Ep 4 Vs Ep 5

Bright with Ame

I’m not allowed to take my eyes off you. Even when I want to close my eyes, because of that I can’t. I want to run away.

THE MEANING OF LIFE AND LONGING FOR WHOLENESS

Nicolae Tanase: Jim, what is the meaning of life?

Jim Newman: There is no meaning and no need for a meaning of life. Everything is already what it is, which is already needlessly, free and fulfilled.

“Life” is not separate from what is. Without separation, there is no space or distance in which the need for a meaning of life could arise.

There is only what is. “What is” is not objective or subjective, it is not conceptual, knowable or understandable. “What is” is indivisible, all encompassing, everything without position or perspective, no inside, no outside, not two, not separate, non dual.

What is – undifferentiated everything – can appear as something, a perspective, an apparent position. A position can be experienced, making the appearance seem personal. As a personal experience, life appears to be an object or “a something” requiring meaning. However, the person is illusory and has no reality outside of its experience of itself. The search for meaning is a need that arises out of that experience, which is the experience of separation, the experience that “what is” is real and personal.

The question or search for a meaning of life comes from the longing for wholeness, absolute freedom, which is unknowingly a longing for dissolution, an end to the person. The personal experience inevitably seeks for an answer to the question of “what is my life  about?”. For the person there is no answer because this, what is, is not about anything. And it does not need to be about anything. The only solution for the person is the end of the person. 

The person cannot go beyond the illusory nature of itself and cannot help being an effect of itself: a seeker. Its search is for love, for more or better experiences. It experiences itself on a path to find what it hopes will resolve its diss-ease of need. The path is seeking. Seeking can be the search for money, power, more… Because the search does not and can not address the cause of need, it can only lead to more seeking. The premise for seeking – that something intrinsically is wrong or missing – is illusory. Consequentially all of its efforts are hopelessly limited to that false premise. 

The person is trying to overcome this diss-ease of the need for experience through more experience.

The effort exerted by the person can never lead to the fulfillment it seeks, the unlimited all inclusiveness of the unknowable “what is”. What is longed for is beyond personal seeking, by being “what is” already. “What is” is not an objective reality, is not knowable. “What is” is emptiness being everything as it is. Everything being what it is, is already complete, already absolutely free, without any need of meaning.

from: https://www.simply-this.com/essays

supermodel affirmations

I am a phenomenal professional supermodel.

Regardless of Everything, I am a talented fierce supermodel.

Who am I? Well I am a talented, top priority, gifted supermodel.

I am glorious supermodel consistently making history.

I am signed to the most well-known and respected modeling agency.

I am consistently scouted by the top respected and well-known modeling agencies.

I am always scouted by well-known and highly respected modeling agencies.

Why Am I always scouted by [your desired modeling agency ex. IMG, Elite, Ford, etc]?

Me? How did I sign to [desired modeling agency]? I was simply scouted and begged to join their agencies.

Why do top modeling agencies always want me to sign with them?

High fashion brands can’t stop offering me a model contract.

All top luxury brands are begging to work with me.

I am the face for Chanel, Dior, Mugler, and many more high brands.

I am [your desired brand/fashion designers] muse.

High fashion brands offer me to be their supermodel.

A face & body like mine was specially made for modeling .

My face & body is supermodel worthy.

My runway walk is always perfect and fierce.

My movements are alluring, my walk is graceful yet seductive.

Why am I so fierce and confident on the runway?

Why am I always on Vogue?

Why am I a fashion queen?

Extras

I am always excited and confident to do what I love.

I look pretty doing literally anything.

Why is my life drastically improving so fast?

Why is my life so amazingly perfect?

I love my life, I love my friends.

I am happy to do what I love while living in [desired place].

I am so proud of myself.

I know who I am and I am proud of all I have accomplished.

Why do I always get what I want?

I am always receiving the best compliments everywhere I go.

Why are A-List celebrities blowing up my phone?

What makes me supernaturally talented?

I succeed in everything I do.

don’t ever take it off again.

난 여전히 같은 맘일 테니까 (try again by jaehyun)

only jaehyun is allowed to speak today!!! ✋

ㅤㅤえりデ — S𝗜𝗠𝗕♥︎𝗟𝗢𝗦 ⋆ ࣪٠

★𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗒 𝗌𝗈𝖿𝗍 𝗌𝗒𝗆𝖻𝗈𝗅𝗌 !? 

❥︎ !! 🍄 𝗚!𝗥𝗟𝗦 𓂅 𑁥 ੭ 𑊑 𑊁 ረ ૮ ᭡ ᘓ ១ 𑫈 ꝿ ౿ ꪆ 𑁯 𑊁 𑊡 𑫏 𑜷 Թ Ծ ౿ 𑁯 𑁭 𑁥 ੭ ꪆ ᥫ ᘏ Ꮼ ᘓ ୬ ෧ ᘡ ୪ ১ 𖥨Ꮼ ꮱ ᰢ ꮺ 𐑙 ꫤ﹅﹆ Ꮺ ᰝ ჲ ᴥ 𖦆 𓍲 𓍱 Ꮘ ફ ળ ਨ ৬ ৫ ২ ণ 𖡋 ଽ꒰ ꒱ ꒲ 𖢆 ꯊ ꒷ ꒥ ꒦ ⏝ ︶ ᝰ 𖬺ꔚ ꔛ ꕁ ꕀ ꒳ ꒴ 𖢺 ଓ ଲ ପ ମ ଘ ᳂ 🝎 𓐍 𐐫 𐐃 ◍ ⱺ ◔ ◷ 𔓏 • 〄⌾  𖣠 𖦹 ꩜ 🝎 ๑​ ꮻ ☹︎ 𓇸 𖦸 𔓶𒀭 𔓘 𑁍 𖡎 ֍ 🜰 ᦅ⟲⟳❁ ᜊ ♡   ❥ ᯽ ꕤ  🝮 ♥︎ 𑃢 𐀶 ꒧ ꇊ⎙ ⏚ 〧 ▌ ▬ ▭ ꉙ ꗃ ౾ ౽ 𐰢 ⏧𓄹 𓄼 𔓕 𔐬 𔘏 𓏲 𓍢 𓍯 𓂅 𓂃 𓁹 𐇻  ᨃ ᨓ ᨑ ᨐ ᨏ ᨎ ╭╯◖ ◗ ꉂ ‡   ꒷      ⌨        ⬪         ↀ       ⬩     ⬧        ⬥        ⊹       〨        ⩌         ⩍       ⩋       𓊌      𓇿       𓊔        𓈈       ㆐        Ⳋ        ︳       ⴰ    𔒴        ↻        𝅅         ﹐         ㄔ         ഒ         ＊      ⛓        𓎆        ⩩       ⵌ ٠     ᭡    ꕤ   𓈀   っ  𓊘  𓄹    ⦂    ᘏ   𔘓   𓈈   𓂃   𖠿    ཿ    ࿀   ᎔   ᎓     ᜴   ᜵   ᝪ   ៚  ៳   ᠀   ᠉    ᤳ    ᨓ    ᭝   ᱺ   ᳃    ◯   ◦  ◡  ◠   ⋆    ۬۟۬     ⑅    ꠴   ੭   જ   ꞈ    ⸝    ˴   ›    ≡    ࿔   ／   ଓ    ઇ   ઉ   ᧙   ᥐ   ៸   ૪   ೨   ␥   ■   ♧   ◇   ◈   ﹫   ꧔   ੭   જ    ꞈ    ⸝      ≡    ࿔    ଓ    ઇ    ઉ    ᧙    ᥐ   ៸   ໒    ː    ՞   ᵎ    ࿂  ﹆  ᰍ   ִ𖧧   𖤠   𓄹     ﹅  ᠀    ·    ꗃ    𖦹      𓈒       𖧧      𓂃      𝕝      𓄹    𓄼      ҂      ⬫      ܀         ⃝          ᘏ      ︰       ⚠        ꤥ         𓇬          𓃉        𓇸         𓆇       ⸃       ⸰         ⬞     𐑥        ᠈       ✉        ᨒ        ﹆         ⬝       𑁤        𔘓    𔓘      ᜊ        ᪤       ꒷      ⌨        ⬪         ↀ       ⬩     ⬧        ⬥        ⊹       〨        ⩌         ⩍       ⩋   ჲ   ᴥ

