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I'm going to pretend this is canon and no one can stop me

Also this gets 10 times funnier if you think Durge and Gortash were dating and Ketheric was the third wheel. Durge and Gortash are unsubtly flirting with each other and Ketheric is trying to keep them on the topic of the Absolute

Myrkul is the third wheel of the Dead Three, and you can not change my mind.

Bane and Bhaal hate each other so much, and Myrkul's just there like

"I hate both of you"

and the other two are just busy yelling at one another

I swear Bane and Bhaal are exs, and Myrkul has to now deal with this eternal falling out

I know it's technically about how Bane got the most power and Bhaal is jealous blah blah blah, but this is funnier

They are divorced, your honor

And Myrkul is just there, sick of it

I just wanted to make a quick post laying out some basic details for each of my Tav/Durge runs so I can look back on it and not redo certain things. So enjoy if you want a rundown of each character

Note that many of these are still in progress, only Yurena and Echo have actually completed playthroughs because I keep having new ideas then starting then getting all the way to act 3 before having a new idea and repeating the cycle. Echo and Orion are siblings, their runs are alternate universes of each other. Carys is my first time multiclassing which has been fun. Also all characters have some sort of more in depth story because I'm incapable of simply leaving them as what the game says they are, but those will be posted on their own

Anyways characters under the cut

Yurena (D)

Eldridge Knight fighter

Mephistopheles tiefling

Lawful evil . Give in Durge, reject Bhaal

No romance, shipped with Gortash

Echo (T)

Death Domain cleric of Mystra

Seldarine drow

Neutral good

Gale romance, professor/live together ending

Orion (T)

College of Swords bard

Seldarine drow

Lawful good

Karlach romance (unfinished)

Venera (D)

Eldridge Knight fighter

Seldarine drow

Chaotic good . Resist Durge, reject Bhaal

Wyll romance (unfinished)

Mori (D)

Battle Master fighter

Mephistopheles tiefling

Neutral evil . Give in Durge, accept Bhaal(?)

Shadowheart romance, Dark Justicar (unfinished)

Carys (T)

Pact of the Fiend warlock + assassin rogue

High elf

Lawful neutral

Astarion + Wyll romance (unfinished)

Tis (T)

Wild Magic sorcerer

Wood elf

Neutral good

Halsin romance (unfinished)

Blog Info & Rules

About Me

Nobody, otherwise known as N

genderfluid . she/he/it

lesbian . taken

adult

Blog Info

I post primarily about Baldur's Gate 3, mostly Durgetash but about my various Tav and Durge characters in general. I may post about my DnD character(s) in the future

Most of what I post is "small content" (headcanons, dialogue snippets, random thoughts, etc). On occasion I post longer content, whether it be fanfic snippets, character dives, or whatever else

Occasionally I post content about my personal life, either interactions I have with people or, rarely, about my DID

At the end of this post is a link to each of my BG3 characters. Not all of them have posts, I'm working on them

Blog Rules

My messages and ask box are always open. Feel free to ask about my characters and stories, I love talking about them. Please keep my ask box related to my posts

On the note of my characters, feel free to write about or draw my characters if you're inspired to. Just tag me in posts about them so I can see :)

Respect my privacy, I don't share much about myself on public platforms. To those who know me in personal life, please let me maintain online anonymity

My BG3 Characters

. Yurena . Echo . Orion . Venera . Mori . Carys . Tis .

Okay so I've posted about my main Tav, now to post about my main Durge who I've done 2 playthroughs with the same character and will probably do more, and any time I post about my Durgetash stories/AUs she's the Durge in question unless I state otherwise. Due to being Durge I don't have much for her backstory since.. it's kinda right there, but I currently have two AUs for her and a third I'm working on. Without further ado, here's her "canon" storyline (in which I do say fuck actual canon 🫶)

Yurena

The one difference to the canon Durge backstory is that she did love Gortash, truly and while knowing her god - her father - disapproved. She never meant to fall for Gortash, but after meeting a few times and having written several letters back and forth, it was hard not to. The two of them began having visits outside of work, getting to know each other better than they knew themselves. Yurena admired Gortash for his brain above all else, for his ability to invent and plan and even his artistic side - something she eventually began to pick up on. They grew to trust each other completely, to genuinely want to rule together - Yurena would comment on how Gortash's death could be so beautiful but she preferred him alive, and Gortash was more than willing to share his bed throne with her

