Bold Of You To Assume I Need A Toxic Person In My Life. I Am Independent And I GASLIGHT Myself. ✨ON.

Tumblr is just mentally ill people quoting dead mentally ill people.

One of them.

“i read the book you recommended” is a love language.

The Tragedy of the Monster Lady

1. Ocean Vuong | 2. love Slowly Kills by Adrian Borda | 3. Anne Carson, from “The Fall of Rome: A Traveller’s Guide.” | 4. Julia Ducournau & Agathe Rousselle Talk ‘Titane’ And Violent Women In Cinema | 5. Monster (1994-2001) Naoki Urasawa | 6. Thus Spoke Zarathustra - Friedrich Nietzsche | 7. Mary Shelley ― Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus | 8. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in "A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 9. William Shakespeare — Macbeth | 10. Henry Miller, from a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in “A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller, 1932-1953″ | 11. "Vesuvius" Amber Spark | 12. “The Forbidden Wish" Jessica Khoury | 13. Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! (Russ Meyer, 1965) | 14. "11/11" Devi Mccallion | 15. Mahtem Shiferraw, Fuschia | 16. Rick Yancey, The Curse of the Wendigo | 17. Kristin Cashore, Graceling | 18. killer, pheobe bridgers | 19. Marie Howe, “After the Movie” | 20. La Faim by Félix Labisse | 21. Alberto Moravia, The Woman of Rome | 22. martha gellhorn, selected letters | 23. raw (2016) | 24. David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest | 25. Lily Chatterjee (attrib.) | 26. The Dark Knight (2008) dir. Christopher Nolan | 27. Joey Comeau, A Softer World (#642) | 28. Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses | 29. carmen maria machado, in the dream house | 30. nicole lyons | 31. wintersong, s. jae-jones | 32. nicole homer, “underbelly” | 33. Only Angels Have Wings, Nicole Dollangange | 34. Carol Ann Duffy, Medusa | 35. Khalil Gibran | 36. ocean vuong | 37. Ice Nine Kills, The Nature of the Beast | 38. Octavio Paz, tr. by Elizabeth Bishop, The Collected Poems, 1957-1987 | 39. Rabindranath Tagore (1861 - 1941) | 40.Adrienne Rich, from Diving into the Wreck; “The phenomenology of anger” | 41. Franz Wright, from his collection God’s Silence | 42. Euripides, Medea | 43. Journal of Katherine Mansfield - Katherine Mansfield. | 44. the archer by taylor swift | 45. Kingdom Animalia by Aracelis Girmay (2011) | 46. Toni Morrison, Sula | 47. "As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks" by Susan Sontag | 48. Björk - Bachelorette

dark science academia ♡

Wish I was wandering the snow dusted grounds of a crumbling manor right now, wrapped in a velvet cloak

Kostel svatého Jiří (St. George’s Church) also known as "ghost church" in Luková, Czech Republic

Cultural Dark Academia

After my last post about the lack of representation in academia, I felt it neccessary to provide some examples of what I’m talking about. Obviously there are more countries in the world than I can list and provide books for, so for a quick list this is what I got. !! Keep researching !! If you have any more books by POC please reply them !! If a country isn’t listed, that doesn’t mean it’s not important, this is just what I could get together real quick. If I made any mistakes, please let me know, we’re all learning. We need to help each other end eurocentrism in academia, so value representation and educate yourselves 💓💓💓

Chinese:

The Art of War by Sun Tzu

The Dream of the Red Chamber

The Water Margin

Romance of the Three Kingdoms

The Journey to the West

The Scholars

The Peony Pavilion

Border Town by Congwen Shen

Half of Man is Woman by Zhang Xianliang

To Live by Yu Hua

Ten Years of Madness by agent Jicai

The Field of Life and Death & Tales of Hulan River by Xiao Hong

Japanese:

A Personal Matter by Kenzaburo Oë

Pakistani:

Moth Smoke by Mohsin Hamid

How to Get Filthy Rich in Rising Asia by Mohsin Hamid

Ghulam Bagh by Mirza Athar Baig

Masterpieces of Urdu Nazm by K. C. Kanda

Irani/Persian:

Rooftops of Tehran by Mahbod Seraji

Savushun by Simin Daneshvar

Anything by Rumi

The Book of Kings by Ferdowsi

The Rubiyat by Omar Khayyam

Shahnameh (translation by Dick Davis)

Afghan:

Earth and Ashes by Atiq Rahimi

A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini

Indian:

The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy

Aithihyamala, Garland of Legends by Kottarathil Sankunni

The Gameworld Trilogy by Samir Basu

Filipino:

Twice Blessed by Ninotchka Rosca

The Last Time I Saw Mother by Arlene J. Chai

Brazilian:

Night at the Tavern by Álvares de Azevedo

The Seven by André Vianco

Don Casmurro by Machado de Assis

Portuguese:

The Lusiads by Camões

Columbian:

Chronicle of a Death Foretold by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Delirio by Laura Restrepo

¡Que viva la música! by Andrés Caicedo

The Sound of Things Falling by Jim Gabriel Vásquez

Mexican:

Bless Me, Ultima by Rudolf Anaya

Adonis Garcia/El Vampiro de la Colonia Roma by Luis Zapata

El Complot Mongol by Rafael Bernal

Egyptian:

The Cairo Trilogy by Nahuib Mahfouz

The Book of the Dead

Nigerian:

Rosewater by Tade Thompson

Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

Malian:

The Epic of Sundiata

Senegalese:

Poetry of Senghor

Native American:

The Inconvenient Indian by Thomas King

Starlight by Richard Wagamese

Almanac of the Dead by L. Silko

Fools Crow by James Welch

Australian Aborigine:

Dark Emu by Bruce Pascoe

First Footprints by Scott Cane

My Place by Sally Morgan

American//Modern:

Real Life by Brandon Taylor

Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas

The Poet X by Elizabeth Acevedo

Internment by Samir’s Ahmed

Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurtson

Rivers of London Series by Ben Aaronovitch

no you live in a society. i live alone in the city befriending houses and mourned when one of them was painted hideously yellow

Eldest daughter

“Your double chin is showing”

That has reached my ears while I was dealing with my clothes in a bathroom. It’s not that I am easily triggered, I am truly not though each word coming out of my mom’s mouth is like a bullet.

“I don’t mean it as a compliment, nor as an insult. It’s just what it is”

I only have one thought in my mind - backhanded. My mom is just like any other ethnic mom says what she wants because for the first time in her life she has an authority over someone. She finally gets to be the boss and find a scapegoat. Motherhood is the only space for women from traditionals and ethnic households to seek control and people who would finally listen to each of their bitchy words. Even if it means that your children, particularly your daughters, would be those people.

And such phrases come out so randomly, I frequently try to get inside her mind and comprehend what drives her sudden urges to put some salt onto my wounds.

And I truly am trying to become the mom from 11th episode of “How to get away with murder” and gravitate towards forgiveness. I truly do.

But this same womb that carried me will eventually become the cell.

Oh to be able to heal your ethnic mom, to become her, to sink into her and be one big piece like we once were. Yet I am aware of the fact that the more I sympathize the more I idealize her, and her “double chin” comments.  

But perhaps this is faith. The faith of an eldest daughter in an ethnic family. The faith that is full of generational curses and traumas that I will cut off.

I love my mom and this is why I will never be like her.

the secret history in a nutshell: