"you're autism have nothing to do with your Asexuality and Aromantism"
Well maybe not for you, and that's valid, but for me it is.
Disclamer:this is MY personal exprience, i'm obviously not talking for all aroace and not everyone who's autistic is aro or/and ace, saying otherwise would be incredebly harmfull.
As an autistic person, my aromanticism and Asexuality are strongly linked to it. I however knew i was aroace before knowing i was autistic. The lack of attractions, romantic and sexual was the first indicator, but also the fact that i always felt better alone, being with people for too long is really draining to me. I hate being touched for too long, sleeping with someone in my bed is a pure nightmare, and living with someone constantly in my space is just unbearable for me. So in many way i'm not made to live with someone (romanticaly) for the rest of my days. Plus i also have ADHD and i have an organised mess that i love and hate when people tell me to clean up. I don't know if it's my autism or my aromanticism but it seem impossible for me to see real people as romantic partners, i don't really spot the difference btw Friends and Lovers.
I had a girlfriend for a whole year, we were long distance and i didn't know we were together before she called me her girlfriend to her dad...and idk since i wasn't seeing her IRL i just felt like i was playing a game yk? Like a virtual girlfriend or something, i didn't feel like i was with someone. I broke up when it started feeling too Real. I know it can sound really mean but it was genuinely how i felt, i couldn't help it , and i felt so bad, like i wasn't enought.
She was however aware of my asexuality and i think she was okay with it even if she did some sex jokes that made me sometimes uncomfy. My lack of sexual attractions started by "how could someone ever want to touche someone else like that in Real life?" For me it was something made up, that people weren't really doing but yeah.. it was Real and i was just ace. I'm not a touchy person, i hate being hugged for too long and it's even worst with people i don't really know. I hate the Idea of kissing someone, putting my lips against something else's lips? I would rather die. I hate not being in control and knowing that someone will have power over me, i hate knowing that someone could see me as a potential sexual partner, it always make me so fucking uncomfy, that's why it's hard for me to be friends with someone who have flirted with me.
I always thought i wasn't valid in my asexuality or aromanticism because i enjoy reading smut and romance but i learned (with the help of a big community) that it didn't mean anything and i was still valid asf, and so are everyone on the spectrum (asd&aroace).
I understand were people are coming from when saying that a disorder can't define a sexuality, because obviously not every autistic person is aro or/and ace, but personaly it definitly played a role in it. I would still be aroace without my autism but i would definitly see it differently. Everyone is unique and has their way of feeling their identity and telling them they're wrong because of personal belief would be stupid, if you're not causing any harm to a community or someone personnally then were is the issue?
Thank you for reading<3
happy pride month from your queer knight <3
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re: your thoughts on legendaries (which is very cool and based) what’s your take on the differences between legends:arceus giratina and platinum giratina, especially since you defined them as hating the world? specifically the bit where giratina (at least seemingly) actively defended the world from cyrus trying to destroy it, after trying to do the same thing with volo’s help centuries prior?
Weird ghost worm upon yee (AND MORE ART BELOW CUT!)
Anyways, here’s my mad ramblings about Giratina and Arceus’s backstory.
Tldr: Giratina’s a conglomerate of angry souls scorned by Arceus.
(Here’s the playlist. It’s all about worms.)
How it Started.
The original one has chosen favorites over the passage of time. Heroes, legends, protagonists…
Arceus intervenes for those it loves, and the consequences of a god touching the mortal world is devastating in its entirety. One act of divine intervention causes entire civilizations to collapse. One whispered suggestion drives an entire legacy insane.
So Arceus, paralyzed by its love for the mortal world, acts very little, learning from its mistakes. Apathy soaks through every motion. And thus is the way of the world.
But people love the Originator. Religions are born from Arceus’s rare deeds, and generation on generation taught its benevolence. Imagine spending your entire life chasing after that golden light. Imagine knowing its real and there, and it loves you.
Imagine begging it for help, and seeing it turn away when you need it most.
