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HOW DARE YOU » 4/∞ ⤷ 3.5 Bedtime Stories

Jensen Ackles in Dawson's Creek

In Gilmore girls, Dean and Jess are both love interests for Rory.

Sam, please tell me why your girlfriend looks so much like your brother. The same height the same face the same smile even the same birthday. I don't believe it's a coincidence. You don't want to admit it but Who do you really love？Going to college was the first time sammy had left his brother, and they had an argument before they separated .How much you miss your brother at that time。。。

The thing is that the ways in which dean and sam need each other are both compatible and parallel in their nature.

Dean needs sam to stay with him (let him take care of him look after him and be with him) and sam despite all his need for autonomy and freedom which he does desire of course (he needs dean to respect his choices and see him) also needs dean to need him—choose him. It’s always been that way—something we see from the very pilot itself. He goes with dean in the pilot after dean admits that he doesn’t want to do it without sam even if he is capable for it.

It affects sam profoundly when dean gets close to other people—especially men because it threatens the idea that dean could need people other than him (even the mere desire to want for others apart from him is distasteful even if he doesn’t want it to be—he just can’t help it, it’s the way they are.) Of course dean has never needed for anything more than sam, that sam and just sam has always been more than enough but sam needs that from him, constantly and actively.

In Sacrifice (8x23), when he reveals that the fact that dean chose to turn to people (an angel, a vampire) apart from him was unbearable to him was just so.. much. And it’s interesting because we know that sam too is friends with cas, has never been shown to consider him a rival in any sense (but just the mere possibility of sam and just sam not being enough for dean is devastating for him.) He doesn’t harbour any resentment or competition towards cas, it’s just that he needs to be the choice over everything else from dean. He needs it because he chose that too, even when he had a chance to get out—multiple times over. And yes, the circumstances shaping his choices are often not ideal, are sometimes not even entirely choices but he always stays because of the knowledge that dean will always choose him.

The conflict then is often caused by doubt—dean, deeply insecure about sam’s loyalty. For him, it’s a given—that sam will always be first, has always and forever been above everything else but he expects sam to know it too. Despite everything he puts on him and says to him, despite the fights and the anger and the mistrust. None of that will ever change this one fundamental thing.

But Sam doesn’t (!!) Maybe at one time he did, before the demon blood and the soullessness and the countless countless ways he thinks he fucked up but somewhere along the line it became clear to Sam that he could not trust it to always be Dean’s first choice, can’t know it for sure.

Doubt again, Sam—unable to know if Dean will always choose him over all else and Dean unable to verbalise that enough because of said insecurity (the fear that he needs sam more than sam needs him) and unable to understand why Sam would feel this way because he expects him to already know that Sam will always be above all else, at the end of the day despite whatever happens because that is who Dean is.

Oh gencest is the absolute best.

I hear a lot of people talking about how they went from discovering gencest to then diving into wincest, but am I the only one who ventured into wincest territory and discovered gencest? I absolutely love gencest. The idea that there are stories where there is no sexual or romantic relationship between Dean and Sam, but where the story focuses on their intense emotional bond is just uhhhhhggg so phenomenal. Platonic soulmates. Cuddles and hugs. Forehead kisses. Protective stances, guarded faces. People on the outside thinking 'damn those Winchester brothers are sewed together at the hip.' Sleeping in the same bed. "There ain't no me if there ain't no you." Parking the Impala and staring up at the stars, side by side. No words need to be said.

I. Just. Can't. Tell. You. How. Much. I. Adore. This. Concept.

SAM WINCHESTER (being adorable) THROUGH THE SEASONS - for @seasononesam​‘s 1k Follower Celebration • [dean version]

“I still have a lot of fight left in me.”

Sammy smiling (✿◠‿◠)

Timestamps.

One feature never changes: Dean looking at Sam. You're here, brother of mine. Now it's ok.