2022 Wrap Up Collage | 2023

now that i’m back in my childhood home, i’d like to say that after living in an apartment for rent, i’ve grown to appreciate my room since my teenage years because as much as i love reconnecting and seeing my friends from time to time, it provides the one quiet space i need when i badly need to recharge (as an introvert, and as a type 5 used to navigating life by myself mostly). i hope to keep this for as long as i can until i move out again (if there’s a need to move out again) because having that ✨one safe haven✨ is an underrated privilege that not a lot of people have.

(i do wish that for those who don’t have a place in their house where they feel the safest, you’ll be able to look for a space that you can truly treasure and make a safe haven out of.)

Daily Gratitude

July 9, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Name something in your home that you truly treasure. Why?

i also have no idea what's going on there, but yes my top three genshin husbands.

it's also been a struggle overcoming my art block so drawing tiny doodles help me get back into making art gradually (•ؔʶ̷ ˡ̲̮ ؔʶ̷)✧

I've added other types of blind box to the shop!! And the new ones are on sale for this weekend!!! we're so close guys, just €2000 more to go 🩷 thank you for your help reblogging and donating 🩷

writing this under a cut because i might spoil it for those who haven’t finished the genshin summer event main story.

this whole limited story quest was a riot, and i find it so endearing (nerdy kind of endearing) that kaveh annotates when he reads even if it’s only for leisure (and i say i’m endeared because i do that sometimes, too, when something in the story or the page resonated with me greatly).

of course i like this quest a lot because once again, my best husband is the highlight of the story hihihi (ृ ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ृ )ु kaveh was my favourite in the quest, but my favourite scene in the entire side event is this:

i love chaotic tighnari a lot ¡¡¡( •̀ ᴗ •́ )و!!! just look at that smug smile.

today i found myself feeling unusually productive in carrying out my task avoidance list: i decided to update my CV, create a skeleton for a website where i’ll post my art (original and fan art), muse about my online accounts and presence, and so this main blog just went through a mini-overhaul. sana ganito rin ako sa work, but i’m not gonna talk about that atm. even my overthinking at work has reached burnout levels, i don’t know how to recover swiftly from it.

and because i’m working on a website for my works now, i’ve decided to use my main blog for more personal posts! mostly when i have no time and energy to get my journal and when typing feels more convenient than writing. this’ll be an archive of sorts.

anyway, i know i’m not really obliged to explain the reasons for my doing things, but i’m just wired to do so, i guess?

perhaps i’m really biased towards kaveh, but i want—demand—him to participate in a summer patch because i feel like it just suits his creative nature, and being someone who practices design and art, it only makes sense that he’d find the time (and budget, i guess) to travel around and enrich his knowledge and appreciation even more. yes, i’m probably just biased, which is why i toured most of the simulanka realm with kaveh.

(also, i could’ve cropped the genshin watermark on the photos, but i guess that’s just for another time. i do wish they can do something about that since hsr has an option to hide the game’s logo when taking photos. that said, i do think that between the three current popular hyv games, genshin’s camera option is the most optimal since it captures the scenery the way you last framed it, where as with hsr and zzz, i’d take a few minutes to set up the scene i want to capture just to get the desired composition.)

this summer patch isn’t really something that i was super excited about compared to the previous summer patches, but i really liked how the simulanka world was designed, especially with the origami characters of the forest of blessings! actually, it’s because of the realm itself that i kept on coming back every time i log in because i just like going around there and taking photos. in spite of feeling nonchalant about this, i do feel that sadness i always feel after summer patches because even in games, i am bad with goodbyes (T^T )

natlan patch is tomorrow, and i can already see how busy my week will be as a hyv games enthusiast (not sure if i should be proud of it because gacha is another form of gambling, and i play genshin, hsr, and zzz so what does that make me, right?).

preservation girlie era begins

i thought it was going to be a repeat of my argenti pulls where i reached hard pity and emptied the jades i accumulated in preparation for his banner when i saw the erudition logo on my screen, BUT aveturine immediately showed himself right after himeko showed up on my screen ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊ now, i only have to worry about getting his lightcone so i’ll just have to play religiously again for the jades. and for the new addition to my husband collection: aventurine (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧

i just want to remember that luck was on my side when i pulled for aventurine with jades enough for one 10 pull (ㅇㅅㅇ❀)

i haven’t been religiously keeping up with some of the usual shows i diligently kept up during the qorldwide quarantine, but with how efficient my new workplace is with time management for everyone in the faculty, i’ve been able to get back to keeping up with shows that i enjoy watching! here are just a few of them:

tiny house nation (netflix) - while i don’t think i’d be able to live in a tiny house because i love the space, it inspires me to rethink about my spending habits when it comes to clothes, accessories, and even what i would consider as essential that aren’t really essential to my lifestyle if i think hard about it. i can only imagine the dread of plowing through an obscene amount of stuff (which we have a lot now at home sadly) when it’s time to dispose of them. i guess i’m grateful that it helps curb my spending habits while tickling my design-loving brain. (ृ ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ृ )ु

barbecue showdown (netflix) - it’s that one series i like going back to because most of the contestants are likable and each batch of contenders get better every season, and because i like watching people prepae and cook food, which inspires me to try cooking when i have the time and resources. i like learning techniques and cooking terms whenever the hosts or even the contestants get technical. i’m grateful that in spite of it being a netflix series, the people and events are not sensationalized as most reality TV shows are directed. the people in the competition don’t feel like characters, but actual people, and i love barbecue showdown for that!

cara nicole’s youtube channel - it’s not really a tv show, but out of all the videos i watch regularly recently, hers is one of my favourites, and actually something that i enjoy and look forward to watching and listening to because of the concise but meaty video essays she uploads about mindful consumption and sustainability. i’m truly grateful that there’s someone like her who could make me understand topics that i’ve always found confusing even if it has been explained to me several times already.

