she is not the easiest person to understand. something helaena knows without being told, without having to bear witness to the abject horror of the faces of those at court who do not even begin to attempt to consider the depths of which her mind reaches. to them she is merely yet another strange girl, yet another targaryen whose coin had tipped to madness. perhaps she was, but it had not been of her own volition – the dragon dreams had not been something she'd asked for, nor something she'd wanted. to be so haunted was not within the wantings of any girl. but there are moments of respite, moments of ease in the cloudiness she finds worthwhile. this afternoon is one of them, her head less full than it's felt in months, helaena is uncharacteristically chipper, a wide, beaming smile as she spins down the hall, arms laden with sweets from the kitchens, intent on spoiling her maids with the desserts she's procured.
until @cataschism catches her wrist, and guides her back gently to the wall instead, desserts spilled onto the floor and sidestepped as wide amethyst colored eyes fall onto his features.
“ aeg – ” no ability to answer, her lips caught just as soon as they'd begun to form his name by his descending and pressing swift. in an instant, the sweets are long forgotten on the floor, her hands busied as they curl into the collar of his doublet and then into his hair. it is not until he has kissed the very breath from her lungs and left her gasping for it that she manages to remember herself, her forehead rested against his as kiss - swollen lips rest mere centimeters away, and pull into a gentle smile. “ good afternoon to you too. ”
continued from here , @eyeofvengeance
there was nothing more terrifying than the sound of dragon wings on the wind. of that sansa had become certain. she had not wanted this position, had not wanted to be the one left behind in the wake of a war that was not hers, nor cregan's, to fight. but duty had called the way it so often did for men, and stark - bound honor meant the lord of the castle had gone to do his part – left behind in his stead the only family who had not turned her back . . . or died. it had meant that when the wind had howled with something more than winter, it was no man who crossed the threshold into the courtyard to meet aemond targaryen, but sansa in her quiet rage.
sansa who had sent her cousin's son into the crypts with the maester and the master - at - arms, and every maid they'd been able to find. had insisted she would do this alone. whatever it was that he wanted, she would handle – and none else would suffer for it.
but as he speaks, she cannot get a hold on him. cannot track the train of thought, cannot understand what it is he's asking for in between the pretty words and complimentary syllables. she knows it is something, to hear a man of his infamy speak of forging something stronger than oaths and service – it is always something.
“ forgive me, prince aemond, i fear i don't . . . quite follow what it is you are asking of me. ” her gloved hands interlace together in front of her, a careful flicker of grey - blue eyes across his features, studying the careful twitch of muscles, each consideration even as his voice softens. “ if you have not come here to kill me, or my kin, then perhaps the northern air has done you well in the fraction of time you have drawn breath within it. ”
red curls billow in the wind, cold encompassing the courtyard, but sansa dares not to allow herself even so much as a hint of a tremble now. not when she must be the voice of those who needed her. nor would she dare allow him inside the walls of winterfell proper, not without a better promise of his intentions. “ your dragon will not like it here. ” she says softly, boots shifting upon the stone path. “ even visenya did not fly so far north with her. i cannot decide whether that makes you courageous or full of folly. " or both. those words go unspoken, though the implication remains as sansa shifts her gaze from aemond to beyond the walls of the courtyard, beyond to where she fears for the worst in seeing large wings of a dragon come to life again.
“ speak plainly of your wishes, and i will allow you both warmth for the evening. else i am just as keen to stand here with you all night, it will not be i who freezes first. ”
*** added muses / changes !!
changes.
floris baratheon is now portrayed by poppy drayton.
helaena targaryen will now . . . sometimes . . . be portrayed by thea sofie loch naess. argue w/ a wall idc.
additions.
myranda royce , portrayed by charithra chandran.
desmera redwyne , portrayed by nicola coughlan.
alysanne blackwood , portrayed by marina moschen.
tyshara lannister , portrayed by michelle randolph.
ps , i work the next two days and since it drains the existence from me i won't be writing here much but i will be lurking and am around for plotting / figuring out dynamics and such either here or on discord <3
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Francesca Bridgerton + outfits
Bridgerton Season 3 Episode 1-4 (Part I)
@tymptir said : there is nothing bad inside you. nothing. , from gwayne to helaena .
a slow, delicate shifting of her gaze to look at her uncle, a momentary pause as she considers just how much he reminds her of her mother. of the fact that if she allows her eyes to close, she could almost imagine that alicent had said the words instead, that her mother had comforted her this way, instead of looking upon her with the same confused, uncertain look she tended to have for her. but there was something inside of her that wasn't . . . inherently good, of that, helaena was almost certain. good did not conjure nightmares, did not plague dreams with visions of futures – good was benevolence, kindness, gentility. whatever gifts had been given to her had not been done in good faith.
her lips pull into a smile that does not reach her eyes, a pale hand extended out to gently press fingers to his arm in acknowledgment of his words before said hand falls away just as quickly – an echo of a graze, like being touched by a ghost. “ there is nothing bad in you. ” she repeats, her eyes held onto his face, despite the fact that helaena did not often feel comfortable doing so for anyone. it felt right to do so now, felt imperative that lilac tinted hues hold onto his face.
“ i think it is too late for me. ”
in my returning to this blog i am once again speaking it into the universe that the best way to start interacting with me is to send me a meme .-.
not to be the crybaby that i am, but my brain is useless today so i will be menacing on discord, pls feel free to hmu there if u wanna do some things <3
@tymptir said : I am not what you wanted, but I swear to you I shall fulfill my duties as your husband as well as I can — and leave you alone as much as you wish, should that be your preference. , from tyrion to sansa .
she knows that she should not be cruel. for whatever situation she had found herself in now, it was not his fault – sansa had come to learn which lannister pulled the strings, which cruelties to blame upon joffrey, and which ones could be attributed to cersei, but this one she knew belonged to a far more diligent hand. lord tywin had not been present within the red keep for more than a few days before her dreams of escaping to highgarden with lord willas had been dashed, and the cold face of reality made to look back upon her once more from her vanity mirror.
but that does little to quell the annoyance she feels now, the insistent rage of a girl so tired of being used in whichever political arrangement she was most useful for. another fact that is not his fault, but lord tyrion is the only one offering her this quiet place of solitude – the only one offering her the ability to voice her displeasure without fear of retribution. even still, sansa eyes him much like a wolf uncertain if the hunter before her is hiding a knife behind his back.
“ none of this is to my preference, but that has never mattered much to anyone here. ” she says plainly, her emotions steeled behind practised mannerisms. if she could stand to look joffrey in the face after he'd harmed her, after he'd made her look upon her father's head upon a pike, sansa could manage this. could manage anything. “ your family enjoys killing wolves, i hope you will be kind enough to allow me the comfort of not knowing when you decide to take my head. ”
unwilling to acknowledge his willingness to acquiesce to her, as if his willingness made it better that she'd been a prisoner here ever since the day her father was killed. as if she'd ever been given a choice on whether she wanted to stay.
got a couple fiiiings in my queue but i got too sleepy to do much more writing. we go again tomorrow
me staring at my additional muses i’m going to add list: you can’t just cast all the actresses from bridgerton
also me: SAYS WHO
to add more hotd / asoiaf characters or to not add more hotd / asoiaf characters