Scaryspears - Apple Bottom Queen

I love how Terry didn't look the least bit offended when Kenny flipped the bird at him.

A part of me likes to believe he sort of saw Kenny as a surrogate son, or at least could've been. I always saw Terry as Kenny's Miyagi, and I can picture Kenny (when Dallas was still small) following Terry around. Terry (though manipulative) is more soft and sympathetic than Kreese was. Terry was probably the 'nicer' one.

Yes, Robby trained Kenny most of the time with the addition of Tory, but I'm pretty sure he was more of a brotherly figure. Terry had the mentor title because not only was he much older, but he could teach things Robby didn't know.

Like, Daniel was someone to torment, whereas Kenny's mentorship was genuine. There was a bond forming between them. Edit: Kenny and Daniel both have big brown eyes. Makes me wonder, if Daniel wasn't an enemy, would Terry have treated Daniel like he treated Kenny? Even with the coke in his system?

When Kenny flips the bird it's like seeing your child be rebellious, and while you could get mad, it's also adorable. No matter what, you'll remember them for the little kid they once were. Regardless of whether or not their anger is valid, that's your little boy/girl.

He didn't look disappointed or angered, it was more like a 'well, damn'.

My Opinions on the Barbie film that no one cares about!

+ Ken Analysis

Warning: I'm gonna say too many things at once. If you understand then you understand.

The whole 'neurodivergent people see the world differently' is starting to actually hit me. I watched the Barbie movie to celebrate my birthday and enjoyed the experience, but what I find wild is the responses from the audience and how it clashes with my response.

I read about how some people cried when Barbie had a conversation with the old woman. How the movie is super deep, when I memorised it for how wacky it is. There are a bunch of reactions I came across on the internet that I did not understand and couldn't relate to. The debate on the matriarchy and politics, and how it goes against men, I cannot be asked.

The lesson I got from Barbie is that it was a movie to enjoy but also teach young girls that Barbie is not something to look down on but cherish. She isn't a fascist nor was she created to look like any girl, which is such a breath of fresh air. Barbie is a doll, to play with and enjoy. There's nothing realistic about her when she's literally not even a real living breathing person. I left the film with priorities, and that was to compliment as many people as I can.

The only thing I did find disturbing is the dynamic between Ken and Barbie, and it only made sense once the movie was finished. Considering I had consumed the entire film by that point.

Ken tries to get Barbie's attention and pretty much follows her around, and it's very obvious that he is interested in her but she didn't show signs of that same interest. I also recall a few times that she seemed a bit dismissive towards him, which is understandable since he snuck into her car and joined her adventure without her wanting him to.

There's that party scene, well... after the party, where Ken is kissing Barbie but they aren't actually kissing. Ken is 'kissing' Barbie but Barbie isn't 'kissing' back, which I immediately found odd, because not only does it go against the point of Ken's existence, but Barbie and Ken are the canon couple to always root for. It was strange seeing a view of them where everything is one-sided. It is solidified when Barbie straight up admits that she doesn't love Ken nearing the end of the film. I was caught off guard in a way where I felt like I wasn't supposed to be, but I suddenly realised that they aren't a couple. Ken was created to be Barbie's lover, yet his fate isn't being completed because of Barbie's disinterest. Once it's recognised that he cannot complete his fate he becomes Ken-nough. Who cares about becoming a real woman when Ken's purpose wasn't being fulfilled?

I'm not going to excuse Ken's behaviour in the film, but I interpreted that he just wanted acknowledgement. He even shows off his arm muscles for Barbie to see while they are arguing. Ken says to Barbie after the discovery of the Mojo Dojo Casa house "Now you know how it feels" or something along those lines. Ken felt recognised and respected. Before he was just Ken who wasn't good at Beach Offs but now he has some kind of name for himself.

Ken's story was a messy self discovery. I mean he grew disinterested in what he created once he realised it wasn't about horses. He's a horse man, not a beach man. Horses are not in Barbie land.

Judging by his rivalry with pompadour Ken (Simu Liu) he just wanted to prove himself as a capable Ken. He sees pompadour Ken as cool despite their dislike towards one another, which may have been a foreshadow of what's to come. Ken desired respect, Barbie's respect but wasn't aware of the growing resentment he felt towards her until views from the outside world were planted into his mind.

