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my brain when i’m starting to hyperfixate on something:

TC: *mentions anything about getting back together or talking together at all* Me: *Raises from my grave* hELLO YES SIGN ME THE FUCK UP I AM ALWAYS A SLUT FOR TEAM CRAFTED

I just reached 7k followers!  As a way to say thank you I decided to hold an art raffle!

Rules:

·Must be following me (Both new and old followers can join).

·Like or reblog this post to enter the raffle. You can reblog it as many times as you’d like.

· keep your ask box or chat open. I will message the winners. If I don’t get a reply within 3 days I will choose another winner.

I will randomly pick three winners. 

Each winner will get a full body colored drawing of their choice (1 character per winner).

I Will draw:

•       Original characters

•       Fandom stuff

I Won’t draw:

•       NSFW

•       Animals

•       Furries

•       Mecha

•       Extreme gore or violence

•       Anything relating to religion, politics or other controversial topics/themes.

Deadline: 3 August 2019

Good luck! ^^

Day Five - Sea

I want a relationship that is completely undefinable by any existing labels or words. Like, we're so close and we hug and kiss each other's foreheads and cuddle and travel and explore together, and we get along so well and have so much in common. But at the same time, our relationship isn't fully romantic or fully platonic; it's a completely separate, open-to-interpretation thing that we tweaked as needed, and we have our own boundaries and things we are and aren't comfortable with, and we respect each other in every way, shape, and form.

Me: powerful punk, demanding presence, ready to dismantle the hierarchy and smash fascists

Also me: soft, full of emotions, just a babey, ready to curl up in a blanket and watch Moomin or Steven Universe for a few hours

Also also me: Forest cryptid, bog creature, nasty alien, ready to disappear into the woods and become integrated into local folklore

Items for the fighter! Click for better quality, other tables on my blog!

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Please consider helping a disabled unemployed trans person to afford food and hormones! I cannot stress enough how much this platform has helped me acquire food when I’ve gone days or weeks without knowing where my next meal will come from. Please help me.

PayPal.me/forestfaye

So my therapist has been helping me get to grips with my ADHD, and also the concept that I’m not shit at being an adult, I just can’t do things the way everyone has always told me to do them. Like every single “organize your life” books have always left me wanting to cry with frustration, and after I got hold of a copy of Organizing Solutions for People with ADHD by Susan Pinsky I realized that was because they primarily focus on “aesthetic” over “function”. And the function of most standard “organize your life books” is to “make things look Show Home Perfect”.

So the standard “hide all your unsightly things by doing xyz” may look nice for the first week or so, but by the end of the week it’ll look like a tornado made of pure inhuman frustration ripped through the house as I try to find the fucking advil.

To give you an example of the kind of hell I’ve been fumbling my way through the last 20 odd years: dishes will be washed and left in the drying wrack but never put away. Which means I can’t wash more dishes, which means dishes pile up, which means I can’t make food, which means I don’t eat, which means my CFS gets worse, which means I don’t have the energy to put the dishes away, and so on so forth until I have a meltdown, cry to ETD (who also likely has ADHD but has never had it confirmed) about how I can’t cope with life, and then we fix it for a while, but inevitably end up back at square one within about a week.

Pinsky’s solution to this was “remove an obstacle between you and your goal, if that means taking all the doors off your kitchen cabinets to make things easier, so be it.”

And lemme tell you, fucking revolutionary.

Laundry never ends up in the hamper??? why???? is it a closed hamper??? Remove the lid. Throw it out the window. Clothes are now miraculously finding their way into the hamper??? Rejoice????

Mail ends up spread out over every available flat surface? Put a sorting station right where your mail arrives. Put a shredder or “junk” basket under it. Shred or dump the junk immediately. Realize you only actually have two real letters that need attention, feel less overwhelmed, pay your bills on time.

Like I’m not saying this book is miraculous, but it did help me realize that I was effectively torturing myself by trying to conform to certain ideals of “perfect house keeping”, and presenting a certain image rather than just allowing myself to live in my space as effectively as possible. And why? Why was I doing that? Cause people with different lives and capabilities are perceived as the norm? Fuck that. If this was a physical problem I wouldn’t be forcing myself to conform to an ableist standard, so why am I doing it with this?

My lived space will never look a certain way, and that’s okay. It will never look show home perfect, and that’s okay. It will likely always be cluttered and eclectic where nothing matches, and that’s okay. Sometimes I will have odd socks on because sorting them out required too much mental energy, and that’s okay. Actually fuck sorting socks, just buy all your socks in the same color. Problem solved. Boring sure, but also one less thing to do, which means more time to hyper fixate on fun things. Which really, what else is my life for if not to write screeds and screeds of vampire shit posts, I ask you.

I can't donate but i hope for the best!!

I hate to be That Gay™️

but my parents are homophobic and recently kicked me out of their home. I’m a full time college student and will be renting a place for winter break in my college town. Since they kicked me out I have no vehicle and only the funds I’ve saved the past year. I have an emotional support cat (named Beef) and am on anxiety meds that have made a previously debilitating mood disorder stable.

I’m getting a job but I’d really like some help staying afloat this winter if you are willing to share this post or donate even as little as a dollar to my gofundme.

I am an artist and will also be taking commissions during this time (please check my Instagram, Autumnnotgrace, if you are interested in that!! If nothing else I love to interact with people there!)

I also sell shirts on Redbubble and Threadless (I am also Autumnnotgrace there)

My gofundme link is right here.

If you prefer PayPal it’s PayPal.me/Autumnnotgrace

If you have nothing to give, reblogs are very appreciated!!

Thanks so much for reading through this! Have a happy winter, I know I’ll be doing my best to!