I think those people would feel very abandoned indeed, if they spent their lives worshipping, and receiving no response at all.
Giratina is born from the abandoned, the lost, and the angry. They’re a hundred thousand souls who’s adoration turned to spite. They’re an entity who demands for Arceus to look at them, so they can finally rest.
Arcues can not look at them in full, because if it does Giratina will fade.
(Scio, beloved. For I can not let you go.)
So the Original One banishes the Unwanted Beast into the distortion world, and Giratina seethes, and starves, and screams.
(Here are two truths about the Beast Between Dimensions—
1. Some part of them still loves Arceus. Arceus is their anchor, after all— the sole reason why they exist, why they are. But Arceus can not love it back in a way that matters, and that hurts.
2. Giratina is made of a thousand voices. Some of these voices remember that there’s a world above. They miss it.)
Why Giratina attacked Hisui in PLA:
PLA Giratina’s not a new god, but they’re very, very bitter and barely coherent on a good day. Volo serves as a conduct to help unite the broiling mass of ghosts against Arceus, and thus Giratina’s hatred overcomes any flickering affections they have for the land.
It doesn’t help that Arceus intervened for Hisui, sending Akari to directly stop Volo from summoning Giratina.
(As for Volo, well.
Imagine being a child who was thrown into the future due to Palkia and Dialga’s fits, who learned his people (his world) no longer exist beyond a shadow in the history books and a single, bitter lore keeper.
Volo doesn’t remember his original culture beyond vague imprints and singing praises to Sinnoh, but he knew he was loved, and he knew his family is dust four hundred years in the past. There’s a special sort of rage in him that echoes Giratinas.)
(Why did you abandon my people, Arceus? What kind of god are you, to leave those who love you so callously behind?)
(Maybe some part of Giratina recognizes Volo, beyond a feeling of kinship.
Maybe some part of Giratina grieves because it recognized the child Volo was.)
When Volo gets his pound of flesh, (when he realizes Arceus is not beholden to him, that the inherent alien morality Arceus holds is not a personal slight), Giratina will finally rest.
Anyways what I’m trying to say is: Arceus is never a person, but a nebulous embodiment of the connection shared between pokemon and humans. It tries to experience what it’s supposed to embody, but millennia of watching people be and cease has given it choice paralysis, apathy, and a hoarding issue. If something lasts forever next to it? Good.
Giratina was once a person. (Correction, a LOT of persons.) They don’t think very linearly either, but they have context on mortal matters and are thus the more benevolent and malicious of the two. One day, time will smooth them into something like Arceus. We can only hope the two keep each other in check.
THE DIFFERENCE OF LEGENDS ARCEUS GIRATINA VS PLATINUM PEARL GIRATINA
If the ancient version of giratina is an angry conglomerate of ghosts scorned by Arceus, the modern iteration of Giratina’s a creature that’s more settled in its skin and more assured in its duties. Giratina still has beef with Arceus, but they unionized into one being who’s love of the mortal world has triumphed over its ancestral grudge. One might even postulate they have shifted their anchor from Sinnoh the god, to Sinnoh the place.
((We call this character developement. Good for you, weird ghost worm!))
(((FULL DISCLOSURE, VOLO BEING FROM THE PAST IS INSPIRED FROM FOXFALL. You know. The fic that got me into this fandom. Please give it some love.)))
A Guy and his very normal service dog. per a convo in the group chat.
What does it take to teach a bee to use tools? A little time, a good teacher and an enticing incentive. Read more here: http://to.pbs.org/2mpRUAz
Credit: O.J. Loukola et al., Science (2017)
Ranboo's: magpies (because they're black and white).
Tubbo: hummingbirds (because of their energy and constant buzzing around).
Tommy: seagulls (because when c!Tommy was stealing a while ago a load of people jumped into chat and started yelling and fighting like a bunch of seagulls going after your chips).
Wilbur: nightingales (because they sing at night time).
Techno: bearded vultures (because they don't get fed enough and are always searching for scraps; oof).
And of course, Phil has his crows.
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