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I'm Jake, and I'm an addict. I've spent over 40 years of my life using various mind altering substances. Everything from alcohol to crystal meth. I decided to make a change in my life about 6 months ago when I realized that all I was doing was running away from things in my life that I didn't want to deal with. Everything from anxiety to physical pain. By the time I was 15 years old I had tried ever drug available on the street at least once. At one point I began selling drugs to support my own habits, and this led to my first time in an institutional setting. I spent 6 months of my life in juvenile prison. I came out of said institution and avoided everything except alcohol for 7 years. At the end of that 7 year period, I found myself still not wanting to use, but in a position that I felt like I had no choice. I was on the tour bus with one of my favorite musicians, and he was offering to smoke a joint with me. It was like hitting the lottery in my mind. Especially since I am a huge music nerd. I gave up my 7 years without drugs at that point. I now understand that alcohol is also a drug, but at that time alcohol was the only thing I was doing. I grew up in a family of alcoholics only I didn't accept it at the time. It led me to be an alcoholic as well. Since I have become involved in 12 step programs, my views have changed. I was substituting other things for the drugs I had given up. I was having sex with anyone that gave me the opportunity. I was eating things when I wasn't even hungry. I spent way too much time playing video games. Over the years I would only use drugs if I was around a band that was using since I was involved in music. I finally got tired of who I am when I'm using and have given it all up. For the first time in my life I'm happy and drug free by choice. I may not have any money, but I have my sanity and my own mind back. If anyone has an addiction they need to talk about, I'm always willing to listen and try to help.

I have made it to 8 months of sobriety. I have a sponsor and I attend meetings every day that I'm not working.

I have made it to 7 months of sobriety. I never thought I would make it this long, but working and going to meetings has kept me clean. I also have met a young lady at work who is also in recovery that I find myself attracted to. We are taking it slow, but we are both interested in each other. I don't normally date blondes, but she is one of the few exceptions. I also don't normally date white women anymore, but she is white as well. She and I just get along too well for me to not give her a chance. She is a fellow meth addict in the same program that I'm in. We have only been messing around for about a week, but I'm not going to jeopardize what could be a great relationship. We have both had issues in the past, and we find it hard to trust, so I'm trying to prove to her that not all men are liars or cheaters.

I'm starting to feel like daddy needs a new plaything. I just need to find the right one for me. Any volunteers?

Hello

Good afternoon

Can you please kindly chat me up

I have nothing else going on at the moment

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I graduated from IOP today. I have almost 9 months clean and sober as well.

It seems like I will be working weekends and 1 day during the week for awhile.