I Think Part Of The Reason I Love Mithrun So Muchis That Like. His Obsession With The Demon Is So Explicitly

im rereading dunmeshi and this one page really made me stop and think. we know that he could just teleport directly to where her body is and bisect & explode her instantly, and he would be fine. we know he knows he can do that from the bonus comic where he does that. but he doesnt

i think this is a choice and not an oversight. we find out in chapter 94 that this whole time, hes been throwing himself back into dungeon after dungeon - not so much because hes on a true quest for revenge, but because the only thing he has left that he wants in the whole entire world is to finish being eaten by the demon. no wants no needs no desires other than the singular, unstoppable drive to kill the demon or be killed trying. and he really REALLY wants to be killed trying, to the point where at the end, hes disappointed he survived (in not quite so many words, as the chapter tries to maintain some levity, but.)

i think he picks this impractical move that's failed in this exact way before because the act of violence itself is more important to him than success. he doesnt actually want to save the world. he just wants to put himself in that things mouth again

consider this alongside the previous time he tried this maneuver. we never see him carrying any weapons, he always has to improvise a knife even though hes so clearly a knife fighter. i think the canaries dont let him carry sharp objects for a reason

self indulgent death note au where everything is the same execpt Lights a fucking loser. Everything is the same except hes literally just tomoko from watamote. overthinks everything. everyone thinks hes this cool suave guy but in his head hes just like “god DAMMIT ohhm y god no. noX I FORGOT MY FUCKING COFFEE ORDER THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING AND PATHETIC I NEED TO KILL MY SELF NOW???3” while the barista’s looking at him sighing dreamily. (plot twist: the barista is misa and her coworker is L. they both have very different opinions on light. misa just looks at him and thinks “what a guy.” and L’s only opinion on him is “wow what a loser he looks like hes in a constant state of sopping wet cat. (affectionate) ) Light is in crises half the time and people DO hate him but not for the reason he thinks. instead its because in his trying to always be perfect and get to places on time, he runs to places a lot and accidentally pushes people. so. much. atp theres a support group for people that Light Yagami has accidentally pushed in his hurry. anyways sorry for rambling i love light a lot but i think they should have internally made him a loser because come on. he has sad wet cat material and they wasted it on sad religious imagery of a teenage boy yearning to be something more. jk i love him :3 i just think he could have been more tragic in a radiohead/alex g way instead of a mitski way if u understand what that means.

yeah sure i get ayin’s whole thing about angela because of carmen but also LOOK AT HER. SHES LIKE A KITTY. HOW CAN YOU LOOK AT HER AND HATE HER FACE. he might as well be one step off from kicking baby animals for his own entertainment

"never lonely prosecution king"

Margarita: How do I put myself into a coma without killing myself and without permanent brain damage?

Margarita: My life sucks, and I would commit suicide, but I think I might want to wake up later, I don't really want to die.

Margarita: Again, I don't want to die, I want to go to sleep for like a month.

Margarita: To all you idiots incapable of comprehension, I didn't ask how to improve my current circumstances, I asked how to induce a coma.

Parents: What do you want for your birthday?

Me, out loud: Honestly, I dunno. There's not much I want right now. I can go look at stuff online?

Me, internally: Parsee Mizuhashi to be happy. I want Parsee Mizuhashi to be happy. Please let her be happy she doesn't deserve this I want her to be happy just let her be happy ju--

compilation of my sysmfy hc sillies from Twitter..

there are two types of Christopher Pierre fans.

The ones who hate him

and the ones who love him unconditionally no matter how hard they try to convince themself that he’s a bad person

You know who should have had more interaction with Mithrun? Chilchuck

Dadchuck would have activated so fast.

Mr. Know-Your-Worth Tims who hangs out with Mr. Take-Care-of-Yourself Senshi all the time would have had that self-esteem up in no time.

IF THIS GETS 3-5 LIKES/REBLOGS I WILL SEND PHRISTOPHER CIERRE TO MY FAVORITE GHOST BLOGS