There's a sort of goodbye that comes with 17.
All questions of 'who do you want to be when you grow up' turn to 'who are you becoming now?' 17 is young, 17 is old. It's everything you wanted. It's everything you despised. It's messy and ruthless and full of grief at times. And 17 is scary as hell because now you know that you finally have to say goodbye to childhood.
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned (source)
"Was he your soulmate?"
She stared at me for a while, then smiled.
"That's just a word." She laughs.
"I think we loved each other with the kind of love that lasts lifetimes. But I loved many people with different kinds of love that would last lifetimes. We had our time and we lived a beautiful life. Is that enough to become a soulmate? I don't know.
"I guess that's it. You love someone in the moment, and you make more of them and then you hope those moments will last forever, knowing that they won't. So you gather those moments in your memory, hold them close and cherish them and make new ones."
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned
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This tremendous world I have inside of me. How to free myself, and this world, without tearing myself to pieces. And rather tear myself to a thousand pieces than be buried with this world within me.
Franz Kafka, Diaries, 1910-1923
This is why it hurts the way it hurts. You have too many words in your head. There are too many ways to describe the way you feel. You will never have the luxury of a dull ache. You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much.
- Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You and Only You
“Maybe I live inside myself too much and maybe that is my greatest downfall.”
— Megan Grant, Solitude & the Sea
Moon and sun in 19th century paintings.
Луна и солнце на картинах 19го века
"I think that's what soulmates are, moments of your life that you want to keep forever."
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned
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― David Foster Wallace, Consider the Lobster and Other Essays
Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights.
Art~ Safet Zec, 1943.
i don’t need to put my mental disorders in my bio you can easily infer that there’s something wrong with me