But then Orin came along, and everything fell apart. Yurena woke up on a mind flayer ship, having no memories yet her emotions remembered something. So she made her way along the Sword Coast, traveling alongside Astarion, Shadowheart, and Wyll. While at camp at one point, majority of the companions (Wyll, Karlach, Gale, Shadowheart) convinced Yurena to help the grove (Astarion didn't want to, Lae'zel was focused on the crèche and didn't care). After helping the tieflings, while at the party, Astarion approached Yurena. The two ended up talking, during which Yurena said she believed she'd had a lover before and she wanted to figure out who it was

Fast forward to the party chasing Ketheric into the illithid colony, watching as the Chosen Three talk, and Yurena can't stop staring at Gortash. Can't shake the feeling that she knew him, that he was important. She doesn't say anything about it until they're in Baldur's Gate, and she's standing face to face with someone unafraid to call her "nearest and dearest". At this point Yurena has to explain to Gortash her amnesia, and has to pretend like she can't see behind the unbothered mask of his, like the light in his eyes doesn't seem to dim as he hears that. Still he offers to work together, to rule together, and Yurena accepts the offer more than willingly. There's just one person left in the way; Orin. Yurena is able to deal with her easily, only to be greeted by her father. Yet when Bhaal says she will be his Slayer, that she must kill every living thing, Yurena can't imagine it. There are some people she's too fond of to kill, and she rejects her fate

After this there are two main routes Yurena's story can take. The first one and the one I talk about a bit more often follows canon for a bit longer, until the Netherbrain is defeated. After the story is said and done, Yurena has nowhere to go and stays in her Lower City camp with Withers. She finds as much about her past as possible, including countless letters between herself and Gortash. Knowing he's an important piece of her past, knowing she had once loved him, she works on convincing Withers to bring him back - saying that if he were to come back he'd have no reason to worship Bane anymore, that the two of them could live out their lives as nobodies. Just travelers, seeing the sights of Faerûn, maybe even doing some good. And it works, Gortash is brought back free of his Chosen title. He's hesitant at first, since he wasn't exactly consulted about this, but sees his second chance with Yurena and decides to accept it. This post ending AU is the two of them learning to live free of the influence of Bhaal or Bane, finding out who they can be when they can be anyone, and loving themselves and each other.

The second and actually original storyline begins with Yurena convincing Bhaal that total global murder isn't the way to go, as it means in the future there can be no murder. She remains his Chosen and the leader of the Bhaalists. After this things continue essentially the same until it diverts from canon during the Netherbrain encounter - Gortash tries to interrupt, but Yurena doesn't let him take the Netherstones, telling him she's made progress and will finish this. Once the Netherbrain is destroyed, Yurena ensures Gortash is able to remain the Archduke. She becomes known as his blade, a guard that is never more than a few feet away from him. The companions all go their separate ways, and Yurena stays living with Gortash in Baldur's Gate. They rule the city together, and though it's nothing like the grand plan they once had, they're alive and together - and plotting new plans to rule the whole of Faerûn, but more cautious now

When it comes to the companions, Yurena struggled connecting with most of them. Astarion was the only one she really got along with, sometimes Shadowheart could be included, but that was about it. Lae'zel thought her needlessly violent, Wyll and Karlach saw there was a barely contained evil that Yurena seemed all too ready to accept, and Gale really did try to be friendly but even he was put off by Yurena at times. Yurena mostly traveled with Astarion, Shadowheart and Wyll, and in her universe(s) Wyll was the one encouraging Shadowheart to be better while Yurena and Astarion made each other worse in many ways. In the universe where Yurena is killed by her father then revived, none of the companions hear from her after the celebration at the end of everything - it's after that reunion that Gortash is brought back and the two slip away. In the other universe, where Yurena and Gortash rule Baldur's Gate, well to be honest I'm still writing this one and haven't decided yet lol. We'll see where the story takes itself!

