Kaveh Goes To The Chenyu Vale Area To Survey Some Lands Only To End Up Discovering Hidden Places Along

in two days, i’ll be officially a month in, in my new workplace, and though this was supposed to be the last resort of all the last resorts (since i told myself i’d like to take a break in teaching), i’m glad that it turned out this way.

i’m proud of how i’m holding up so far considering i still have unprocessed emotions and trauma from my previous workplace (counselling sessions were put on a halt because i ran out of funds to pay my counsellor, and i have to find a definite time i could talk to her once more because i’m back to working again). perhaps it’s the reasonable workload that allows me to actually have a brief moment of centering myself and reassuring that i’m not in the same workplace anymore, and that my bosses are not my previous bosses anymore when i feel a trigger start. i’m also proud that i haven’t really super embarrassed myself, and i hope not to in the coming days, of course. moreover, i’m really proud of my students this term because i can see them do their best to perform as expected, but are also aware and open to receiving feedback. if only we can show the works of our students, but data privacy, ofc.

i still don’t know how to describe my relationship with teaching since i was burnt out for the most part, but i’m approaching all of this with an open mind, and open heart, and an open spirit. anyway, among the recurring themes in my life is restoration, so let’s see how things will go from here. o (◡‿◡✿)

Daily Gratitude

August 26, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

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Prompt (if you want): Something you are proud of (big or small).

the recent limited event in genshin reminds me a little bit of honkai's aetherium wars and man how i dislike aetherium wars with a passion (⊙︿⊙✿)

(still finishing aetherium wars over at honkai because i started late and i just want to work on my honkai backlogs (⊙︿⊙✿))

today i found myself feeling unusually productive in carrying out my task avoidance list: i decided to update my CV, create a skeleton for a website where i’ll post my art (original and fan art), muse about my online accounts and presence, and so this main blog just went through a mini-overhaul. sana ganito rin ako sa work, but i’m not gonna talk about that atm. even my overthinking at work has reached burnout levels, i don’t know how to recover swiftly from it.

and because i’m working on a website for my works now, i’ve decided to use my main blog for more personal posts! mostly when i have no time and energy to get my journal and when typing feels more convenient than writing. this’ll be an archive of sorts.

anyway, i know i’m not really obliged to explain the reasons for my doing things, but i’m just wired to do so, i guess?

i was hoping to save a lot for arlecchino’s banner knowing how botched my luck has been in genshin gacha since fontaine opened but my mind just couldn’t stop thinking about chiori and how much i really saved up for her (before knowing that arle will arrive at 4.5 okay!!) and how much i want to have her because of her dolls so i decided to check my limited banner history and pulled a 10-pull on a whim and oH MY GOD??!!!!?

BBG ACTUALLY CAME HOME WHEN I LEAST EXPECTED TO WIN MY 50/50 ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊

i didn’t expect i’ll actually have it that easy (?) since i got nahida from the last banner (nahida was guaranteed because i lost my 50/50 pulling for navia) BUT SHE’S FINALLY HOME!! ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊ the last time i was this lucky with my pulls was on ayato’s, yelan’s, cyno’s, and alhaitham’s first banners. after that everything just went downhill, i guess (except the guaranteed ones ofc).

her team animation is also so cool, too! (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧ so sleek!

now that i have chiori, my art department is complete (freminet is their youngest member). no elemental reactions, only art ¡¡¡( •̀ ᴗ •́ )و!!! i also realized that all of them are sword users (claymores are swords, after all?) so exploration-wise, this team’s also bad, but i can always work around that for the love of my weird team comps (4ggravate is probably the least weirdest of them all).

i’ve yet to level her up more and build her more because i need some fodder to feed the artifacts i have for her and more adventure books, too, as i’ve spent them a lot recently on nahida and layla (for my shatterbloom team, ofc. anything for kaveh, my love and my light) before i send her to battle, ofc. her split scaling still confuses me, but i’ll learn it well eventually, ofc. it’s too bad that the only weapon i have suitable for her because of it’s defense substat is the traveler’s handy sword. it’s also somehwat fashion impact (i credit jeikage for that one) on her, thankfully.

oh, and besides getting chiori in her banner, i also managed to pull my favourite husband in a single pull while trying to get her (TvT \)

my kaveh is now C1, and though it’s not impressive for all, it’s alright because all i want as a casual genshin enjoyer is to complete my favourite husbands’ constellations (for the four stars ofc, like kaveh and thoma) unless they’re five stars because that’s too pricey already (T^T \)

now i can proceed with the character story quests i’ve left since the highly emotional 4.2 archon quest! wuw.

i have many things i'd consider my roman empire and a genshin event with itto visiting the nation of wisdom and meeting the sumeru crew is one of them.

who would win: itto versus the sumeru crew?

not me delaying the rest of the trailblaze mission because the ✨death flags✨ are so real ( * ಥ ⌂ ಥ * )

crammed this year's may day tour because i almost forgot about it until i was in the middle of finishing my tasks for the day at work earlier (⌯⊙⍛⊙)

i've been playing animal crossing new horizons since the year it was launched and though i don't religiously open it as much as i did (until genshin ate me completely), i still enjoy running around my island, talking to my villagers, and "working" on my happy home paradise island when i'm energized enough to design a rest house. plus i still want to finish decorating my island - something i promised myself i would three years ago hehehehehehe

almost panicked 100% when i couldn't login on my ao3 account, but all's well now thankfully ❀.(*´◡`*)❀

i also have no idea what's going on there, but yes my top three genshin husbands.

it's also been a struggle overcoming my art block so drawing tiny doodles help me get back into making art gradually (•ؔʶ̷ ˡ̲̮ ؔʶ̷)✧

last saturday, i took some time off my games and work to assemble a small flower made up of entirely building blocks (they're not really lego pieces so i won't call it lego). the tiny flowers and the flower pot kept falling off every time i add a piece, but after the initial frustration of having to restack the tiny parts each time they fall, i found myself too absorbed completing everything, and even added a few pieces to add more details. now i want to buy another one, and buy an acrylic casing to keep all of the tiny building block models safe from dusts and our cats at home.

ofc there's going to be a photoshoot of the final output with pocket kaveh (´｡• ◡ •｡`) ♡