuff, but also you would rather die than be percieved? Yea. Yea me too.Call me Sketch (she/her) but I swear I'm not suspicious! I'm just very bad at knowing if I appear normal. Anyway, this is just a tiny personal blog where I'll reblog fandom stuff and sometimes post art or talk about my ocs, of which I have too many. On the topic, I’m TheSketchlord on toyhou.se.
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