25.03.2025 (tue)

09.03.2025

Last week was a mess, but it’s cool cuz no way I’m repeating that. We’re back on track (hopefully).

To do list:

Math - read the text

Physics - reader + rev notes + hw

Eng - hw

Chem - read the reader + rev notes

Bio - reader + notes

Chem - lec 1 of solutions

Bio - review lec 1,2,& 3

It’s raining here, and i love the weather. My bed looks insanely cozy, but nope- no naps today :')

Also, in school, I kept thinking of food lol idk whyy probably bc my friends were eating in front my face 🥲. Anyways, hope y'all have a good one !

Toodles ~~

No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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"What if you mess up? What if you realize you’ve already forgotten the materials you start studying?What if you initially focus but feel like a sedated zombie after a while?"

Can't you change these questions in your mind to - What if you can actually focus well for a long time? What if you do good enough to at least feel relieved? What if you can feel some sense of control over your life? What if you didn’t forget as much as you thought? What if you're way more competent than you thought? What if consistent hard work actually brings what your childhood self had desired instead of disappointments and exhaustion? What if it solves your lack of appetite and anxiety and thought spirals?

What if you asked the second set of questions more often? You already subconsciously know it would've lessened your stress a lot. Can you please stop thinking of self-hatred and pessimism as inseparable parts of your identity?

You're throwing yourself on the verge of extreme uncertainties. Do you deserve this much indifference? Ik you're afraid. But there isn’t any way to eliminate the fears without working on things while being afraid at first.

And even if you're lagging way too behind, you can manage to improve better than you're expecting at present. Trust this for at least a little time and trust everyone who trusted you.

Finished notes. Will do the studying tmrw cuz sleep deprivation be catching up 😵 (I’m just hella sleepy 😭)

Gnnnnnnn

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25.03.2025 (tue)

HIIIIIIIIII <33

Plans for the day:

Complete notes of lec 3 of srifp + study

Live lec (we'll finish the chapter off today)

Live lec - notes + study

Finish off srifp 😭 + maybe questions ?

Study lec 5 of solutions

That's ittt ! See ya later ;P

good to see that ur doing well with the productivity challenge :) kind of a bummer that plans with ur family meant u couldn't revise, but I hope u enjoyed them atleast 🫶🫶

I’m honestly past being used to this by now, but yeah, it’s still pretty annoying lol.

That being said, I did have an amazing time!! Took loads of pics and actually wasn’t cooped up and rotting in my room for once =D

Also, your blog >>>> (AHHH)

Hope you and your family are happy and healthyyy <33 (why am i literally quoting olivia rodrigo without meaning to— help me)

Back from the iftar party and it's 12 already ! It was so fun and there were SOO many people. Tho it was quite overwhelming at first, I had such an amazing time. Heading straight to bed cuz ur girlie got a BUSY day tmrw 😭

07.03.2025

Didn’t post yesterday because I literally did nothing. Skipped school, joined the live class 15 minutes late because I randomly decided to shower last minute (and ofc, I don’t shower fast—especially when it's hair wash day !!!). Spent the entire class daydreaming instead of actually functioning, and now my to do list is staring at me like a disappointed parent. Ugh.

Anyways, shit happens. But also, I am so stressed about my backlogs. I feel like I’m drowning in stuff I have to do, I'm doing and will have to do— I have no idea how I’m supposed to do all this. Like, where is the pause button?? Also, I joined a Ramadan challenge group and haven’t updated in days—it’s barely been a week and I’m already flopping. I hate myself for it.

Weekend to do list:

• Complete Saturday’s notes + HW before they consume me

• Study for the bio test on Sunday (our teacher tests us on stuff we learned the previous week—I love her, but also, why)

• Rewatch yesterday’s lecture and actually process it this time

• Study all three bio lectures because apparently, I enjoy suffering (I did this to myself really)

• Iftar party later today, which means I’ll definitely miss live lectures and will have to listen to them tomorrow (future me is already panicking)

• Try to actually update in the Ramadan challenge group before I disappear completely

I am so behind, and I have no idea how I’m going to survive this, but we move.

22.04.2025

No studying today :(

Napped till 7pm after school cuz I had pretty bad back pain n cramps. Then did smn for an hour or 2 b4 I had to go pick up ma czn at the airport :P

10.05.2025

Day (30/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Bio record

Eng notes (it was 6 pages long of qna ugh)

Math hw

My hands are frkn DED I tell you. I can't write no more—

Omg we are done with the 30 DOP challenge with @moonlight-n-moondust @mistrisen @pxasee @kookiepixel @astra-wberry (I'm sorry if I left anyone out !)

I haven't been as consistent as I'd like to but I had a nice time :) tysm everyone !! Nice work <33

Hwaiting ✊🏻 ✊🏻

03.03.2025

Guess who recovered just to get hit with a deluxe, extra-crispy version of the same illness? Yep, ME.

Thought about just accepting my fate and rotting in bed, but then I remembered that MAMA DIDN'T RAISE NO QUITTER (…Twitter… I’m sorry, I physically had to....it RHYMES).

Despite feeling like I got run over twice, I still managed to study before school like- who even am I? Manifesting that I keep this streak going. Did a lecture on organic nomenclature before school, another after, and went over Lecture 1 from the morning before a live class. Technically understood things from the live lecture, but let’s be real—I need to actually sit my ass down and study it before it evaporates from my brain. This whole “two 11th-grade lectures a day while balancing 12th-grade coaching and school” thing? Yeah, that’s a recipe for my brain to just ✨exit the chat✨. And as much as I planned to prioritize coaching, my school teachers are lowkey terrifying, and I refuse to be that person who just sits there staring blankly when asked a question.

Also, why am I suddenly so productive while being sick?? This is not on brand for me. Normally, the second I get a fever, I’m KO. But today? Laundry? Notes? Started them, then realized I desperately needed sleep. I still have notes to review, which I usually cram on the bus ride to school (because morning sleep? Never heard of her). Napped on the way back (but not at home so slayyy ~~ 😌). Planned to finish my notes, but decided to let my future self suffer through that mess in the morning, along with some physics and math reading that I have left.

Will I keep up this academic weapon arc or crumble under the weight of my own choices? Stay tuned for the inevitable breakdown.

xoxo, ur favorite hooman <33

30.04.2025 (wed)

Day (21/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

ypt hrs ≈ 1:35 hrs

💤 4:30 + 20 min power nap 💤

• Watched my live lec on organisms and ppn and did some hw. Nothin else hehe ^^