Npd Culture Is Feeling Exhausted Or Crashing After Most Social Interactions Because You Didn't Present

not to sound mentally ill, but if I have to face the reality of my existence one more time, I might light myself on fire in hopes to be born anew like a phoenix.

The thing about NPD is nothing is ever enough.

Yeah I’m intelligent but I’m not intelligent enough.

Yeah I’m beautiful but I’m not beautiful enough.

Yeah I’m important to them but I’m not important enough.

There’s a chronic feeling of emptiness because I think so highly of myself but I was never enough for my abuser and now I will never be enough for myself.

questioning npd culture is always blaming mistakes you do on trauma or neurodivergencey because it’s not my fault im like this

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NPD + BPD culture is needing to be useful and extraordinary or else no one will need nor want me

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Just a reminder that ableism against personality disorders, especially cluster b personality disorder, is alive and well.

Not having empathy doesn’t make someone evil. It doesn’t make them an abuser. In fact, people without empathy are better in certain vital positions. We’re better at being first responders, 911 operators, and other tasks that would overwhelm empaths. We work better in critical situations than empaths do.

Thinking that any disorder makes someone evil is ableist. And when you take into account the sexist bias in diagnosing women with BPD and the racist and classist bias in diagnosing POC and prison inmates with ASPD and NPD? It’s not only ableist, it’s all kinds of -ists. Plus, it’s really rich for someone who claims that empathy is what makes someone good to have so little empathy for people with disorders that are literally trauma-based.

So yeah if you see someone being a dick to people with PDs? Say something. Because they’re definitely not going to listen to us.

the thing that gets me the most about ableism against pd’s is that ppl will be like “these disorders make you an ASSHOLE!!!!” and then turn around and pretend that other disorders can’t and don’t make you act shitty.

depression and anxiety can make you irritable and snappy. they can cause you to refuse to listen to people and to be distant and withdrawn. they can cause you to seem angry, bitchy, rude, uncaring, etc.

ptsd causes an array of difficulties in forming meaningful relationships. it pretty much shakes up your entire worldview and sense of self a lot of the time. ptsd can cause you to get angry often. it can cause you to yell and scream. it can cause you to withdraw from others, run away, or cut them out. it can cause general changes in demeanor and more cynical worldviews. it can make you seem grouchy, negative, explosive, impolite, difficult, needy, controlling, etc.

and yet when people with personality disorders have symptoms of that nature, suddenly we are irredeemable monsters. when it’s npd, bpd, hpd, or aspd instead of ptsd or depression and anxiety, people suddenly and magically lose the ability to be understanding.

mental illness is an explanation, not an excuse. i firmly believe that. hurting others is never justified simply because you have any disorder.

but if you can be patient with people who have depression, anxiety, ptsd, ocd, or any other more well understood mental illness, you can be patient with us.

questioning npd culture is having to explain that being friends with someone because "its the right thing to do" IS your form of caring. if i didnt care i wouldve left you in a ditch months ago. if i didnt care i wouldnt even be telling you that i secretly groan whenever you show up and ruin whatever more important thing im doing. this is care, i promise you it is. please try to understand. please dont leave me

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my dash is like "shitpost" "important sociopolitical event" "fandom fuckery" "queer discourse" "vague hornyposting" "advice for adulthood" "calls for a boycott of companies for xyz reasons" "series of gifs of a show i don't watch" "cute cat" and i think that's how this hellsite was meant to be consumed

AND STOP USING PEOPLE'S MENTAL DISORDERS TO CALL THEM ABUSIVE.

i am human and i am flawed because of it but there is an innate capability to connect in the human brain and i think maybe it's okay to start out by connecting to yourself however that may look