“Be Gentle With Yourself. You Are A Child Of The Universe, No Less Than The Trees And The Stars; You

I sit here at night. And the thoughts just don’t stop.

I've rarely seen a more validating sentence in my entire life.

hey. don't cry. I went to Mad At You island and none of your friends were there :)

the moon is insane. like. there’s just a rock up there.

Cons of Christmas as a classical singer:

Silent Night.

Silver bells.

Christmas hits medleys.

Singing at office Christmas parties.

95% of the singing you do is about Jesus because almost none of the good Christmas songs are secular.

Not Christian? Too bad. For the next month and a half you might as well be.

You have no choice but to get into the festive mood as soon as November rolls around, because all your music takes at least a month to learn.

Pros of Christmas as a classical singer:

Money.

The really weird fucked up obscure Christmas songs in horrifically warped complex minor keys.

The absolute banger of a genre that is "Medieval Christmas Drinking Songs". Potentially one of my all-time favourite musical genres. Masters In This Hall makes me want to set things on fire it's great.

I sang backup for this gay men's trio once. They did a very slutty cover of Santa Baby featuring pole dancing. That was fun.

Money

Also you occasionally come across some German song about like... bells or something, and it changes you as a person.

I wish I could fall in love

Am I sacred of it?

I would love more so than you can imagine. If I could trust another with my devotion.

If you were to vacuum up jello through a metal tube, well I think that’d be a neat noise 

So basically, human existence is hard. Life is hard. And there is no reason why we shouldn’t all try to make the world, and our own worlds a better place. I read somewhere something like: “you’re all at college because you want to make the world a better place. Know that it’s okay if you only make one person happier, and it’s okay if you’re that one person. I need to remember that sometimes.

Life is so weird and wonderful and scary and intimidating and ever changing and full of surprises. I feel like self awareness has made me a better person but also a lot more self critical. I constantly find things about myself that are terrible and I’ve convinced myself that I can’t trust anyone. But I can. It’ll be okay. I’m still learning and growing and what would be so terrible if people knew you were sad?? Why is that so hard to show?? If you want help just ask for it. Life is so much easier when you realize that other people are struggling too. We are all just humans on a planet trying to make it through. I spent so long not trusting and not being able to let down/burden others but what if I did? What if I trusted them?

“You are helpful, and you are loved, and you are forgiven, and you are not alone.”

— John Green (via bnmxfld)