Another thing about Yurena's horns decorations/jewelry, since it's all from Gortash. For a long time she just had the two rings, then eventually a chain around one of them too. But in the current day she also has little studs in her horns, which are also from Gortash, naturally. It took a long time for Gortash to even suggest such a thing, and even longer for Yurena to agree to it, because I imagine tiefling horns are like goat horns and therefore have nerves and shit (read; putting something like those studs in would hurt). And like Yurena has no problems with pain, both having a high pain tolerance and generally not finding pain as a bad feeling, but to trust someone to potentially hurt her like that? It took a while, not to mention Gortash insisted on spending plenty of time so close to make sure each stud was perfectly placed, perfectly symmetrical

Gortash: I'm not hurting you, am I?

Yurena: You'd be bleeding by now if I cared

Gortash: I didn't ask if you care, just if it hurts

Yurena: I'm not the first tiefling you've met

Gortash: You're the first one whose horns I've touched. It's never come up before

Yurena: If you must know, fine. Yes, there's pain each time the jewelry is put in. Be careful closer to the base of them if you care about it so much

Gortash was in fact extremely careful. At the end of it all, Yurena has more horn decorations to treasure and Gortash is left admiring his art - and Yurena

As a writer whose default is dialogue, kudos right back to writers who use more description and such. Y'all put so much detail into your works and I love it, wish I could explain what I visualize as well as you guys do

kudos to writers with dialogue-heavy works, I got mad respect for y'all. love using dialogue as a tool, but my default settings are non-verbal (dialogue) and non-stop yapping (description).

My biggest head canon for my Durge and Gortash is that Gortash was the one that decorated her horns. Yurena wears chains and rings and stuff on her horns and I fully believe Gortash started that with the rings, he probably was given some silver rings but he likes gold so he just.. put them on Yurena's horns. Something like this;

Gortash: I have no need for these, and silver would look good on you. Would you like them?

Yurena: Your fingers are much larger than mine

Gortash: Ah, right. Hm. Here, I have an idea *puts a ring on each of her horns* see? They look lovely like that

Yurena:

Yurena: Do you have more

Picture of Yurena below to show off her horn jewelry

"My favorite trope is enemies to lovers!" "Mine is opposites attract!" Okay well mine is their love invokes religious guilt. If the ship can't be visualized to Take Me to Church, I don't want it. Give me the "pure saviour" falling in love with a sinner, worshipping said sinner's every move and accepting their damnation. I want to see the favorite of one god being entirely enamoured by their god's enemy's favorite. I want Character A to pray for forgiveness over their love, I want them to be tortured by their feelings that go against their beliefs

Fun fact everyone when I found out there's no way to save him I stopped playing that run for a week and made a new save because I hated it that much

I do refuse to acknowledge the death of Gortash. I shall feign that his demise be but a Mandela effect.

Currently writing a sort of continuation Durgetash AU where my Durge character (Yurena, because she's my main Durge character so why not) convinces Withers to bring Gortash back after everything that happens, and the two of them (now both having been given new life) are free from their gods and decide to simply travel Faerûn. In it I lean into them putting old skills to new use, and that leads to Gortash inventing a camera for Yurena. This is essentially how him showing her it goes

Gortash: I made this, you can look through this lens and then click this button and it will take a picture of whatever you see through the lens. I'm working on a device that connects to it to see all the pictures you take but for now you can see them on this too Yurena: *staring at him through the camera* This is so sweet of you, what made you do this? Gortash: Well a while back you said something about wanting to capture a moment forever, and I wanted to make that happen for you. Plus I always have admired that creative spark of yours, now you can make the beauty you see last forever. Anyway I started thinking about what I could- Yurena: *click* Gortash: ...what was that Yurena: You said I can make anything beautiful last forever Gortash: My dear, I'm honored, may I see the picture Yurena: Sure Gortash: *staring at the picture of him mid sentence, not at all posed for a picture*

And that is how Yurena gets Gortash to be speechless for a solid minute because he can't decide if he hates the picture because of how unflattering it is or if he loves it because he knows she's seeing the beauty of his mind at work and it's such a wonderful feeling to be loved

I should post about Yurena soon like I did for Echo

Oh how do I know I have a really bad hyperfixation character? My coworker got me a sticker of him. And when she gave me the sticker I did a little stompy feet stim and immediately felt pain in my bad leg but that's fine, I have a Gortash sticker now. Look at him, look at how cute he is

