Sirius Black - Azkaban Prison - Thinking Of Marlene Right Before PoA

sirius black - azkaban prison - thinking of marlene right before PoA

they weren’t happy memories. not exactly.

he often reminisced about his time back at hogwarts. back at the potter’s. back in his flat. but those memories were so twinged now with grief that they held no real comfort.

sometimes, and he really couldn’t tell whether it was at his lowest moments or not. could there be anything lower than rotting away in a cell in azkaban for a crime he didn’t committed? did it even matter now that everyone he once cared about was dead o had betrayed him?

not all of them.

there it was. the voice. her voice. so clear as if she was just sitting next to him, whispering in his ear.

that happened sometimes, more often that he'd cared to admit.

he sometimes followed her voice, dreaming they were, actually, together. that nothing that has happened had been real, that it all had been a long, terrifying nightmare and they were still both warm and… alive.

you are, sirius.

am i?

sirius could honestly not tell the difference between sleep or awake, it was all the same. he either dreamed of better times or was haunted by the memories.

sometimes sirius wished he couldn’t hear her or even remember her. it was bad enough he couldn’t get away from the memories of james and lily and poor little harry, who was real and alone and turn a orphan. how long has it been? he was probably twelve. or thirteen now.

but marlene?

marlene had left him long before all that.

marlene had once represented hope and that, sirius had come to realize after years of imprisonment, was worse than the utter devastation of having lost them all. specially since there were none of that, anymore. hope.

she had died, younger even, than the potters.

it was such a twisted thing, he thought. his life had always been so utterly twisted. he shouldn't ought to be so surprised over the fact that, while they had arguably won the war, he had lost everything.

not everything, came the voice, again.

there were other voices too, come to noticed. of real people near his cell.

reluctantly, sirius opened his eyes and then he saw it, right there in front in him, the picture of a big happy family posing against the pyramids on the front page of the daily prophet.

and a fat fucking rat sat on top of one of the sons shoulders.

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Severus: After everything you've done how can you sleep at night?

James: Next to my wife.

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Everyone talks about Harry and Lily's eyes in the movie and how Ginny and Ron weren't given justice. But what about Harry and James' CHARACTER and important part of their looks.

They both have the same face, hair, glasses, height and very similar personalities. They were so similar that Harry pointed out their differences which were only their nose and eyes.

Their unusually messy jet-black hair is so important because that's what makes them look so similar and stand out because their hair is so messy. Their height wasn't very important except it told us an estimate of James' height (Harry's height).

The movies completely missed out that Harry is very composed in awkward and most situations. Whenever Harry and Cho interacted in the movies, Harry was this awkward, nervous guy while Cho was the stand up, confident girl while in the books, Harry was all composed (Even when sprayed by Neville's plant in OotP) and natural and Cho was the nervous one. In the movies, Harry was well-known, but girls didn't ask him out everywhere and he was struggling to get a girl. In the books, nearly every girl was asking him out and he denied them, one because a girl was taller than him. Harry was NOT awkward, the most he'll do is blush slightly, look away and go silent. In HBP, he doesn't randomly stand up when Ginny walks into the slug-club, I actually wanted to die watching him interact with girls in the movies.

In general, Harry is a popular jock and hexed people (Goyle, Crabbe and Filch) in the corridors for no reason, but they were stupid (They deserved it though). He had much of James' personality, like with how he can be arrogant, but a savior and empathetic.

With James, in the movies, we were only shown his flaws and weren't shown that he was insanely loyal, stood up for muggle born rights (Despite being a wealthy pure blood), sacrificed his life, saved Snape's life, was a good person, smart, broke the law for his werewolf friend, despised the dark arts, let his runaway friend live with him, supported his werewolf friend financially, was friends with outcasts, head boy, good father and person.

The movies showed that he was a bully, didn't care for people. And when we saw his body in the movies, they didn't show he voluntarily stood up to Voldemort. The movies made it seem like he didn't try to go against him, but was just killed like Voldemort does to all his targets, while they made it look like it was just Lily who sacrificed her life.

In the books, it showed that Harry and James had the same, matching Patronus's. IT was so important because it made Harry think his dad somehow came back to life. Like how Harry went-

"Dad. . ."

-in PoA when he saw the stag patronus. Having James and Harry look so similar, act similar and die similar (Having both James and Harry stand up against Voldemort voluntarily and voluntarily go to him) was entirely erased in the movie adaption. It was James' sacrifice that made Harry sacrifice his life in the forbidden forest and fight Voldemort in the graveyard when Voldemort mentioned that James stood tall against him.

Everything would've been different if Voldemort gave James the choice to live and back off just like Voldemort gave Lily the choice.

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skelteroid

2 weeks ago

au marlene survives, sirius gets released from azkaban

sirius: i– i thought you were dead, marls *desperately clinging to her*

marlene: is that why you went full ballistic and manage to get yourself locked in azkaban? azkaban, sirius, of all places! *clasping sirius face between her hands*

sirius: you don’t understand, i thought– i thought– i–

marlene: that peter did it?

sirius: what? how? what the hell marls?!

marlene: it pays to know your secrets, sirius. now let’s put padfoot’s nose to good use and find that coward