Daily Gratitude

August 4, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): What recent movie/tv show are you grateful for?

i was hoping to save a lot for arlecchino’s banner knowing how botched my luck has been in genshin gacha since fontaine opened but my mind just couldn’t stop thinking about chiori and how much i really saved up for her (before knowing that arle will arrive at 4.5 okay!!) and how much i want to have her because of her dolls so i decided to check my limited banner history and pulled a 10-pull on a whim and oH MY GOD??!!!!?

BBG ACTUALLY CAME HOME WHEN I LEAST EXPECTED TO WIN MY 50/50 ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊

i didn’t expect i’ll actually have it that easy (?) since i got nahida from the last banner (nahida was guaranteed because i lost my 50/50 pulling for navia) BUT SHE’S FINALLY HOME!! ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊ the last time i was this lucky with my pulls was on ayato’s, yelan’s, cyno’s, and alhaitham’s first banners. after that everything just went downhill, i guess (except the guaranteed ones ofc).

her team animation is also so cool, too! (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧ so sleek!

now that i have chiori, my art department is complete (freminet is their youngest member). no elemental reactions, only art ¡¡¡( •̀ ᴗ •́ )و!!! i also realized that all of them are sword users (claymores are swords, after all?) so exploration-wise, this team’s also bad, but i can always work around that for the love of my weird team comps (4ggravate is probably the least weirdest of them all).

i’ve yet to level her up more and build her more because i need some fodder to feed the artifacts i have for her and more adventure books, too, as i’ve spent them a lot recently on nahida and layla (for my shatterbloom team, ofc. anything for kaveh, my love and my light) before i send her to battle, ofc. her split scaling still confuses me, but i’ll learn it well eventually, ofc. it’s too bad that the only weapon i have suitable for her because of it’s defense substat is the traveler’s handy sword. it’s also somehwat fashion impact (i credit jeikage for that one) on her, thankfully.

oh, and besides getting chiori in her banner, i also managed to pull my favourite husband in a single pull while trying to get her (TvT \)

my kaveh is now C1, and though it’s not impressive for all, it’s alright because all i want as a casual genshin enjoyer is to complete my favourite husbands’ constellations (for the four stars ofc, like kaveh and thoma) unless they’re five stars because that’s too pricey already (T^T \)

now i can proceed with the character story quests i’ve left since the highly emotional 4.2 archon quest! wuw.

so my life is once again in danger

I'm a venezuelan refugee in Spain since 2019. My focus was entirely on escaping and staying in a safe country. When I got here, I got the help of an accountant/manager to start working legally.

He committed fraud in my name without telling me and refused to take responsibility. I was penalized to pay €8600 for his mistake.

I'll add the whole explanation after the read more because you need context to understand what he did.

And now if I can't pay this thing, my residence will be taken away. I will be deported.

I've tried so hard to raise this money. More work, more marketing, preorders, asking for a loan, but nothing has worked.

I have until next month to pay it so I can renew my residence.

All I wanted was to do things right. I thought seeking a professional to handle the legal aspects of my business was the right thing to do. I thought I could finally breathe after being treated like a criminal for years in Venezuela, when all I want is to make my silly little figurines in peace.

I need to take care of my babies (cats) and my parents who are still stuck in Venezuela. I only make enough to live + take care of them, and it's become clear that I can't raise this money by work alone.

So please, any help is appreciated. Reblogs, orders, commissions. I'm so incredibly embarrassed to make this post, but I'm desperate. I don't want to be deported. I don't want to be an illegal alien. I don't want to live in constant fear again.

Here's my Ko-fi link, thank you for reading

https://ko-fi.com/marlikesunicorns/goal?g=0

and this is my shop

There's some context needed to understand what happened, so here it goes.

In Spain, you need to pay a monthly fee of €300 in order to run a business. This goes to the Social Security.

The fee is mandatory, but the government realized it was unfair to charge it from the beginning to a business that's only starting. So they established a reduction of €240 for new entrepreneurs, for 1 year. After that, they'd slowly raise it.

They also gave benefits to people living in certain areas, especially small towns. The fee reduction extended for 6 extra months with this, but only applied as long as you continued to live there for 4 years.

I lived in a small town for 1 year. Then I moved to the closest small city.

But this accountant guy asked for this 6 month extension in my name without my consent.

So then the government demanded I pay the whole €240 for each month ever since I started my business. I went through all the legal processes to ask them to review this thing but it was impossible. They ignored everything. It didn't matter that I only received the benefit for the 1 year that I would've been given anyway for being a new entrepreneur. It didn't matter that I would never be able to afford to pay this in the 15 days they gave me.

If that wasn't enough, I got sick with covid twice, and missed 4 months of work in total, months I got 0 income because they also won't ensure me until I pay the thing. So those fees were also added to the debt + late fees that continue to grow.

Summary: Basically he promised the government I'd live in a small town for 4 years, and when I moved before then (because I had no idea he had done this) they demanded I pay back ALL the benefits they had granted me in the past year.