I need 20 more

You know what I'm going to yap about my main BG3 characters. This post is about my main Tav character, where I'll talk about her backstory, how her main story (in game story) differs from canon, and her two potential endings, as well as her relationship with each of the companions (minus Minsc and Minthara because I didn't get either during this run) and a couple other fun facts. Note that I'm not too fluent in DnD lore and don't care if this isn't canon, this is my fan character to have fun with. Actual post under the cut

Without further ado, introducing:

Echo

She's a Seldarine drow, a Death Domain cleric of Mystra, and romancer of Gale. Her backstory is that she's the third of four children from parents that escaped the Underdark and swore themselves to Eilistraee - she has three brothers, two older and one younger. She grew up worshipping Eilistraee, and in her late teenage years began to worship Mystra as well. The village she lived in was attacked around the time she would enter young adulthood, and she prayed to both her goddesses for help. Mystra granted her wings to escape (Echo was able to save youngest brother too, the only other surviving family member she has), and from that day on Echo devoted herself to Mystra. Echo and her brother traveled Faerûn, with her protecting him from everything that came their way. That changed when she was abducted by the mind flayer ship, and had the parasite put in her

Echo now travels with Gale, Wyll and Karlach. As soon as she began befriending Gale, she felt connected to him - his devotion to Mystra, his understanding of her, called to Echo. The longer they traveled together, though, the more she realized this was a different side to her goddess. This wasn't the goddess she loved so dearly, the one who had crafted her wings to guide her to safety. The Mystra she heard of was... awful to Gale. Echo's faith told her Gale must be wrong, but her trust in her companion and her reason told her otherwise

Echo's story ends one of two ways, and it all depends on if Gale becomes a god or not. Either way she turns away from Mystra, her conscience not letting her be devoted to a goddess who could use someone she loves. As a punishment for abandoning her faith, Mystra takes back the gifted wings, but doesn't stop there - she takes Echo's sight as well, allowing her to only "see" the Weave. Wherever magic gathers, Echo can see it, though it's dependent on how much magic is there. An item or person that has strong magic can be seen more clearly, though it's only ever as a soft purple light

Now, should Gale ascend to godhood, Echo devotes herself to him as his first cleric. She wanders Faerûn in search of her brother, and helps those who need it. While she is often alone, she is content. However should Gale remain mortal, Echo will opt to remain with him. She still does what she can to search for her brother, asking many an adventurer to keep an eye out for him and help him find her if they can. With her lover remaining mortal, she returns her devotion to Eilistraee (whom she never forgot but did set aside), becoming a cleric of hers instead

No matter if she wanders Faerûn or stays with Gale, Echo misses her brother dearly. She's prepared to spend the rest of her life searching for him, refusing to give up hope to reunite with her sole family member. Echo wants to see who her brother has become, she believes he's capable enough to survive on his own. When they meet again, she's eager to hear of his adventures

Fun fact; in her timeline, the Emperor bases his form of her brother. While not identical, he hopes to remind Echo enough of her brother that she would listen to him. He even tries to mirror the familial connection to manipulate her

Echo's friends with most of her travel companions. She's dating Gale, and considers Wyll and Karlach as her best friends, admiring them for their actions and their friendship. Echo considers all her companions as her friends, except for Astarion - as much as she tried to get along with him, the two were just fundamentally too different to be proper friends. Still, Echo did everything she could to help all of her companions, believing each of them is inherently deserving of her help

(also her eyes are meant to be purple pre Mystra's curse but I didn't think of that in character creation and never felt like fixing it)

Work is hell let me daydream about my domestic Durgetash AU/alternate ending

Did I come up with it today? Yes. But also it's about to be my only source of comfort as I brave the storm that is working at a grocery store

"You're supposed to be dead" was all that came out, but there were many more thoughts racing through Durge's head

How was he alive? How long had he been alive? And, oh no, why did he almost feel relieved.

Gortash was decomposed, nothing like his usual self as he rushed to explain. Durge stood still, arms crossed as he stared at Gortash

In truth, the words weren't processing in their mind. They were too preoccupied by the internal conflict, knowing this man was a threat but being glad his death had only been temporary

At some point Gortash stopped talking. Durge said nothing, they couldn't when none of the explanation had stuck

The two stared at each other, unspoken emotions dancing behind each of their eyes

"Durge?"