I found Ken's identity crisis more relatable. He can live with that void in peace, knowing it's alright for it to not be fulfilled. His mission is being himself and not an accessory. He's not just Ken if his purpose hasn't been fulfilled, he is Ken-nough.

Clark Kent is Insane (Smallville)

I'm on the Smallville bandwagon, and I'm currently on season 7. I've seen some posts that find it unbelievable that people weren't interested in and crazy in love with Clark and stuff. I'm convinced that people stayed away from him because they thought he was crazy, or was that guy that always had something weird happening to him. It's obvious that Clark is attractive, but there's also another side to it besides his looks.

Clark would find himself in situations that would make people scratch their heads. Put yourselves in the perspective of the Smallville citizens.

I'm going to give some examples from season 1 (can't remember which episode)

Clark's powers get transferred to another boy named Eric Summers, and once Eric finds out about these abilities he exploits them. Clark tries to talk Eric into not being a bad person, and that ends with Clark getting smashed into the top of a car, bleeding from his nose and all. A lot of his school mates saw that, and word apparently travels fast in small towns. Everyone certainly found out.

In another episode, Earl Jenkins (played by Tony Todd) is a victim of the Luthors, and while Clark's class is on a school trip, the character holds the students hostage in order to threaten the Luthors. Whatever experiments Luthor corp did on him makes him shake violently, and anything he comes into contact with will shake uncontrollably as well (can't remember if it results in death). It's best to stay away from this guy. What does Clark do? Try's to speak to the guy and convince him not to do this, and stuff like that. Basically, the same thing he did with Eric Summers. It doesn't get him heavily injured, but it could've made things worse.

Clark would also go through a thing where his personality flips. Not knowing he's on red kryptonite, everyone probably felt like they were interacting with a completely different person, but with Clark's face. Everyone's just like "Clark Kent is letting his intrusive thoughts win?" And he would mysteriously forget what's transpired (due to switching bodies or his mind being taken over). He would be genuinely confused, and is frighteningly proceeding as if nothing's happened, despite being aware that something wrong has taken place, thanks to him or involving him.

When Clark accidentally causes his mum's miscarriage, the first thing he does is crashout. He puts on the red kryptonite and rides of to Metropolis. I'm pretty sure he was gone for months, robbing from atms and getting into fights with people.

When Nathan Dean (the banshee guy) showed up (around season 3-ish), Clark lost his sight temporarily... even though it's everyone's ears that suffered. That's weird.

Onwards, Clark would suspiciously be at the scene of a crime or some kind of incident. He's always involved in police business, and playing "investigator" with Chloe and Pete. Always on his way to save people, and do something that everyone will immediately think is stupid.

Around season 3 or 4, Clark marries Alicia. A literal stalker who tried to harm Lana Lang (the it girl of Smallville). Once he comes back from his honeymoon, looking all guilty, everyone whispers while side eyeing him. And of all things Mr and Mrs Kent are mad about, it's the fact that Clark married illegally (both Alicia and him were underage), and that he disregarded how sacred marriage is (even though he was on red kryptonite). That was terrible writing, but I don't remember them being too angry about Alicia.

There's also that time (can't remember if it was season 5 or 6) when Clark and Lois crash Lex and Lana's dinner party where they're celebrating their engagement. Clark and Lois are dressed as bikers, informal leather jacket outfits. They must've looked insane to everyone at that party, Lex especially. And then Clark proceeded to ruin the pregnancy announcement for Lex and Lana (he did it for the lolz).

Every time Clark is doing (or about to do) something everyone is probably side eyeing him, and thinking "What's he about to do this time?"

What's worse is that his parents don't seem to be doing anything about it. They don't appear to be worried about the fact that he might potentially be having occasional psychotic breaks, and other mental disorders going on with him. He's got main character syndrome, and a hero complex. Insert other mental disorders and illnesses of your choosing, because I'm not a psychiatrist nor am I trained in knowing about mental health.

