I Think We Need To Talk About John’s Dead Daughter More Can We Do That Is It Okay If We Do That Who

i love epilogue john with short hair oouuuuhooo i love him there is just something about it auuhhhhh something something trauma and recovery and intense desire to rid himself of this brutal past that haunts him so deeply but he never can and never will and it will never be enough, he will hide his face and introduce himself as an imposter until his real name sounds like a vulgar obscenity on his tongue, he will bite his tongue and bury his nature and keep his revolver holstered until his hands twitch with excitement and he tastes iron and feels at home, he will scrub his skin raw trying to erase phantom hands and he will cut his hair with a dull knife until his head is bleeding his knuckles ache and his back itches and the river will carry the hair, the blood, the grime and shame and longing scrubbed from the tender skin between his legs downstream and he will imagine that he is clean, he will imagine that he has cut the last bit of them out of his life for good, he will imagine a life of peace and forgiveness and acceptance until he feels a cold breeze on his bare neck and a sickening warmth in his gut and a heavy gnawing pain in his chest and he hears those terrible, awful, heartbreaking whispers of “son” and “brother” on the wind and he isn’t crying, he isn’t crying, he isn’t crying

charles/john but they’re both imagining that the other is arthur……………. is there anyone else on the planet earth who understands me……………

Brothers fate,

you found god in them dirt roads yet?

john + dutch + snow = the holy trinity

it’s never coming back

the dutch -> john -> jack violence pipeline drives me insane. admire me, admire my home!! admire my son, he's my clone!!

Psalm 58:6