Absolutely Crazy Work For Dutch To Kill Himself So John Both Doesn’t Get To And Doesn’t Have To Kill

i need to kiss whoever decided to give RDR2 epilogue john marston a goddamn red choker. and whoever made him bark like a dog BOTH when drunk and sober.

deep incredible dreadful anguished johnigail thoughts every single goddamn time i listen to townes

The giant of Illinois

Is that this Red Dead Redemption everybody s raving about?

I was so scared chapter five begun that I decided to replay rdr1

reblog with a spoiler for your wip with zero context. no context allowed.

preparing for my first market ever, drawin merch

he is trying his best to be good he is trying his best to be clean but his hair never stops growin’ and the blood never stops flowin’🩸🕊️❤️‍🩹

i love epilogue john with short hair oouuuuhooo i love him there is just something about it auuhhhhh something something trauma and recovery and intense desire to rid himself of this brutal past that haunts him so deeply but he never can and never will and it will never be enough, he will hide his face and introduce himself as an imposter until his real name sounds like a vulgar obscenity on his tongue, he will bite his tongue and bury his nature and keep his revolver holstered until his hands twitch with excitement and he tastes iron and feels at home, he will scrub his skin raw trying to erase phantom hands and he will cut his hair with a dull knife until his head is bleeding his knuckles ache and his back itches and the river will carry the hair, the blood, the grime and shame and longing scrubbed from the tender skin between his legs downstream and he will imagine that he is clean, he will imagine that he has cut the last bit of them out of his life for good, he will imagine a life of peace and forgiveness and acceptance until he feels a cold breeze on his bare neck and a sickening warmth in his gut and a heavy gnawing pain in his chest and he hears those terrible, awful, heartbreaking whispers of “son” and “brother” on the wind and he isn’t crying, he isn’t crying, he isn’t crying

Scrapped the other design-

attack dogs shouldn't bite the hands that feed them