If the writers intended on this, knowing that they couldn't make Tom Welling look like a pathetic dork, then it's a good call. Can't make him dweebish? Make him look insane. Even if Clark was a nerd, and looked like one, everyone would still be fawning over him (me especially). But fawning over a crazy person is risky because of how unpredictable they are. Not only that, but we've seen girls fawn over him before, albeit harbouring bad intent (to some degree for most). And of course, Chloe was super interested in him, and Lana would get jealous and shocked from whatever relationship he had outside of her, even when she was with another guy.

That's my Smallville theory.

Me to your alien reader fic

Me to your alien reader fic

Yes, that is what I was going for but I'm unfortunately too soft and I rushed everything, eager to share it on this website. I mean she's an alien for crying out loud, it's alright to make them naive but I want a gruesome sense of curiosity. I wanted her to not make sense, and at times be contradictory. I took some notes from Neferpitou's character when writing the reader.

Getting back on track, when she killed Stormfront she took the chance to let her urges get the best of her. The need to put anything that moves in your mouth and see if it's edible like a matchstick.

Reader herself is not a human but a creature so I wanted to treat her like one. She's unearthly, an unending mystery that has a whole bunch of stories the more you cut her open. She can live up to 1000s if not 100s of years, we do not know how long she's been a baby among those years. A lot of people don't realise she is a child yet get surprised when she does many mature things as if a part of them knows. She's so young yet so old.

She has the desire to make as many people happy as she can but will welcome any disadvantages. She doesn't mean any harm, but will switch between holding back and using her natural instincts if she finds it fitting for the situation. She needs to be overpowered but in a way where only another unearthly thing can counter it. She's willing to turn into a monster for the people she loves and will grow to care about (Starlight, Kimiko, ect.).

I'm into the whole sweet, innocent reader having a terrifying side. And by terrifying, I mean Adult Gon levels of terrifying, especially if the reader is a monster or mythical being of some kind.

It's something I rarely come across and I wrote that simply for the sake of feeding my own desire.

Hope you enjoyed it though, any other thoughts you would like to share?

Static Shock: Shebang/Shanise

“Apocalypse in Pink” part 2 (see part 1 here), from the August 1983 issue of SPECTAGORIA Magazine. Sera Clairmont’s celebrated underground fashion magazine was always scratching at the bleeding edge of culture, deftly navigating the trends of the Reagan ‘80s by simultaneously coopting and corrupting its materialistic obsessions. Never was that theme on visceral display than in this controversial issue. Apocalypse in Pink found Clairmont’s “Barbie dolls” trying to keep their glamour and their plastic smiles in the flames of a Capitalist Cold War simultaneously obsessed with materialism and annihilation; an America that, Clairmont wrote, “relentlessly asks women if we’re beautiful enough, if our clothes are fancy enough, if our pursuits are ambitious enough, and at the end of every night, if we know where our children are.”

In true Spectagoria fashion, what begins as stylish playful “nuclear Barbie” iconography gradually descends into horrific flames and melting pink plastic bodies, with only the womens’ smiles in tact on their smoldering skeletons at the end of the issue.

Reportedly, this issue was sent to Spectagoria subscribers in a package that included a pink lighter and a note that read, “when you’re finished reading, finish the job.” When burned, the magazine was said to ignite in a dazzling show of hot pink flames that sparkled and crackled, a performance art to complete the issue’s vision. As a result, Apocalypse in Pink is one of the most rare and coveted issues of the magazine, with no complete copies known to exist.

Most who have studied Spectagoria lore conclude that the exterior of the magazine was likely coated in a chemical powder that created the fantastical pink flames. But such a magic show has been meaty fodder for those who believe the rumors of occult powers and dark witchcraft surrounding the publication…

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Rowana Micblair - The Dark Fairy

So I was reading some young Snape leaves Hogwarts stories and came up with this character. I know it's cringe and kind of predictable, but I think it's interesting. I'll never forgive the first 3 seasons of Winx Club for not giving us actual dark fairies, that would've been interesting. We've seen fairies capable of evil yet they would have to transform into a witch to use dark magic, and the closest we've gone is Mitzi and the Wizard of the dark circle. I haven't watched anything after season 4, so I won't be writing about that.

