Images Of Saturn Taken By Cassini And Processed By Kevin Gill.

The Fifth Door (xv)

©sydburon - August ‘15

Carl Jung seemingly attacks abstract thinking in “The Undiscovered Self,” which contradicts our apparent western value of evidence-based statistics.

Concrete thinking supports the individual in his flaws and quirks, abstract thinking neglects the individual in favor of the mean.

In the age of absolutism, in the favor of structure, can we define what does not exist in plain sight? What appears beyond our five senses, what cannot be molded or fit into a box?

A human is not a definitive it. Constantly, we are molded and shaped both externally and internally. To be human is to be dynamic.

To be dynamic is to change, to face internal and external battles, to have a multitude of choices and paths before us, to risk change and challenge the darkness of our futures. After all, we can’t so clearly make out the details, the supporting characters and events of our lives.

Astrology, which reflects us but does not control us, is centralized by polarities. Polarities are, simplistically put, two opposing sides of the same concept. The six signs divide into 12, as with the houses. In other words, astrology is defined by contradictions.

The initial mistake we all make in pursuing astrology is when we ask to be defined. Inevitably, there will be two points that do not align nicely. And so we become confused, or write off astrology as inaccurate. It cannot fit into a box-definition. It is not static in meaning.

We are caught in abstract thought, in the statistics that exclude our unique selves. We are oversimplifying our own complexity, and thus performing a huge disservice to ourselves.

To see a ‘contradiction’ in the chart is to learn of those human concepts that prompt our self-growth, that hide our darkness, and that fester beneath our conscious selves.

It is in those placements, which are often found in square, opposite, and inconjunct aspects, we learn how we fight ourselves and what part of us refuses to heal.

Yes, because as a concrete individual living and breathing, learning and growing, we will never wholly find ourselves through cookbook descriptions of sun and moon signs.

It is, instead, those moments of rage and destruction, sadness and jealousy, where we find our internal fight. You may write it off as “unlike me” or “heat of the moment.” You will then, of course, be ignoring your own 'contradictions,’ and your greatest opportunity for healing and self-growth.

Allow yourself to flow from the box that contains you.

neptunian feelings

Neptune in the 1st: your personality feels fickle, unstable, you don’t know who you are, relying on multiple personas to hide your insecurities and fears. you tend to pick up traits from the people you’re closest with. Neptune in the 2nd: in your mind, you never have too much. you believe money can buy you a ticket out of unhappiness. luxury is a fantasy. feels like your belongings can save your life, so you cherish them with heart and soul Neptune in the 3rd: fiction is always better than the real deal. your thinking process is frequently clouded with distractions, daydreaming is part of your nature. you’re easily hypnotized by whatever seems divine at the moment Neptune in the 4th: you seek protection in places you won’t find it. your childhood left a void in you so you try to fill it by creating illusions of a perfect home in your mind, and trying to recreate your definition of a perfect family Neptune in the 5th: over dramatization of love. you’re either in cloud nine, or extremely heart-broken. you idealize romance and daydream about intense affairs. glamour & art attract you for giving you a sense of pleasured escapism Neptune in the 6th: marked by hypersensitivity and avoidance of rules, schedules, plans and routines. easily bored by daily activities, and generally comfortable among messes/disorganized spaces. work has to be inspirational. Neptune in the 7th: codependent and easily attached, more to the ideas you fabricate about people than to them. you mirror the behaviors of others. You glamorize romantic relationships, often ignoring flaws. you want to save, or be saved by your lover.

Neptune in the 8th: overwhelming desire to understand death, the human mind and everything that is inexplicably complex. emotional wounds are very heavy on you & you dwell on them. self-destruction tendencies are familiar. Neptune in the 9th: hopeless and delusional optimism, incessant quest to find “heaven” on earth not through physical pleasure but through existential fulfillment. you’re lured in by promises of transcending the mundane Neptune in the 10th: you’re confused about your place in the world and can’t seem to find a purpose in life. marked by an obsession with reputation and your position in society. impressionable and unsure about career options 

Neptune in the 11th: easily influenced by friends, often unable to realize malice and evil intentions behind people’s actions. enchanted by the possibility of saving the world, but also emptied out by it.

Neptune in the 12th: you feel fragile and over-exposed so you seclude yourself, and then feel lonely. permanently unsatisfied with what life gives you, so usually feeling hopeless and lost. fantasy is better than reality.

⊱ crystals ⊹ fantasy ⊹ nature ⊰

the pisces pain can be this recurring and gnawing inability to cope with present reality and the harsh world as is. emotions can feel physically painful, and the senses can be easily overstimulating. pisces can desire to be somewhere else so badly, at times feeling so exhausted they could sleep until death

“Your intuition is a navigation device.”

— (via kushandwizdom)

The Signs: Dark Rulerships

Dark and unusual things over which each sign rules.

Aries: accidents, barren places and burned ground, cuts, doorways, insomnia, nosebleeds, skulls, surgery, thistles, trances, wolves

Taurus: coins, dogma, strangulation, gluttony, psychometry, suspect and unsafe places

Gemini: breath, pupils, rumors, chests, crystals, hounds, ribs, forgetting, pillars

Cancer: blood serum, graves, onyx, cellars, cradles, marshes, night flowers, glass, wells

Leo: fortresses and lairs, arrogance, chamomilla, ballrooms, circuses and playgrounds, vomiting

Virgo: black cats, fractured bones, libraries, intestines, conceit and inferiority, sick rooms, parasites

Libra: vines and lilies, marble, trials, alcoves and closets, vertebrae, forests, manipulation, attics

Scorpio: cesspools, bile, funerals and embalmers, magic, foul odors and stagnant water, blood red, vermin and mobs

Sagittarius: the spine, altars, visions and prophecy, incense, holy books, arteries

Capricorn: decay, abandoned places, thorns and nightshade, bones, coffins and mortuaries, gates, acid and ashes

Aquarius: ether and blood, radio static, teeth, rebellions, black pearls, nuclear weapons

Pisces: abbeys, enemies, hospitals and anesthetics, veils, outcasts and charlatans, clairvoyance, gasoline, mazes, falsity, self-undoing

“Once you truly experience a spiritual bond that transcends physicality, you will always consciously or unconsciously seek bonds that are able to pierce into the deepest layers of your soul, and anything less just feels so frivolous.”~ AV

My gorgeous Amethyst & Citrine points.

aries sparkling, startling intuitive or  ravaged fighter

taurus floodlight of illumination or  tormented desire 

gemini infuser of opposing worlds or  chaotically confused 

cancer  wielder of the creative source or  frightened, defensive battler 

leo creatively divine exhibitionist or  held hostage by ego

virgo  pristine heavenly mathematician or  hyper critical solitary

libra  temple of unity and acceptance or  hollow, empty dependant 

scorpio  deep soul doctor, healer of spiritual wounds or  overly tempted by death

sagittarius cultivated and divinely intimate philosopher or  skeptical sedative 

capricorn  resilient soldier of god, co-creator with the divine or  sorrowful victim 

aquarius  raiser of conscious spiritual seas or  mentally defeated solitary

pisces  healer from the source itself or  confined, confused escapist