Jian Yi, Admiring Zheng Xi From A Distance: He Could End My Life Anytime And I'd Thank Him.

40-year-old he tian has a little tummy. he's still fit and in good shape, it's just that mo's cooking is too delicious to resist. and mo guan shan absolutely loves it, because tian's finally eating (and sleeping) normally.

he tian, tired after a long day at work: hey, guan shan, can you do that thing that makes me happy?

mo guan shan: *smiles*

he tian: yeah, thank you.

he tian: what the hell are you doing there?

mo guan shan, standing on the table: it's my place too! i can stand where i want!

he tian, sighing: where's the spider?

mo guan shan: ...near the fridge.

This is petty of me but fuck it… I cannot wait for She Li to see how Mo is somehow thriving after he tried so desperately to break him. I know it’s just going to eat him alive knowing that Mo is somehow still okay and not only that, He Tian is now closer than he’s ever been to Mo.

Mo is strong. Mo is resilient. Mo is loving.

No matter how She Li tries that will never change.

Mo’s been seriously bullied and injured and the first adults Ox shows us interacting with him are replicating exactly the same. This is an environment certifying the fallacious ideas constructed around him. This kid can’t catch a break.

The couple is oblivious of the harmful effect their judgemental attitude has. Even more in this particular character's skin. I don't think is random the couple is older. They represent a backward way of thinking: the lack of empathy.

Guanshan covers himself literally. Isolating from the violent gaze of strangers and peers that constantly hurt him.

He usually curls up inside his comfort zone showing his claws but now he just wants to disappear.

These are terrible psychological consequences. Worse than the physical ones, harder to heal.

That’s why is such a big deal when he asks HT if he believes in him. It means he still thinks there's a silver lining.

I think the death stare is HT not allowing those idiots fuck-up all the progress Mo and him have made. He cannot let his little mountain close off again. Mo’s given him a little more access inside his walls. Accepting his help, his loving care. The newly awakened empath even pushes further with his clingy feet below the table without getting a flinch.

The hug outside.

But HT's well aware he's walking on eggshells too. He’s exhausted because he hasn’t slept properly in what, 2 days now? But I think what's weighing down on him the most is that he’s finally understood how much love, emotional support, and professional help, please kids… his future husband really needs.

While he's running out of time.

one day mo guan shan will intertwine his fingers with he tian in return.

university professor: he tian, why are you so late?

he tian: i'm sorry, professor, my cat fell asleep on my lap, and i didn't want to wake him up.

the cat:

he tian: i need to lose some weight. you've spoiled me, redhead.

mo guan shan: fuck no *cooks 10 times more*

40-year-old he tian has a little tummy. he's still fit and in good shape, it's just that mo's cooking is too delicious to resist. and mo guan shan absolutely loves it, because tian's finally eating (and sleeping) normally.

I don’t understand, what do you mean this wasn’t the scene???