Studies And Doodles

they should invent an anime/manga that doesn't make you want to blow yourself up

can't escape him

still foaming at the mouth at the fact that neil and andrew have matching flip phones, matching coats, matching armbands, they both have keys to the maserati. the fact that they are inseparable to the point that jean notices the way they move like they are caught in each other's gravity, the lingering looks when one falls out of the orbit for too long. neil learning the importance of give and take from andrew and offering jean something in exchange for keeping him alive. you are what you love or whatever

headcanon that kevin starts to pick up on a bit of german since he's around the monsters so much and he absolutely hates that he's starting to understand andreil's insane brand of flirting when they think nobody who could understand it is around

Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.

How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.

The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.

andrew: happy birthday kevin [hands gift to neil]

inspired by the scene where Cat brings Jean seashells at the beach bc Jean’s old teammates trashing his little trinkets is OUT, and Jean’s new teammates adding to his collection is IN

thinking about the possible interactions we could get between neil and jeremy with neil's "overly nice people are unsettling and have something to hide" mentality and between andrew and jeremy with andrew's history of getting along well with and respecting kind people who choose to be good in spite of all the bad things life throws at them (renee, betsy, wymack)

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some people thought this was about neil gaiman? im crying what does he get up to

love how neil is always up to something. a little scheme. a little plan. maybe giving a crazy statement in front of a camera. he'll probably give it in writing too if you ask him. he survived so much what's a little public beef going to do to him? perhaps even committing some murder. fixing some relationships. teaching some people that they're worth saving. antagonizing some fbi agents. iconic