𝑨̲ ̲𝑩̲ ̲𝑪̲ ̲𝑫̲ ̲𝑬̲ ̲𝑭̲ ̲𝑮̲ ̲𝑯̲ ̲𝑰̲ ̲𝑱̲ ̲𝑲̲ ̲𝑳̲ ̲𝑴̲ ̲𝑵̲𝑵̲̃ ̲𝑶̲ ̲𝑷̲ ̲𝑸̲ ̲𝑹̲ ̲𝑺̲ ̲𝑻̲ ̲𝑼̲ ̲𝑽̲ ̲𝑾̲ ̲𝑿̲ ̲𝒀̲ ̲𝒁̲𝐀̲ ̲𝐁̲ ̲𝐂̲ ̲𝐃̲ ̲𝐄̲ ̲𝐅̲ ̲𝐆̲ ̲𝐇̲ ̲𝐈̲ ̲𝐉̲ ̲𝐊̲ ̲𝐋̲ ̲𝐌̲ ̲𝐍̲ ̲𝐍̲̃ ̲𝐎̲ ̲𝐏̲ ̲𝐐̲ ̲𝐑̲ ̲𝐒̲ ̲𝐓̲ ̲𝐔̲ ̲𝐕̲ ̲𝐖̲ ̲𝐗̲ ̲𝐘̲ ̲𝐙̲𝚊̲ ̲𝚋̲ ̲𝚌̲ ̲𝚍̲ ̲𝚎̲ ̲𝚏̲ ̲𝚐̲ ̲𝚑̲ ̲𝚒̲ ̲𝚓̲ ̲𝚔̲ ̲𝚕̲ ̲𝚖̲ 𝚗̲ ̲𝚘̲ ̲𝚙̲ ̲𝚚̲ ̲𝚛̲ ̲𝚜̲ ̲𝚝̲ ̲𝚞̲ ̲𝚟̲ ̲𝚠̲ ̲𝚡̲ ̲𝚢̲ ̲𝚣̲ ̲𝙰̲ ̲𝙱̲ ̲𝙲̲ ̲𝙳̲ ̲𝙴̲ ̲𝙵̲ ̲𝙶̲ ̲𝙷̲ ̲𝙸̲ ̲𝙹̲ ̲𝙺̲ ̲𝙻̲ ̲𝙼̲ 𝙽̲ ̲𝙾̲ ̲𝙿̲ ̲𝚀̲ ̲𝚁̲ ̲𝚂̲ ̲𝚃̲ ̲𝚄̲ ̲𝚅̲ ̲𝚆̲ ̲𝚇̲ ̲𝚈̲ ̲𝚉̲𝗔̲ ̲𝗕̲ ̲𝗖̲ ̲𝗗̲ ̲𝗘̲ ̲𝗙̲ ̲𝗚̲ ̲𝗛̲ ̲𝗜̲ ̲𝗝̲ ̲𝗞̲ ̲𝗟̲ ̲𝗠̲ ̲𝗡̲ ̲𝗡̲̃ ̲𝗢̲ ̲𝗣̲ ̲𝗤̲ ̲𝗥̲ ̲𝗦̲ ̲ ̲𝗨̲ ̲𝗩̲ ̲𝗪̲ ̲𝗫̲ ̲𝗬̲ ̲𝗭̲ 

 ´っω=`) ₍ᐢ× ༝ ×ᐢ₎ ₍ᐡ-᷅ ·̫ -᷄ᐡ₎ ₍^⸝⸝> ·̫ <⸝⸝ ^₎(´,,>ω<,,`)♡ ฅ՞•ﻌ•՞ฅ ₍ᐢ> ̫<ᐢ₎ (´･ω･`):( ;´꒳`;) ₍ᐡඉ ̫ඉᐡ₎ ᐡ⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ᐡ ₍ᐡ-᷅ ·̫ -᷄ᐡ₎⸜(*ˊᗜˋ*)⸝ ٩̋(ˊ•͈ ꇴ •͈ˋ)و (ヾﾉ･ω･`)(๑´`๑)♡ ˃̣̣̥᷄ ᴖ ˂̣̣̥᷅ ‎ᐡ ᐧ ﻌ ᐧ ᐡ (⸝⸝º ^ º⸝⸝ )( ˊᵕˋ ; ) ( ᴗ ̫ ᴗ ) (๑♡⌓♡๑) ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝₍ᐢ˶• ˔ กᐢ₎ ૮₍ ˃̵͈᷄ . ˂̵͈᷅ ₎ა ₍ᐢ•ﻌ•ᐢ₎ ᑦ(੭・㉨・)ᐣᘏ▸◂ᘏ ( ´͈ ᗨ `͈ ) ๑´ ³`)ﾉ ଘ( ິ•ᆺ• )ິଓ ꒰˘꒳˘๑꒱໒(＾ᴥ＾)७ ◟꒰◍ ´꒳` ◍꒱◞ ˘ ᵜ ˘ ( •ω•ฅ)ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ (๑´ㅂ`๑) (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑) ต( ິᵒ̴̶̷̤ ﻌ ᵒ̴̶̷̤ )ິฅ՞•ﻌ•՞ฅ (´๑•_•๑) Ꮚ˘ ꈊ ˘ Ꮚ ₍˄·͈༝·͈˄₎◞ ̑̑(ㅅ´ ˘ `) (˃ ⌑ ˂ഃ ) (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ₍⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎ ૮₍•᷄ ࡇ •᷅₎ა

★𝘁𝗶𝗻𝘆 𝗹𝗼𝗰𝘀 𝘀𝘆𝗺𝗯𝗼𝗹𝘀 !?

★/☆ ))  g1🆁L𝗦 ⠀𓂃  !