Name: Rowana Micblair

Age: 16+

Likes: chocolate, being with her friends, reading, doing potions, practising spells, telling jokes

Dislikes: being made fun of, hurting people, not understanding something

Type of fairy: Darkness. But she can do light magic so I don't know, growth and healing? Chemistry? Acceptance? Welcome?

Quotes: "I've never been good at flying on brooms, so magic decided to give me wings."

Love interest: Thran (is a student at Red Fountain and has Elven genetics)

Pixie: Estelle (a time pixie that teaches her to be more open and forgiving, but also guides her on the importance of time)

Planet: Some random name. Everyone can use magic with the help of a wand, make potions and fly with a broom. There's backwards technology, old music, and everyone wears robes and outdated clothing. Everything is HP based, even the spells. There's light and dark mages, and everyone mostly lives in harmony.

Origin: Rowana Micblair is the result of a light witch and a dark wizard falling in love, and this made her family outcasts due to how unusual it is on their planet. 

Rowana struggled to make friends growing up because of her parents reputation in the place she lived in. Not to mention she was considered unattractive to anyone outside her family. They also moved houses often, so that made it hard for her to grow attached to people anyways. They stopped moving around when she was 12, and at her new school she was able to only make one friend, but she was bullied often by light and dark mages alike. They were friends for their own reasons, Rowana was lonely but the friend was using her. Taking advantage of Rowana's need for companionship and loyalty. 

The girls were total opposites, the friend being popular and outgoing, and Rowana being the opposite. The friend was bright, while Rowana was dull. Everyone wondered why they hung out with each other in the first place, and what the friend was getting out of it.

Rowana wouldn't discover this until she was 16, catching her friend bragging to one of her bullies about how she always has Rowana on a tight leash and how she can never be friends with such a freak. Hurt by the betrayal (or revelation rather) Rowana would use her dark powers with the intent to harm (for the first time) on her friend, ultimately having her expelled from her school and ruining her image even further. 

Soon after Rowana is surprised to get an invitation letter from Alfea school of fairies. Fairies are unheard of on her planet, there are only mages, so the invitation was very shocking. Rowana, though hesitant at first, accepts the invitation with the encouragement of her parents.

She is welcomed with open arms, and her roommates are pretty nice people but she spends the first 2 months keeping to herself despite them inviting her to hang out with them and asking her to study with them. There's especially one of them that reminds her of her former friend, Bloom. The same hair, the same apparent friendliness, and being good at making friends.

What makes her stick out is that she's able to do the spells, but a dark form of them. Like a dark light if that's even possible.

Soon Rowana opens up about being a dark fairy and what life was like on her home planet as being an in between-er of light and dark. The girls are sympathetic and before she knows it she's a part of the Winx Club. Her wardrobe is different thanks to Stella, she knows the latest music thanks to Musa, discovers how to use the latest technology with the help of Tecna, and discovers new ingredients to use in her potions with the help of Flora. She finds out that Bloom is genuine in her good intent, also finding out that she's an outcast where she grew up as well. The girls discover a funny, loving and cute side to Rowana once she starts opening up to them.

The Trix have tried to recruit her but after she gave them a taste of their medicine they've been sworn enemies ever since. They are more cautious of her than they are of  Bloom and every other fairy. When the Winx have to study at Cloud tower for a short amount of time, she can easily keep up with the teachings without some kind of negative effect. Her willingness to work with people despite the background they come from is what makes her earn her charmix. Also makes friends with Aisha just because.

One day her parents invite her over to visit and does so with the Winx, but this grabs the attention of Valtor who decides to target her planet. Meanwhile, she bumps into her old classmates and she still has grudges against them. They are pretty mean to her, and she has a meltdown before running off. The girls find her and are able to coax her into coming out of her hiding place. She decides that she's not gonna let anyone's words get to her ever, and should be happy of her heritage despite the freak many will believe her to be. Then they fight Valtor and his minions along with the Trix, and risks her life saving her former classmates, thus earning her Enchantix. It isn't just about saving them, but also putting the past behind and being ready to forgive and move on without any ill will.

Here are some images from some fanmade dress up games.