Parisntexxas - Carmilla

❤️

I am the type of lover that foresees collapse and dives in headfirst anyway. I am the type of lover that knew who he was all along and loved him anyway. I implored him, I craved him at every moment of the day and every second I did not spend with him was a waste of time to me. I loved him, I knew him, with his blood underneath my nails, tears down my shirt, pulling him into me and mourning his body that was still warm in my arms. I knew he wouldn’t stay from the very beginning, yet I played his game simply to draw him out of himself and to experience him fully as a person. I am rich, but not in the way you’d think, but my biggest pleasure in life is coaxing the life and humanity out of people and to collect their impressions on me and see the world as they do. It’s so beautiful to be human. I wish I could live like they do

Suguru Geto from Jujutsu Kaisen

You long for a sense of true belonging but may be restless in your search. You might change residence frequently or feel the need to make many changes in your home.

Mental health status:

a short one today. heartbreak and heartache are awful things.

healing takes time. i'm here every step on the way, and some of the steps back too.

2014.

my first and last