All My Grief Says The Same Thing— This Isn't How It's Supposed To Be. And The World Laughs, Holds My

physics makes me wanna *bangs head against the wall repeatedly*

I actually think eldest daughters should be allowed at least one instance in their entire lives to just completely lose their shit

Oooooh I'd like to add some—

Crinkled shirts

Eye bags or red eyes

Chapped or bitten lips (?)

papers, EVERYWHERE!

But a clean desk. I said DESK, let's not talk about the room

Cold hands

No concept of time or whatsoever while studying

Internally going FERALLLLL while keeping a straight face.

"I study better at night"

Screaming into the void

things that somehow scream physicist:

some weird mixture of dark academia chique and i-found-this-in-a-dumpster fashion

being a cat person!!!

black coffee

black ballpoint pens

messy folders

whiskey??

high alcohol tolerance

having a god- and inferiority- complex at the same time

being bad at pure math?

being queer always finds it's way into the mix

daddy issues

not letting go of certain pieces of clothing

also being creative

being a daydreamer and a realist

(lots of specifics about being a female physicist)

feel free to add your own!!

Lets say, hypothetically, my lover's got humor and for the sake of debate... lets say, she's the giggle at a funeral.

This close 🤏 to walking into a mysterious fog and never coming back

“The second half of a man’s life is made up of nothing but the habits he has accumulated during the first half.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Demons

this beauty and blood defies god

"Vesuvius" Amber Sparks // Carrie (1976) // "The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury // Ginger Snaps (2000) // "Feminine Incarnate" Alexa Thorn // Sharp Objects (2018) // Belladonna of Sadness (1973) // The Witch (2015) // "The Virgin Suicides" Jeffrey Eugenides

"A flaw in humanity, the compulsion to be unique, which is at war with the desire to belong to a single unidentifiable sameness."

- Olivie Blake , the atlas six

My biggest comfort in life is that Henry Winter can't do math either

feminine urge to Know Everything and speak 12 languages