large textbooks filled with extra papers which hold the answers to the problems you thought were too brilliant to be thrown away, or the simple short summary of a part you were struggling to understand before
having your textbook absolutely ruined by highlighters and sticky notes all over it, those little tips and ideas you picked up from the lesson. anyone who opens that book immediately knows that you’ve studied the crap out of it and know the concept by heart. “this is the most annotated book i’ve ever seen” is literally the highest form of compliment for me.
solving math or chemistry problems to a soundtrack album or ambient sounds, extra points if it’s in afternoon lol
when you’re so focused and keen on getting to the final answer that your hand physically can’t keep up with your eagerness so you end up with the most incoherent solution. but you’ve finally got the answer right!
being self-taught in a subject or a few chapters of the textbook, and still smashing the quizzes and the exams
coming up with a new solution to the problem, or seeing the problem from a new perspective, and finally being able to solve it because of just that.
confidently walking out of the exam room. 0 doubt in your mind that you crushed it!
actually feeling how you’ve grown academically, and how much more knowledgeable you are compared to the beginning of the semester
casually and confidently having conversations with a professor about your studies, exchanging ideas and discussing the existing theories, methods, on-going research and all
all of this is everything i want in life- god
Math hates everyone.
i be like *doesn’t understand brand new, advanced topic instantly* and my brain be like *you are a failure and a terrible student. why do you even do this class oh my god you’re so bad at it and everybody is better than you. time to give up* and that’s on imposter syndrome !
15-01-20
making some physics notes on onenote:) however i am becoming increasingly aware of and annoyed by the fact that our entire physics course is about men, there is not a single woman mentioned in the entire thing.
21/07/20
definitely the first time i went on a holiday to a warm country, to menorca in 2017 with my family.
today was spent colouring in a gbbo colouring book, watching arrested development, and coding! i’m learning python2 using codecademy and i’m trying some of the python challenges. (i completed level 1 today and was SO excited by it.)
21.05.20
maths is even more enjoyable when you do it outside in the sun 🌺🌤 (flowers kept falling from the rhododendron beside me, it felt very picturesque)
[3/50 days of productivity]
this morning was spent doing some biology revision of the heart, and then some musical periods revision as i’m doing my grade 6 violin exam at the end of may and needed a refresher on the key elements of each era🎻
🎶- requiem: dear evan hansen
wakes up on time, showers, gets dressed, eats breakfast, and drinks coffee, then calmly lays back down in bed and goes back to sleep
despite what capitalist society tells us, success is so much more than financial & academic. success is helping people. success is making people happy. success is going to bed with a smile on your face. success is love. success is the bonds we form with other people. there is so much more succeeding than money and academia. you’re not a failure just because you don’t make six figures or have a degree from harvard or oxford. there is so much more to life than what we are told.
monday 23rd sept
started back at orchestra today, i missed it so much 🥳 love love love paperchase’s planning pads atm, so useful and i got them in a 3 for 2 sale, so it’s a win win.