I Have Wrote Almost A Thousand Words In Less Than An Hour. I Think Something Is Wrong With Me

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3 months ago
Jarvis Might Be Having A Bit Of A Rough Night ...

jarvis might be having a bit of a rough night ...

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Jarvis Might Be Having A Bit Of A Rough Night ...

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8 months ago
text reading: 
Late Night At The Corner Shop

Bottles cluttering the counter
at the corner shop
This morning I cut my hair short
and it felt like cutting the
legs off of a lamb
I stand trembling before the woman
scanning my items and
Fumbling and shaking I press
the change into her hands and
"Are you okay, sir?" and then
I feel the blood spilling
onto my hands again and
is this what care feels like?
That night I felt like both the
lamb and the blade and I will 
carve my mind into flesh

My Lord, I fear that I have
killed someone tonight.

late night at the corner shop [18.01.2024]


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10 months ago
Finally Got A Tom Waits Record
Finally Got A Tom Waits Record

finally got a tom waits record


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1 month ago
Some More Old Art I Found Going Through My Sketchbooks

some more old art i found going through my sketchbooks


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4 months ago
People don't understand what I mean when I say that I've died a million times. I'm in a train and in each carriage is a dead child. They are dragged off the train, one by one, and I can do nothing but watch. It's hard to tell a dead child from a living one sometimes. I get off at Camden and think about what casket they'll sleep in tonight. 

When I get out of the train station, my mind is full of nothing but the dead. I think about the suicide pacts I made with my ex. I call her on the phone, say it's been a year since I last touched a blade. I spend the next morning prying the blood out of my fingernails. I revise the ways I'll die over and over. Three bullets in my throat, one for each child I missed. I light another cigarette. 

I stumble through the market like I can't see two steps in front of me - in many ways, I can't. I spend too long looking at the wrong things, trailing my hands across the painting of Bowie, buying orange juice instead of the record I want, walking across the rainbow crossings over and over; there is a dead child in me and London makes him sick. His body hangs limp in every window I pass; you learn to deal with it, eventually.
Every twelve steps you take are someone's last. I stay at the Lockside until I'm gagging on my words and I can't feel the rain on my back. I taste it on every breath; I am dead in ways people don't understand and I will die in ways they wish they couldn't. Outside there are bodies floating in the river and only the ones already standing with one leg over see them. I stay inside for another hour or two.   

On the way home, all I can hear is screaming. I've always hated the underground. The screeching dies before it can reach me and all that hits me is the sobbing behind it. The underground is a burial the same way the road is a cemetery. There is nothing in the windows but my reflection slumped and rotting in the seats across from me. I wish I could find it in myself to mourn but you can only die so many times and still feel something towards it.

camden market '07 [13.01.2025]

(first piece of writing of the year !)


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rumograph - is rumo real ?
is rumo real ?

the underground is a burial the same way the road is a cemetery

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