㍿ 壪廳戅戆攮斸曯欖靍靎顳顴飌飍飝馫驤驥驦驧㶠㸑㼖䃻䉷䕾䚕䙰䚭䝄䝔, 囕壪廳戅飝馫驤驥驦驧㸑㼖䃻䉷䕾䚕䙰䚭䝄䝔 ꓹ 囕壪廳戅飝 馫驤驥驦驤驥驤 珍 俊 魂 昂 黄 𠊙 滚 偪 𠇲 ꫥ平 君 變 昂 供 ㍈ 俊 魂 〺 〹 𐠵 う わ ゆ ぬ が へ を せ れㄎㄆぷ피 푸 기 윤 우 츄 틴 나 인 모 김 국혱 테 남 민 첑 즈 지 중 쟈 읻 위 웃⋒ ⋓ ⩄ ⩀ ⩉ ⩇ ⍝ 𖣗 ꐑ 𖥋 𖥵 𝆯𒆳 𒉽 ▸◂ 𝅎𝅏 𝅈𝅉 🝓 ◃▹ ː ⬫ ⬥ ⬦ ⑅Ⰶ ⊞ 𐌎 ⌦ 𐅰 ⎗ ◫ ༕ 🜲 ꯀ 𖣯 ▦𝄝 𝄜 𖣖 ⎗ ⎘ ⌂ ⩩ 𐄹 ⋕ ＃ ꖛ  ★♥︎ !! & ? ﹏ 𓂃𓈒 % 𝗼.𝗢 :𝗗 … ＜ ꒷꒦ ??! ＜3 𝗟𝗢𝗟 ! -  𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗘𝗟 𝗚𝗜𝗥𝗟 -  𝗠!𝗬𝗘꩜𝗡 -  lOvE YoU -  𝟮𝟰/𝟳 -  𝟰𝗥𝗖𝗛𝟭𝗩𝟯 -  *𝙠𝙞𝙎𝙎  *

𝗧𝗔𝗟𝗘𝗡𝗧 -  𝗟oO𝗩𝗘𝗟𝗬 -  S𝗣4c𝗘 -  𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗕𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗶𝗘𝗦 -  𝗠𝘆 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲𝘀 -  𝗠𝖸 𝖥𝗔𝗩⩇𝖱𝖨𝗧ᗴ an𝗚𝗬 - 𝗠𝗬 𝗝𝗶𝗠𝗶𝗡  -  𝗛𝗲𝗬 -  🅲𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗘𝗟 -  𝗛𝗘𝗬 -  𝗟𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗔 𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗕𝗔𝗡 -  𝗕𝗔𝗘

𝗨 𝗥 𝗠𝗬 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 -  I 𝗡𝟯𝗘𝗗 U -  𝟎𝟎 : 𝟎𝟎 -  𝗪♥︎𝗥𝗟𝗗 𝗗𝗢𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 -  𝗣𝗟𝟺𝗬  𝗗𝟺𝗧𝟹

 𝗕𝗘𝗦𝗧 𝗕𝗢𝗬 -  𝘀𝗛 𝗭𝘇 - 𝗚!𝗥𝗟𝗦 -  M𝗬 𝗕♥︎𝗕𝗘𝗦 -  𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗞 𝗥𝗢𝗦𝗜𝗘 -  𝐋✿𝐕𝐄 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄

  𝗦t4𝗡 - 𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗘𝗭 - 𝗦𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗬 𝗞𝗜𝗗𝗦 - 𝘇𝗭𝘇  -  𝗠𝗔𝗠𝗔𝗠𝗢𝗢 -  𝗟-𝗢-𝗩-𝗘 -  𝗺𝗬 𝗦𝗣𝗶𝗖𝗘

 𝗖𝗔𝗧 𝗕𝗢𝗬 -  𝗝𝗘𝗡𝗡𝗜𝗘 -  ︎𝗷-𝗢𝗛𝗡𝗡𝗬 -  YEOJIN -  𝗬𝗨𝗧𝗔︎ -  𝗶𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗘 -  𝗖𝗔𝗧𝘀 𝗚𝗶𝗥𝗟𝗦

★emojis fav 

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Gook always had a crush on Tae Joo but when he realized Tae Joo might reciprocate those feelings Gook pushed him away. It makes sense because Gook made himself believe that Tae Joo's feelings for him were misplaced feelings of loneliness and parenteral love.

Tae Joo realized his feeling once he saw Gook slipping away. Once he saw that Gook could potentially be happy with someone else. The second Tae Joo starts questioning his own feelings and realizes that they might be romantic he wants to talk it out. He wants to figure it out because he believes that Gook feels the same way.

The whole confession/breakup scene is basically Tae Joo confessing his feelings for Gook and wanting to figure everything out while Gook does the breaking up because he doesn't believe that Tae Joo's feelings are 100% romantic.

There's also the whole thing of Gook seeing their relationship as a "master/servant" thing where as Tae Joo saw it as more of a friendship.

Sunmi - 200705