Finally, Durge spoke again, tone light; "I'm glad I can kill you myself"

Imagine this:

Gortash is back, no one knows just yet, with the the exception of withers.

Withers thinks it's best for gortash lays low for a while.

The companions have no clue about his resurrection.

Gortash is aware that he is now an enemy of the people in baldur's gate.

Going back there isn't an option right now.

He is at the wilderness campsite, that's where he stays.

Every now and then, the companions would visit withers, gortash must remain unseen at all cost.

So he hides, until they leave.

Eventually, it all gets a little tiresome for gortash.

Wondering when he'll be able to get out of hiding.

This time, durge pays a visit to withers.

Gortash hesitates, he hadn't seen durge since their confrontation with the elder brain.

Realisation hits him, he must hide, quickly.

With a quick sigh of relief, gortash wonders, if durge would be glad to see him. Maybe not.

Durge has changed, no reason to be around a miserable failure like himself.

Durge has moved on, with no memories of their times together.

To durge, he is the past. The forgotten past.

Gortash's thoughts were cut off when he heard the sound of someone clearing their throat.

Lo and behold, standing there, in his hiding place, was none other than the one he was thinking about.

Durge saw him.

Durge knows nows.

He should be disappointed he failed withers.

But he's happy, happy to be seen by his durge.

"You're supposed to be dead" were the words durge spoke.

Time to explain everything.

"What's on your mind?" Oh nothing just that Durge knew their feelings for Gortash were wrong in Bhaal's eyes but all they could do was ask for forgiveness. It wasn't the admiration that was wrong, the connection with another person, but rather that Gortash is the Chosen of Bane. "Forgive me, Father, for I cannot help but admire the Chosen of your sworn foe: Enver Gortash."

These two are all I think about anymore. They make me sick. I love them

Update I'm writing it down. I cannot stop thinking about it and if I don't write it down I may explode

It's also a Durgetash focused fic because this ship has taken me in a chokehold more than any ship ever previously has

Oh no this isn't writer's block, I have an entire detailed alternate ending story with detailed dialogue and plot points that have been edited into being cohesive. However this is my bedtime story in which I mentally act it out until I inevitably fall asleep, acting as though I'm falling asleep in my MC's love interest's arms. I exclusively think of this story between the hours of midnight and 4am

Oh no this isn't writer's block, I have an entire detailed alternate ending story with detailed dialogue and plot points that have been edited into being cohesive. However this is my bedtime story in which I mentally act it out until I inevitably fall asleep, acting as though I'm falling asleep in my MC's love interest's arms. I exclusively think of this story between the hours of midnight and 4am

Father has commanded it is my turn to play Undertale

Thinking about how on more than one occasion my favorite character from a piece of media has been a dark haired man that the fandom and/or my friends compare to some sort of nuisance animal (rat, raccoon, etc), is one of if not the primary villain of their media but is not introduced in the beginning, but instead has a very short appearance semi early on, then truly shows up later, also is genuinely a genius but also is a little silly sometimes, and also is devoted to his god while being able to be read as having a god complex

This is such a specific type but something something two nickels, or in this case two husbands

I don't normally post about having DID and that prob won't change but there's something so funny about being an alter who doesn't write as much/isn't as good at it and fronting not long after one who LOVES writing. What do you mean someone in my brain wrote several thousand words and spent a week figuring out how to work a new character into the main story. I'm reading what he wrote and I'm actually upset he didn't get to finish writing the last part. Come back, little writer man, control these hands we share and continue your story so I can pretend I know peace

I just spent an ungodly amount of time infodumping to my girlfriend about Fall Out Boy. I was originally trying to talk about Grandson because I love his music

Also fun fact, Grandson - who wrote songs such as Die Young, thoughts & prayers, and 6:00 - has a song in Paw Patrol: The Mighty Movie

Nothing is more fun than revisiting characters and stories from a while ago. Even if it's only been a few months since my last update to the stories, writing and sharing that writing with my friends is awesome

Also I love coming up with entirely new parts of the world, fleshing out the universes I made by giving them unrelated moving parts to other stories happening. Maybe characters from the A focus will someday meet the ones from the B or C focus. Maybe there's a single character tying them all together. It's so fun especially when other people are influencing the story

