DEAN WINCHESTER In One Random Episode Per Day ‣ 287/327 11.05 THIN LIZZIE

SPN + HORROR >> 1x03 / 1x06 / 1x09 / 1x12 / 1x15 / 1x18

Sam and Dean

Wherever you go I will follow.

Whatever you become, I will too.

Another day, another school, where the kids all have different names but are all the same. The teacher, also different and also the same, asks her class if anyone collects things. Sam frowns. If he was old enough to know better, he’d say he collects sorrows.

Kids raise their hands and talk excitedly about stamps, flowers drying between book pages, dead butterflies pinned like trophies in transparent showcases, Yo-Yos. Sam raises tentatively his hand, because he wants to melt in this classroom, wants to be just a name, to have a bedroom, a favorite crosswalk, and the luxury to collect things. So he says the one and only thing he can think of: “motel rooms”. Because this is true, somehow. An eclectic collection of dusk in nowhere towns and first days everywhere.

She tries to explain to him that it isn’t the same, because Sam can’t carry motel rooms with him, doesn’t even own them. She sees the light dim in his eyes, as kids start to giggle around him, glancing at him like he just said something hilarious. There’s nothing funny about this. She asks him if there is anything else that he keeps somewhere safe, anything that makes him happy and that he carries with him everywhere, that he can’t get enough of, and Sam thinks about it long and hard, makes a list of everything that fits the description. 

In the end there is just one thing, but the moment he thinks it, Sam’s heart swells in his chest and the kids’ mocking gazes fade in the classroom’s background, because his collection is the coolest in the entire goddamn universe. And none of the kids here can claim to have something as great as him. They can keep their lifeless butterfly wings.

“Sammys, I collect Sammys”, he says with a big grin, and she ask “What are Sammys?” but Sam just laughs. No one in this school deserves to know. No one in the entire town deserves to see his collection. So Sam just laughs and when the bell rings, he leaves with his bag on his shoulders and his teacher’s eyes on his back. 

She’s walking to her car, thinking about dinner and going for a jog maybe, when she hears a loud and boisterous “Sammy!” behind her. There’s so much unfiltered joy and love in those five letters that she feels a half second of jealousy before she can stop herself. She looks around and sees a boy, sun bleached hair and vibrant green eyes, who must be 8 at most, waving at little Sam who is running toward him at full speed, a private smile she’s almost ashamed to be a witness of spreading on his cheeks. 

That’s when she gets it, and as she watches Sam throw himself at the other boy, who just laughs and hugs Sam just as hard, she hopes Sam’s collection will never end collecting dust on the shelves of his memories.

DEAN WINCHESTER ✧ 2.9 CROATOAN

Let's see. Jensen worked for a vast majority of his acting life on this character and it is probably the one he will be known for, unless he goes on to make one even more iconic.

Guess what supernatural is often called, especially by some people who are tapped a bit into online spaces? The gay angel thing. Hellers have been so loud about destiel that people are misled about the content of the show and the importance of a side character. Why would Jensen, as an actor who anyway cannot escape from all this destiel noise, want to let it becomes worse so that the show and his character is entirely overrun?

He has stated that he doesn't have an issue with fan fiction so long as it remains there. The OP sounds bitter about him bringing up wincest and so on, as if both items are not equally fanon. One scene out of the blue suddenly changed things (I doubt it did for most of the GA - my take was Angelic love, not gay), and now he is blamed for things he said way way ("not played it that way") before that scene. And even hellers agree that he didn't play "that scene" that way! They are still salty at the lack of acknowledgement. Which is extra ironic given that the core of that scene was that happiness was in the knowing and not needing the having. So essentially the hellers are being whiny incels here. There I said it.

why is jensen ackles so toxic?

i have been a supernatural fan for over ten years and i have known for a while that jensen has never been a fan of destiel, which would be completely fine if he didn't always react uncomfortable and downright disgusted every time someone mentions it and / or the possibility of dean being queer. i have seen him become very defensive and even hostile when asked questions about these things at conventions. to this day jensen (& jared) STILL vehemently call castiel's confession "platonic" and "brotherly" while the writers, showrunners and misha explicitly called it a romantic confession of love.

my problem with jensen's behaviour is that it seems to be rooted in very toxic masculinity and the fragility of it. he has called emotional writing "unmanly" and "effeminate" and "something dean would never say to another man"; he was glad that dean didn't share many scenes with castiel in season 9; he desperately wanted destiel "to go away" and something else that really irks me: so many times when destiel was talked about, he brought up wincest, as if that is in any way the same. he seems to associate queerness with unmanliness, weakness and something to be uncomfortable about.

i can understand that destiel extremists have insulted his wife, insinuated ridiculous things happened between actors etc but this is no excuse for his downright homophobic comments and behaviour. he can also imagine dean however he wants and i know he thinks he understands dean better than anyone but it's so sad to me how much he seems to limit dean in who he could be TO OTHER PEOPLE. who does it harm if a bunch of bi people see themselves in him and his behaviour? i thought jensen understood just how much dean hid from everyone. it makes me sad that he seems to want to forbid other people from interpreting dean differently than he does.

he should really take some time to reflect if dean winchester's non-canon sexuality is really worth coming across homophobic for.

Normalize interior design that makes your house look like you just stepped into an underwater cave or a dragon’s lair or a castle throne room or a wizard’s study or a graveyard crypt or a faerie forest or a

Dean Winchester - 08x1

Listen are there any more fans who are literally into supernatural BECAUSE it was about monsters and horror and creepy folktales that they were already into? Cause that’s me.

My favourite thing about supernatural outside of Sam and Dean was the urban legends, the cases of the week where they would hole up in a motel and dig into the lore before going out in the fucking wild or into the strange local histories of small towns. I’m fucking obsessed with all this creepy shit. It wasn’t just about Sam and Dean for me- every podcast I end up obsessed with is about obscure local histories, folky monsters and secret societies.

Sam and Dean are weirdos. They are the things that go bump in the night just the same as the things they hunt. I LOVE them for that.

It makes me sad that the show attracts so many people that are like ‘ooh I skip over all the creepy stuff because I’m here for the drama and the homoerotic story I made up in middle school’ girl, I wasn’t gonna say it. But you’re appropriating goth culture. The creepy shit is literally the point here.

Go watch cutesy stuff lol. I wanna talk about cryptids and curses and backwood towns and ‘missing under mysterious circumstances’.

This is why the episodes of the week were so special.

I would actually say the less it focused on folkloric monsters of North America, the more boring it got. Like imagine Sam and Dean encountering MothMan and stopping a local disaster episode. Like, a Beast of Boggy Creek episode. A ‘Not Deer’ episode. Or even one with scary little cave gremlins, or ‘black eyed kids’. Even one where they explore a skin**lker case. (I’m obscuring it because the more I know about them the more genuinely terrifying they become lol) There’s just so many places they could have gone with scaling it down and making it more interesting, and keeping the brother dynamic going smoothly - which was when it was it’s most entertaining.

In the later seasons the writers kept making them talk about working cases but then interrupting it to play bullshit Angel demon corporate nonsense and inserting British villains. Like Red Meat was a fucking BANGER for a reason. It wasn’t set inside a magic building full of people strategising. It was in a cabin in the woods. It was the isolation that made it scary, the wilderness, vs a controlled environment, that made it feel like even though your characters are strong- anything could happen.