“The Roman Genius, And Perhaps The Roman Flaw, Was An Obsession With Order. One Sees It In Their Architecture,

“The Roman genius, and perhaps the Roman flaw, was an obsession with order. One sees it in their architecture, their literature, their laws — this fierce denial of darkness, unreason, and chaos...” — Tartt, The Secret History

01.01.2021 | 2020 has been difficult, for sure. I worked as an Operating Room nurse for a few months before med school started. it was full of personal wins, but also loses. I got accepted in my dream hospital right after passing the board exam, worked my dream job, accepted in med school, but I’ve also lost patients more than I can count, heard cries over unimaginable hospital bills, and encountered grief and challenges more than I was prepared for because of the government’s incompetence.

so I tried my best to sort out my life— scrub in surgeries while going to med school interviews, advance study for the incoming sem, stick to my routine and schedule, et al, to feel in control of the things that are in my hands. Perhaps I’m no different than the Romans— in my fierce determination to deny darkness, unreason, and chaos. to provide some sort of structure in the midst of uncertainty.

2020 has been difficult, for sure. but 2021 will—should be different. 2021 will be prosperous, full of hope, and better things. there may be loses too, but I’m rooting for more good things than the bad.

you did good this 2020, and you will do better in 2021. we all will. happy new year, everyone. :-)

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