This post is just a segue into potentially sharing excerpts from my writing here, though I'm not sure how well the excerpts will work without the 7 years of lore explained as context lmao

Just remembered the girl I'm gonna be talking about doesn't have Tumblr so allow me to be gay for a minute

I've had a crush on her for a month or two now. We've been friends for like a year and a half, and in November we started an ongoing bit about dating. It's a very committed bit, our friends stopped believing it was a bit a week in. And as it happens when you're best friends with someone, very open and emotional with each other, talk every chance you get, support each other, and for like 4 months joke about dating, I caught feelings

Now, her birthday was earlier this month, but due to her school we won't be able to hang out until the 27th. And I've made/bought a total of 6 gifts for her. Note that she loves Stardew Valley. One of the gifts I got was the mermaid pendant (yes I know bouquet is for dating and pendant is for marriage, but the pendant is more recognizable and lasts longer). So when we hang out, I'm going to ask her out

But the thing is!! And this is why I needed to rant, this part is hilarious. We were talking about how a lot of things have been parallels to one of my previous relationships (aka my best relationship thus far). Because there's too many parallels, but that's not the point. I hinted that it would be really funny if we did what my ex gf and I did; start dating and not tell anyone for a monthish. We settled on a day to start dating (yes we are pre planning an anniversary for a bit), AND THEN we start wedding planning. It's nothing serious aside from a day that would be cool (it's connected to one of her interests)

I haven't even asked her out yet and she wanted to plan a wedding. I love her she's so committed to a bit and I don't think even she sees it as a bit

So 12 hours ago I had my first tattoo session, and the artist was phenomenal. He was making sure I was as comfortable as possible, and kept asking if I needed a break or if I was lightheaded. Clear vibe of having dealt with first timers before who struggle with the process (very understandable, needles stabbing a couple layers of skin is not easy for most)

But the whole session I was just playing Pokémon TCG on my phone. No fucks given about the needle pushing ink into my wrist, I was busy being annoyed at that one Wormadam card that kept doing 70+ damage to my poor pals

Anyways here's the tattoos I think they look awesome

Listen, of the 1,025 Pokémon that exist I will always find a way to defend 1,024 of them

However, there is one, exactly one Pokémon that I hate with every fiber of my being. Remembering that it exists fills me with rage. Seeing it instills disgust. His very existence has caused me to avoid passing through certain routes if I can help it, just so I don't have to see it. I don't hate much, but I despise this stupid Pokémon

I hate him to his very core

I hate how humanoid he is. I hate how his horns look like hair. I hate that he wears shoes, as ugly as they are. I hate the stupid pink dots on his fingers. I hate that his name gives him a title, Mr. Mime. I hate his Detective Pikachu appearance that must have been created by a monster wishing to give children nightmares. I hate his shiny that stands as the singular proof that lime green is too widely used, controllable or not. I hate his Galarian form that somehow makes him even more off putting, I hate that he was given one instead of a better Pokémon. Most of all, I hate that he comes from something so cute

Do you want to know the only time I have released a Pokémon, dear reader? It was when I had caught Mime Jr. at 8 years old, so excited that it would evolve into something pretty or cool. I would add it to my team, and it would battle alongside me to victory. Alas, level 19 came, and to my younger self's utter horror I watched as my adorable clown became a creature that never should have been created. How could Arceus allow such a creature to exist in its creation, to thrive while crushing the hopes of children? This child who knew not how the game properly worked immediately released the abomination, leaving behind a Pokémon she once held hope in but now couldn't recognize

11 years have passed since I taught that Mime what trauma is, and to this day I despise what my child became

"are you sure you're autistic" my mom asks as I'm in my Pokémon pajamas with 5 of my Pokémon plushies by me as I play Pokémon New Snap on my Pokémon decorated Switch while listening to Pokémon YouTube videos and waiting to open more digital Pokémon cards

You guys will never guess what my special interest is

4am thoughts, I love Pokémon ship names. Like okay you can have your AfterDeath and your Chiluc (I'm in both fandoms too) but my absolute favorite is called AppraisalShipping. Wdym there's one called GreatGatsbyShipping. I love telling ppl these names