i got a late night quesadilla, and i have 0 regrets. now i am re-energized and vibing. gonna get back to writing. feel free to hmu. <3 ur girl has a bazillion ideas.
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βΒ this is not for you.Β β βΒ i still get nightmares.Β β βΒ sleepβs been stalking me for as long as i can remember.Β β βΒ i donβt want to end up like that.Β β βΒ i should have known something was up.Β β βΒ mostly though, they just vanished.Β β βΒ what did i know then ?Β what do i know now ?Β β βΒ i have never read for more than an hour.Β β βΒ i havenβt even washed the blood off yet.Β β βΒ thereβs no doubt i am responsible for plenty.Β β βΒ youβll suddenly realize things are not how you perceived them to be at all.Β β βΒ and then the nightmares will begin.Β β βΒ iβm just trying to help you out here.Β β βΒ i had to think fast.Β β βΒ i didnβt mean to wander into all of this.Β β βΒ now thereβs an admission, eh ?Β β βΒ last night i wasnβt sleeping very well.Β β βΒ we all create stories to protect ourselves.Β β βΒ what can i say ?Β Β iβm a sucker for abandoned stuff.Β β βΒ i guess the complicated one i donβt feel like getting into.Β β βΒ i didnβt feel at all myself.Β β βΒ i canβt do a fucking thing.Β β βΒ but iβm still having problems breathing.Β β βΒ i should have stayed near people.Β β βΒ you wonβt have time to even scream.Β β βΒ i actually thought i was going to fall.Β β βΒ it made me real uneasy, like i was surrounded by ghosts.Β β βΒ do you believe in ghosts ?Β β βΒ i think i still feel guilty.Β β βΒ but who am i kidding ?Β β βΒ i am alone in hostile territories and have no idea how they are hostile.Β β βΒ right now going to hell seems like a pretty sound bet.Β β βΒ i knew iβd failed.Β β βΒ iβve been waiting for this chance for a while.Β β βΒ like i already said, drives me nuts.Β β βΒ hey asshole.Β β βΒ this shitβs getting ridiculous.Β β βΒ iβll remember what iβd hoped to say in the first place.Β β βΒ i have no way of knowing that for certain.Β β βΒ i donβt have long.Β β
ΰ¨ΰ§βΌ starter call. who wants a starter when i get back. may message to plot something out since it will most likely be an au. <3
βMy strength is not in steel and fire, but in my intellect and will.β
β Bioshock
today i am a bit sad. i am going to be alone tonight in the house - because for some reason zac is working friday night. i am like a bunny, i don't do well by myself.
but i am going to try to keep my head up. gonna eat some food and be on. feel free to bother me as i would love the company.
i hope your day is amazing and filled with joy. because that is what you deserve. because you are phenomenal and make the world a better place by just existing.