Retro-vagabond - Latest Fixation

another one

I’m still idk? Thinking about Steve having hearing loss. It fucking destroyed me okay like. It’s so bittersweet I’m so emotional and depressed about it because I relate to it so much but I’m also in love with it ugh.

What if Eddie learns sign language, for Steve? He learned Master of Puppets in under three weeks. He catches on quick.

He’s been practicing, on his own. Maybe a little with Steve- mostly asking “what’s the sign for this?” if they stumble into something he hasn’t learned yet. But like. What if it’s how Eddie confesses his love for the first time?

What if, one night, they’re sitting face-to-face, going back and forth. Talking, silently. Signing. Eddie signs I have a question. Steve stops, lower his hands to his lap, tilts his head. Eddie continues, What would you do if I said I love you? - using the romantic sign for it. Steve kind of… freezes for a moment. But replies I’d… say it back.

So Eddie signs, I love you, Steve.

Steve replies, I love you too, Eds.

Also, I’m not sure if you guys know this but in sign language a lot of people will pick or be assigned a sign, usually another noun, for their name. So they don’t have to spell their entire name out letter by letter every single time someone addresses them or they address themselves. I think Steve should be Bat. Eddie, though… I think… I think Steve would name him Song. Music.

Not just because of what happened in the upside down, but because Eddie…plays for him, in ways Steve can hear it. Eddie gives Steve the gift of music, all the time. Playing for him privately, buying him headphones, signing the lyrics to songs Steve can’t quite make out. For the first time Steve can really, truly enjoy music. Eddie becomes his heartsong.

It's weird, Eddie thinks. When Eddie and Steve holds hands, they intertwine it together. However, almost always, Steve ends up untangling it, his hand creeping up and holding him on his wrist instead. It makes Eddie feel like a child, with a mother holding on to him.

He thinks it might be his rings, thinks it might be annoying Steve. But then, he remembers Steve telling him how much he loves them.

He thinks it might be because he sweats when they hold hands for too long. But then, he remembers Steve trying to hug him after work and telling him he couldn't care less if Eddie's sweating or smells like oil.

He thinks it might be— no. He doesn't— Steve might be ashamed of him? And doesn't want to be seen with him, their hands slot together so perfectly the whole world may crumble? No. That's definitely not right. Steve is open to the people who matter, tells Dustin of their last endeavor, tells Robin about how good Eddie is to him, tells Hop that Eddie is good and kind and everything to him. He kisses him in the Wheeler basement, slots his head on his shoulders in between the empty aisles of Family Video, takes Eddie in his arms in the trailer in front of Wayne. That can't be it.

Eddie finds out in the middle of a campaign. Steve, Robin, Max and El hanging out on the sides while the boys busy themselves with defense and strategy. He didn't mean to look Steve’s way, but like a boat, his eyes will always find his lighthouse, bright and guiding in the dark.

Steve is holding Max's wrist, just like he always does with him. At first, it's weird because Max doesn't really like prolonged physical touch. They stay like that for half of the game, whenever Eddie looks back, Steve's hand is still wrapped around Max's wrist.

When Eddie calls for a break, and Steve rushes upstairs to help the boys get a snack, Eddie sits beside Max.

"Hey, Red." Max gives him a nod of acknowledgment as she reads the latest comics.

"Can I ask you a question?" Max hums in agreement, eyes still glued on the page.

"Why was Steve holding your wrist like that?" Max freezes, eyes looking up to meet Eddie's. Eddie is aware of how it sounds like, so he word vomits, "I— I am just curious. He does the same for me and I've never understood why."

Max squints at him behind her thick glasses, "It helps him calm."

Eddie tilts his head in confusion, "Calm?"

Max takes his hands, wrapping a hand around his wrist, just directly above where his pulse is, "When he found us after the Upside Down, we were barely alive. Now, he feels our pulse and it's a reminder that we're alive, we're okay. It calms him down, helps him stay in the moment."

It hits him like a bucket of cold water. How Steve makes it his mission to burrow his head on Eddie's chest, directly above his beating heart, his hand always wrapped just above his pulse, Steve staring at his eyes first thing in the morning like he's looking for something in it.

It's a reminder that Eddie's alive, that Max's alive, that they're all alive and that they get to live and breathe in peace without the impending doom looming over the edge.

Eddie never brings it up. He lets Steve hold his pulse, splay a hand on his chest to feel his heart, lets Steve fall asleep to the sound of Eddie breathing.

Eddie's never gonna bring it up. Steve can do it for the rest of their life for all he cares.

It's the least he can do.

I miss them so much

"The Waltz Part 1" ft. Lethica, Jericho, Briggsy, and Marius from Edge of Midnight Ep. 27.

Anime 80′s technology

"I'm Ol' Jericho Sticks, b-but you can call me Jericho, most folk do." - Jericho and Virgil from Edge of Midnight and The Crooked Moon.

Bros got a soft spot for cute warlocks I guess

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