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My sister Graduated.

It was an really awful day, nothing could prepare me for it lol, I was completely shocked by it. I mean it's been days now, she graduated in the 9th of May and I am still thinking about this horrible day. Like what could I have done to make this day anything else than the day that it was. And the answer it nothing lmao, because I wasn't the one causing the problems. Maybe if I write about it, I'll think of it less. I just keep thinking this day was gonna be an easy day, I literally didn't have to do much of anything today, just get to the place and sit and watch my sister walk.

It started off fine. I was in a good mood because I had figured out my outfit for the day, and I really liked it, I thought it was so simple and cute and not to eye catching. I had an outfit planned for this day, but I wasn't feeling it last minute, the weather and my outfit weren't matching to me, it was raining all morning. So I was able to put something new together and it made me feel good, I felt in high spirits I guess lol, it made me realized that a good outfit can really save the day lol, because it kind of did help this day, if I had hated my outfit I would of left the arena early lmao.

Long story short, I was micromanaged all day, for a good chuck of this day. Me and my sister were micromanaged, and it was so infuriating. I didn't even want to go, I just went because my sister wanted me to go, and I really didn't have plans that day. I did want to be supportive of her, I am proud of her, it was a big accomplishment. I felt like this day should of been about her, her day to relax and take her awards. She worked for it.

But the person we were with made it all about themselves. Nothing we did that day was good enough. They just kept having to nitpick at us. They couldn't say one nice thing to me the whole day, and at dinner they were talking to me like everything was sweet, like they weren't being a asshole to me all day. They're the type of person who will say some really awful things to you in a really bad way and think they are speaking from the kindness of their heart and are doing you a favor. and it's like no, you are an ASShole.

And I was just so confused all day. I was really drained of energy I didn't know how to react to any of it. I wanted to walk out of the arena so bad and go to the movies lmao. But I knew that my sister would be like WTF. I kept wanting to be happy for my sister, kept trying to turn my mood around it was not working. My sister was mad, I was mad, my brother was mad. The day had been made lol.

The only good thing out of this day was the Graduation itself. This lady coming up to me and telling me my outfit was pretty😭. And when I got home I got ready for bed and went to sleep 🛏 lmao I was done with this day.

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“Cat in the Garden”

✨Yes I cried at the Nier concert lmao. It’s the one thing I wanted to do. And I felt so much emotions that night it was so nice to just cry to beautiful music. I have a couple of Nier songs that I just cry to, it’s the best.Emi Evans, and J’nique Nicole sound like angels live, I could listen to them forever. The story they told going along with the songs actually tore me up, it was so beautifully sad yet happy in the end.I almost became a crying mess at the end but stopped myself because I didn’t want makeup to go in my eyes lmao. Maybe next time I’ll let it all out.They even played my favorite songs, I wasn’t expecting them to play any of them. But they did, it was even combined with my other favorite song, I had goosebumps, it was so good. 

✨I really loved my outfit. I had like 5 outfit changes before ending up on this one. My rooms were left in such a state when we left. I was going more for the silhouette of the YoRHa uniform, and I really feel like I accomplished that. I honestly had so much fun wearing it, I was running around the building at one point, made me feel like I was actually a YoRHa android lmao.  I wish I had done more with my hair and makeup though. I want to try this outfit again soon, it’s one of my faves. Usually I get really antsy when dressed up, but this night I wanted to wear this outfit a little longer.

✨The concert itself was something else. There was a line wrapping outside the building. It was a sold out concert. It was a bit overwhelming, seeing all these people and thinking that they were all Nier fans. I haven't been to a musical concert for years, so it felt so new to me. I've been to small musical gatherings but nothing of this size. The inside of the building was really pretty too, I wish I got more pictures of it but it was a bit chaotic before the concert began.Once we entered the building, everyone ran to form one line. Me and my sister also went into the line. But I didn’t know what the line was for. Later found out it was the merch line. I never saw the merch table or the beginning of the merch line that whole night. I only saw the merch line and anything converging with the merch line lmao. It was like a horror movie almost, so many lines, it wrapped across the building hall just bending and curving. I think almost everyone was in that line.  I did want a shirt, but it felt like waiting in line to get a shirt would cost missing the concert and I was not doing that.

✨I have to say that the audience were so respectful. Like aside from the lines situation. It was a really chill audience. There was no yelling or pushing, it just felt so quiet even tho we were surrounded by people. This is just my experience that night. I felt bad that I didn’t get any pictures of anyone's cosplay, there was a lot of good ones. I was hella overwhelmed, so I couldn’t talk to anyone lmao.

“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”

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