I feel so bad for not writing anything. It's not like I have writers block - there are a surplus of ideas in my head. I just can't put them to paper. My depression has just made it so it's hard for me to start writing, and once I do, I don't have any energy left over to actually write. And then I see posts saying, "If you want more fan-fiction, make it yourself". Like, I'M TRYING. I just can't right now. Or maybe even ever. Who knows? I sure as hell don't.
My depression isn't everywhere, all at once. It isn't always on my mind. It's more like a well. Yeah, it's there, but I don't really acknowledge it sometimes. But other times, usually late at night, the well is highlighted. It's the only thing I can think of, the desire to die lapping against the sides below. Occasionally, it comes up in a bucket and I can't think. Those are the times when I cut, starve, burn, or otherwise hurt myself. Right now, the water is rising and the well is getting larger. It's bigger than it ever has been before, and the skies are looking dark. I just hope that there isn't a flood soon.
In comparison to Denmark, Switzerland just seems better to me. It’s more mountainous, and has a climate closer to the place where I lived in as a kid. I’ve also heard from trusted sources that Switzerland does have a higher cost of living, but the pay is higher and the taxes are lower. I also heard that it has better animal rights. Switzerland typically has better weather, and the civilians are much more polite and formal than ones in Denmark. During time of war, Switzerland (almost) always chooses to remain neutral, which is a better plan than to pick a side.
Plus, they sell the most chocolate in Switzerland.
Me: I’m not like most aces
Date: *horny and expecting something dirty* Oh, yeah?
Me: *fully knowing what they’re thinking* Yeah. I think we should invade Switzerland. Not Denmark.
I'm trying to prove something.
My parents say they're supportive of me and the queer community, but they seem against it at every turn. They hate on people who support queer folk-call them faggots, weirdos, unnatural, violent, etc. If any media shows representation of a queer person, it's called "pushing" and "unnatural" and "why can't they just show something normal that people actually WANT to see". If my cousin who's a toddler is dressed up in some sparkly clothes and with his hair done up, he's called a "fucking faggot" and immediately told to change unless he wanted to get slapped. I can't even put my hair up in a way that looks too boy-ish because then I'd be "asking for it". Asking for WHAT?! For the right to live life the way I want to and be comfortable with it because people aren't trying to push me down? Cause that's exactly what I'm asking for. I just want to live - what's so wrong with that?
I’m sorry, but Blitz being super (and childishly) happy about finding a coin on the ground and then immediately insulting somebody else is just the most Blitz thing to ever exist.
I’m just about to come out to my parents. I said (posted) earlier that I already told them I was Ace, but I feel like they kinda forgot about it. Plus, this time, I’m going to come out as AroAce and genderfluid. (I know I said I was demifluid, but I realizes otherwise.) Hope and pray for me. I’m pretty sure they’ll accept me (at least the AroAce part), but I don’t know about the Gender-fluid part. They’ve made some transphobic remarks before, so I’m super effin’ nervous. I’ll update later on, after I come out.
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!
To all the lesbians, gays, trans, bi’s, the aros, the aces, and to all those who are still figuring it out, (and anything I didn’t include) I hope that you take advantage of this month where we grow 90% stronger (99% if with other members or allies) and live your best pride life and reject the homophobes. Remember that if you think no one else loves you, that I do (platonically) and I’m sure that there are many other individuals who do.
Be safe and remember that no one can tell you who you are and what you like. Now go on and live your best Pride Life!
Update: So I told them, and here’s how it went:
My stepmom looked a bit confused but she said, “Okay”, and that was the end of that.
My dad, however…well, he started yelling, saying the typical things. “What does that even mean?”, “You’re confused”, “That’s impossible” and things like that. And I don’t know what happened, but I just blew. I started yelling, too, which surprised the both of them because I’m usually quiet. I started talking about how the both of them needed to start taking my feelings into account before they talk and act. They couldn’t just say something hurtful and ply it off as a joke every single time. Although I didn’t express it, I had feelings too, and hearing them say things hurtful about me or the LGBTQIA+ Community hurt those feelings. That shut my dad up really quickly. We had a long talk about communicating and how we would work through this.
So, all in all, I’d say it was pretty successful. In the end, I got accepted and had a meaningful talk with my parents that will hopefully make my life a little better.
I’m just about to come out to my parents. I said (posted) earlier that I already told them I was Ace, but I feel like they kinda forgot about it. Plus, this time, I’m going to come out as AroAce and genderfluid. (I know I said I was demifluid, but I realizes otherwise.) Hope and pray for me. I’m pretty sure they’ll accept me (at least the AroAce part), but I don’t know about the Gender-fluid part. They’ve made some transphobic remarks before, so I’m super effin’ nervous. I’ll update later on, after I come out.
I saw this picture the other day. I’m not sure where it came from, but it’s pretty funny.
Just imagine the print on an apron.
Adam is just your average suburban dad, except in hell. He wears white new balances and grills on a charcoal grill while wearing an apron that says something stupid on it
Let's make a contest. Leave in the replies what Adam's apron would say. Funniest answer gets uuhhhhh, their apron drawn LMAO